Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v.2

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@invegauser: I feel shame for being unreceptive enough to your powerful words, im just too convinced im brain damaged enough to prevent me from living out the things i worked my whole life towards

thanks for taking the time to support others and myself despite you having gone through the worst of it yourself, im a goner its just too fucked how i feel and how i live now. btw i cant PM or post from my phone and im hardly on the computer because im in bed lazy and hopeless as fuck. im still marching on towards suicide unfortunately, its very sickening and sad but i refuse to allow my mind body soul to go through such abuse and degradation
 
I would really like to compile a list of all the success stories they are so hard to find but they are out there. I have read several but the majority of the posts on invega recovery are victims voicing complaints about how they have been damaged by this drug which is demoralizing. One would like to think that with years of time you will heal and get back to your original self or close to it. It is just hard to believe that Psychopath doctors are injecting poison into people that permanently alter their lives lobotomizing them castrating them vegatizing them. That is an outrage that doctors took a oath to heal not hurt yet they are injecting bullets into patients. American Psychiatry has a dark history Nazi like origins there is even a conspiracy that it's a eugenics sterilization program.

I myself have fallen into another conspiracy too long to explain here but I almost want to explain it as part of my story, it is a reason why I was injected with this terrible medecine to begin with. Really the conspiracy I would share plays into psychiatry because according to the conspiracy that is just one element on how they attempt to ruin destroy people's lives.

I don't know if you remember some of my older posts invegauser but I said that at one point I was living a very happy strong healthy life. In every way shape in form I was mentally healthy spiritually healthy physically healthy had the ultimate sense of well being happiness and good emotions. This was years 2016-2017 I was at the prime of my life the pinnacle working grinding seeing the fruits of my labor come to life. I am not a wealthy or powerful man but the conspiracy I am about to explain is designed to completely and utterly destroy a persons life, it is designed to get rid of people force them to suicide silence them or get them locked into a mental institution discrediting them.

It wasn't until toward the end of 2017 that very strange things started to happen to me. Things that cannot be explained, I have no history of mental illness and for the majority of my life I have been good healthy sane no history of drug use or accidents that could effect your brain/mind. Come from a great line of family with no genetic defects or any major health issues. Mental illness doesn't occur out of the clear blue sky for no reason when you are a fully grown adult in your prime. I knew what happened to me wasn't my own doing but a external force and that statement right there sends up red flags to the police the medical community that you are to be instantly drugged and institutionalized.

The conspiracy is so horrific that you would want to call the police or medical community for relief or to be saved because it is a horrific crime you are basically being murdered. An attempt is made to destroy your life. If you mention any of these phrases to the authorities you will be detained. Gangstalking Voice to Skull synthetic telepathy psychotronic weapons EEG heterodyning CIA Project MK Ultra the top secret weaponization of neuroscience by the defense security military intelligence sectors trauma based electronic harassment Mind control directed energy weaponry electromagnetic non ionizing radiation microwave hearing Mind Control artificial telepathy Remote Neural Monitoring ELF weapons extremely low frequency scalar waves covert psychological harassment warfare. If you google any of this you will find tens of thousands of victims world wide voicing complaints that they are being viciously tortured murdered raped in their own homes by a invisible unknown entity with some kind of highly advanced exotic technology/weaponry that the state government holds and has not disclosed to the public. I have been cooked with directed energy ears in pulsating pain because of their acoustical over air weapons.

You don't have to believe anything I say and you are welcome to think me crazy but late 2017 my life had been viciously put to a halt, I have been viciously tortured raped by these things I mention above and I know it is not of my own doing. There was a specific day that these monsters came in here incapacitating me and violently cooking me attacking me with these weapons slowly and agonizingly destroying my life depatterning everything I do. They menticide and incapacitate people with trauma all delivered via this technology. Books have been published by doctors Satellite Terrorism In America by Doctor John Hall guinea pigs weapons of mass control dr john hall Project Soul catcher by Robert Duncan How to Tame a demon by Robert Duncan the matrix dechiphered by dr Robert Duncan. Robert Duncan was on national television with Jesse Ventura called brain invaders he worked on developing this technology and came out whistle blowing because it is a human rights violation. One of the worst atrocities ever committed by man who's origins date back to Nazi Scientist after the war being brought over through operation paper clip to work on projects like MK ultra (CIA mind control program) and that was in the fifties. The theory is decades later these mad men have done it they have weaponized neuroscience and created mind control open air concentration camps that they hold people mentally captive in. Dr Cameron was the president of American Psychiatry and he was also a head scientist in MK ultra which is a horribly evil thing.
It all plays into together one big conspiracy that there is a filtering system in society today to get rid of the unwanted in every major modernized imperialistic civilization operated by the elites the authorities hiding in the shadows that we all live under. USA China Russia Western Europe any major civilization supposedly you cannot run from their terror it is global. Once they get your brainwave signature that supposedly you resonate like a fingerprint that can be detected with this over the horizon technology or your EMF field they can clone it and tie it to this system and you are screwed at that point they have a direct neural link to you.

It is all designed to make you look schizophrenic delusional and as soon as you are diagnosed that one objective is done at destroying your life discrediting you then you will be put on heavy medications that mentally disabled you. One big filtering system eugenics program run by the authorities.

I'm not going to share why I was enrolled into this death program would make this long story even longer but there are many reasons why people are chosen for this death program revenge hatred dissidents activist or people considered criminal degenerates or people who go against norm the grains of society with what ever they are doing. Or just some are picked for targets of opportunity sport just to be a human experiment. Usually people are targeted because they have been accused of some wrong doing.

Anyway you don't have to believe anything I say but yeah basically I told my parents about all of this that I was a victim of all of this then one day we got into a fight because I was drinking they called the police and told them all of this shit I was detained they shot me up with invega in order for me to be released early from the psychward. The nurses and doctors straight up tricked me and lied to my face saying that this drug has no negative side effects. They swayed me to take it by offering early release from their hell hole mental hospital. If I would have known that this shit basically murders people I would have told them to stick that shot up their asses. Even my attorney that was there (you get one when you go to those places) told me I wasn't presenting and I shouldn't even be there. It was all because of my ignorant stubborn parents rating me out to the police and hospital they even lied and told them I wanted to kill myself you should have seen the bullshit document they had full of lies and demonized information they made up to keep me there. Crooked pieces of shit just trying to make money by victimizing people.

As far as how I feel from the invega I don't know I think I'm not as bad as when I first was administered the two shots. The 234? And 150something? When I was first administered the shot I had sexual dysfunction and a very heavy feeling but that all went away so you could consider that improvement or healing. I do how ever know that I am no where near the health and happiness I had before all of this happened to me. These two things have really done a number and robbed me of so much of the good life I was living. I do not think all of my emotions have returned I mean like I said I can feel coffee cigarettes soda beer again but I used to never use any of those used to be pure and clean feeling great of life it's self. Maybe I am a bit flatter than I was before all of this happened but it is not so extreme and unbearable like others have claimed it to be. I think I have dodged a lot of the horrible side effects that this drug causes people however I know I am not my original self. Maybe my emotions are not all the way there or as strong as they used to be we can all only pray that all of these side effects go away and our brains heal and recover that we can one day receive the pleasure and enjoyment from life that we once were. Hopefully this drug hasn't permantly damaged our brains with a chemical lobotomy. I'd like to think that with years of time we will all heal if we take care of ourselves even if it's not 100% like we used to be. I would like to heal a 100%. I want my good life back. Just going to try and stay positive and get my mind off this invega for now.

Best wishes to all
 
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@nybryx Sorry I can't speak the convenient words because my mind isn't right...

I have felt the same way in my agony. So I thought why not just forget about my life, why not just forget about how it would turn out had I not been shot up with this crap? Why not just let go? And I did, I don't care about how my life would have been, should have been different. Shame that I was on the worst end of it because if you simply see it, I got the asshole of a luck in my face.

Just let go...

Some days I am once again dying in my agony, I can't let go because it's too much to handle. I thought of it as getting the shot just yesterday, then it would have been much worse. So I think of it as that I just got the new shot today. That way I feel like i'm starting new on the road to recovery.

Update day Zero: It's not that bad this time around ;).

AND: drink plenty of non-fluoridated filtered water. Don't just sit around, move around, you got this bud. remember people who got 2 shots say they get fully recovered by 2 years.
 
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Here is what I know. The gist of it.

MKUltra was the use of LSD and other substances in public places, the use of chemical substances, electroshock, radiation, and other mind-damaging tortures on psychiatric patients inside mental hospitals. The project still exists today, it is called MK Monarch. look into it.


  1. Substances which will promote illogical thinking and impulsiveness to the point where the recipient would be discredited in public.
  2. Substances which increase the efficiency of mentation and perception.
  3. Materials which will cause the victim to age faster/slower in maturity.
  4. Materials which will promote the intoxicating effect of alcohol.
  5. Materials which will produce the signs and symptoms of recognized diseases in a reversible way so they may be used for malingering, etc.
  6. Materials which will cause temporary/permanent brain damage and loss of memory.
  7. Substances which will enhance the ability of individuals to withstand privation, torture, and coercion during interrogation and so-called "brain-washing".
  8. Materials and physical methods which will produce amnesia for events preceding and during their use.
  9. Physical methods of producing shock and confusion over extended periods of time and capable of surreptitious use.
  10. Substances which produce physical disablement such as paralysis of the legs, acute anemia, etc.
  11. Substances which will produce a chemical that can cause blisters.
  12. Substances which alter personality structure in such a way the tendency of the recipient to become dependent upon another person is enhanced.
  13. A material which will cause mental confusion of such a type the individual under its influence will find it difficult to maintain a fabrication under questioning.
  14. Substances which will lower the ambition and general working efficiency of men when administered in undetectable amounts.
  15. Substances which promote weakness or distortion of the eyesight or hearing faculties, preferably without permanent effects.
  16. A knockout pill which can be surreptitiously administered in drinks, food, cigarettes, as an aerosol, etc., which will be safe to use, provide a maximum of amnesia, and be suitable for use by agent types on an ad hoc basis.
  17. A material which can be surreptitiously administered by the above routes and which in very small amounts will make it impossible for a person to perform physical activity."

LSD experiments on the public and bacteria dumped into cities water.

Experiments and basically ways to ruins people lives conducted on psychiatric patients, prisoners, and sometimes army volunteers. A patient would usually go in with depression, or maybe got diagnosed with some label like psychosomatic pain, usually in those days there wasn't a big drug culture, so most patients were not admitted due to drug induced psychosis.

deep patterning and psychic driving: use of electroshock to erase memories and damage the mind. the Sleeping patient (months at a time) would be played a tape recording over and over. Man these bizarre idiots got away with this ...

In prisons, prisoners were unknowingly dowsed with high levels of radiation, often on their testicles. The effects were too see how much of the radiation caused infertility.

Project Monarch, conducted on orpah children, some who had parents killed, kidnapped...: The following is a partial list of these forms of torture:
1. Rape
2. Confinement in boxes, cages, coffins, etc, or burial (often with an opening or air-tube for oxygen)
3. Restraint with ropes, chains, cuffs, etc.
4. Near-drowning
5. Extremes of heat and cold, including submersion in ice water and burning chemicals
6. Skinning (only top layers of the skin are removed in victims intended to survive)
7. Spinning
8. Blinding light
9. Electric shock
10. Forced ingestion of offensive body fluids and matter, such as blood, urine, feces, flesh, etc.
11. Hung in painful positions or upside down
12. Hunger and thirst
13. Sleep deprivation
14 Compression with weights and devices
15. Sensory deprivation
16. Drugs to create illusion, confusion, and amnesia, often given by injection or intravenously
17. Ingestion or intravenous toxic chemicals to create pain or illness, including chemotherapy agents
18. Limbs pulled or dislocated
19. Application of snakes, spiders, maggots, rats, and other animals to induce fear and disgust
20. Near-death experiences, commonly asphyxiation by choking or drowning, with immediate resuscitation
22. Forced to perform or witness abuse, torture and sacrifice of people and animals, usually with knives
23. Forced participation in slavery
24. Abuse to become pregnant; the fetus is then aborted for ritual use, or the baby is taken for sacrifice or enslavement
25. Spiritual abuse to cause victim to feel possessed, harassed, and controlled internally by spirits or demons
26. Desecration of Judeo-Christian beliefs and forms of worship; dedication to Satan or other deities
27. Abuse and illusion to convince victims that God is evil, such as convincing a child that God has abused her
28. Surgery to torture, experiment, or cause the perception of physical or spiritual bombs or implants
29. Harm or threats of harm to family, friends, loved ones, pets, and other victims, to force compliance
30. Use of illusion and virtual reality to confuse and create non-credible disclosure
 
@DrAzTik: have you picked up any of those anxiolytics? ativan has pierced the poison for me on an occasion or two.
fortunately, the anxiety is gone so I didn't try Seresta yet
 
For me it was 17 month after the 2 injections. I have not my emotions back, my brain is blanc. I dream very less, never from the time before this poison. I lost my little boy because of this poison, that was given to me, when I was a healthy, breastfeeding mother.Do you think the love in me come back sometimes? Life is very boring and hard.
 
@ultimate thanks mate, im not responsive to positivity from you guys i feel bad for your efforts to pick up out this mess, appreciate it though maybe ill win the tug of war with suicidal feelings

@inv33 i feel you mate i was entering the prime of my life when i got poisoned, im now a suicidal shell of my former self cant accept this lifestyle of being mentally tethered to shit
 
For me also my life was good like never before. I had my little boy, he was very happy and I too.
 
although I have no really emotions, no happy fellings, no interests, no creativity, no new life, - my heart is the same. In my heart there is still love.
 
Last days I have not such a nervous feeling in my body. But means that something? I am sad sometimes. I dont like to watch Tv. The only dream is a dream of seing my child. How will that going on? Is my brain really dead, are my happy feelings, my vivid person gone forever? What do I have for perspectives?
 
Yes, I can dream, but not from the vivid life I had before. The right side of my brain is without life!! Will it stay so forever? Are the receptors really dead? Please tell me, if you can!!
 
@ultimate thanks mate, im not responsive to positivity from you guys i feel bad for your efforts to pick up out this mess, appreciate it though maybe ill win the tug of war with suicidal feelings

@inv33 i feel you mate i was entering the prime of my life when i got poisoned, im now a suicidal shell of my former self cant accept this lifestyle of being mentally tethered to shit

how long have u been off invega? you havent felt like before the shots since then?
 
@invegauser I stopped taking the Wellbutrin long ago. I had been reading about how all of these drugs have negative side effects and just said to heck with it I am going pure and clean. I read your posts and really appreciate your support you give me hope. Like I said it's not like I am feeling unbearable symptoms but when I start to think about it for the last months I haven't had very strong positive feelings emotions kind of flat I can definitely tell a difference of before and after. It has me worried. I mean like I said I get windows of appreciation also I can remember how I used to feel I get slight positive feelings from time to time but no where near where I was. However I have had symptoms and they went away sexual dysfunction not being able to drink a beer and feel it a very heavy feeling that all went away. I just hope this drug hasn't robbed me of the greatest things in life your spirit and soul.
 
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Update 4 months out: Hello, I was thinking that the palperidone is either done or come to an end. This maybe the long-after effect I am feeling due to temporary brain damage.

Still far far worse than a concussion and other type of crap they hype about. Besides they treat brain damage with poison, and make a big deal about it to fool the public. BC of Invega I could finally see the deception.

How many years on risperdal do they put into one injection anyway?
 
@invegauser you read me right I try to speak with my soul and heart bro, the poison is sorcery that affects us in a way that we are just not evolved to deal with, rather it destroys the faculties we have evolved for our survival and procreation, it is nothing but a curse there is nobody in the world possibly getting any benefit from this class of medicine. I've just ordered the last bit of apparatus for a painless death i just hope that if i succumb to the situation try to kill myself i succeed first time and don't end up more brain damaged. I don't think I will be able to resist trying when the pressure is on, I'm just too far away from my real self and the real world, rather death than this continual hell


@Rosi71 I think im just as sensitive as you are to the poison, I feel like shit in every way but still have love in my heart, the soul feels trapped by the damaged brain, I read your posts from a long time ago and you sounded just like me now seeing no improvement and feeling permanently fried, I personally think many like me wont recover fully after the two loading doses, i felt the brain shrinkage happen, acceptance and getting used to it is a big part of feeling like you have recovered, some can't even tell if they have really recovered but they say they have despite not being able to drink or smoke weed anymore. personally I can't accept what has happened or take the daily struggle only to end up with terrible sleep waking up into a nightmare reality. sorry you have been victimised so bad for so long, and with you missing your son is just awful, hope something gets better for you soon in more ways


@we flew over, I'm 3 months out now after 2 shots, I feel vaguely better sometimes mainly sleep but essentially the same outrageous problems exist, soul gone, no motivation, no vibes and energy, a shocking turnaround in lifestyle and prospects
 
@nybryx Well you only had two loader doses there are worse cases of people being forced ordered to take months or even years worth of this medication. @rosi you only had two doses as well and haven't healed?

I think if we only had two loader doses we would heal in time. It's hard to believe that there is a medication that can permantly alter people for the worse. I'd like to think we can all heal in time.
 
@nybryx

i was convinced quitting would stop the effects of invega like all the meds id been on before but after two months off and no changes i started to assume that this was permanent

so last week i went to my hometown to take some exams and i almost convinced myself of committing suicide, but i also had some hope i guess after reading a success story so i wrote my first post asking what to expect and something happened, when i was done i posted and all the angst had lifted, and i was free (for a day) completely back to normal, really excited about what was happening, but yeah everything came back, the interest, the motivation, the social skills, and I was at ease.
then the worry and inability (to live) came back and it has stayed.

im considering suicide again, because im back to how invega left me, hopeless
but i wont do it, because now i know Im still here: after stopping the medication i had a day where i was myself again (so no brain damage, at least not to the point of deleting who I am)
maybe it means ill have more and more of these days
for now im dumbed down again, and it doesnt let you move on its like it blinds you
but yeah like i was 100% back for a day after stopping, so i am still here, and i have had access to my real self

when all this fucking angst builds up it blocks you and only the memory of a better life seems real
and everything reminds you of how you used to feel about things
but thats how you feel, life is still ok, and i know you are stronger than whats been put in you
and life is also stronger than that, and if u let it through you will feel better
and if you allow yourself to feel better through hope and positive thinking i think that will free you and allow you to come back to yourself

it feels like everything has lost its meaning, even people and relationships, and i cant function properly
but I know its the medication, so i will keep pushing forward, for myself, because i do love life even though i dont feel it now
and if i dont fight for me no one else will
 
@nybryx, Hey I could use your help learning code, I think you said once that you knew programming. I really could use your help. I feel you bro, my life is like yours, although I don't complain here, I still got it pretty bad. A lot worse than how my words describe it. BTW the Invega fluoride crystal eventually comes out.
 
@inv33 obviously id hate to have had any more shots but i think they can induce a lobotomy just with the loading doses, im going by my subjective experience of this, my life is destroyed and not improving at any perceivable rate, ive been a strong person up until the point i took on this poison

@we flew over, you describe how i feel in your post, we all have the same devastating effects, sorry but i struggle to see how one can fully recovered for a day only but i hope its possible, id love to have just a day off

@ultimate sure what do you need help with ill try my best. i mainly wrote javascript code this is some stuff i did, nothing too heavy https://codepen.io/brudoku/
 
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