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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v.2

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@nybryx. I am also consumed with angst recentely after 3 month off invega. Do you think that anxiolitcs can be helpfull ?

I have managed to live with anhedonia alone during 3 months but Anheonia +angst is really a nighmare

My psychiatrist has prescribe to me Seresta (axiolitic) , I don't know what to expect but I am going to try it tonight coz I cannot sleep with angst


 
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@nybryx and @invegauser I wish I could give you guys a big Ol hug. I’m sorry you both are having a hard time today. Ugh this stupid invega is so aggravating what it does and has done to us. It numbs some of the greatest things in life which makes me truly believe that it is nothing more than merely over rated psychiatrist praised poison. The fact that it has affected SO many people in a negative, depressing, suicidal manor should be plenty enough to have it banned. People have feelings and emotions and the only thing it allows you to feel on it are the “bad sad” feelings. Even months after giving it up.
Guys hang in there. I know the suicidal, trapped in the poison feelings this shit gives and it’s completley rude and unkind to make any person go through this. Sending love and happy vibes both your way.
 
Hey guys
i'm gonna copy paste my posts from another forum (wrote first one just after finishing suicide letters for my brother and sister (really felt like invega "damage" was permanent and couldn't stand my own company) and second one after coming back home) you are probably gonna think I'm a troll, and sure, it will seem that way, because for me all negative aspects of paliperidone have been replaced by gratitude, yes gratitude, to myself (for not giving myself up), my parents (for making me take the drug, although im not sure they had good intentions (i know, twisted)) , and the creators of this makes-you-want-to-die-then-sends-you-on-a-trip-so-deserved-you'll-love-them-for-it drug.

"Rediscovering" love, admiration, etc has been the best so far. Fuck i hate writing, such a hassle. But all day couldn't stop thinking about everyone who's going through this. If i can do it you all can, how you all described the "lack of old self" made me know you were feeling that exact shit i was. So. If we felt the same and i was able to get out of that hole that means it's totally up to you. I know. This sounds almost obscene, its incredible how no one sees how fucked up we feel in that state. family, etc, felt really disregarding. but what i mean by "its up to you" is that if you want it back you'll get it back, just like i have, its there, waiting for you. in a way you are waiting for yourself to go through this, process it, and then rise from the ashes. I KNOW it sounds like total BS, and yes, Ive been on invega 6 months, quit 2 months ago more or less, and I am 100000% back. hard to believe, nevertheless true. It comes back with a vengeance. I sing more beautifully than ever. Its really amazing. I know, I know, hard to believe. I think something about the invega (or about our nature) makes you think its permanent, i was about to commit suicide, but i assure you, it is not.
before i had problems with the police fucking always, wouldn't shut my mouth for a second and people would call them, i would sing really loudly, but now this has given me so much perspective and somehow (singing from my heart, to everyones heart, truly feeling the connection) i can sing loudly AND not attract their attention. It has made me see what was wrong with how i dealt with life. It really is a life-saver, in the grand meaning of the word (or words*, shitty english, also "in the grand meaning", im sure thats BS english lol whatever u get me)
 
FIRST POST (yesterday morning)

hey. been in psychiatric wards 4 times, always drug-induced “psychosis” (would get really high and dance and sing in the streets, would draw attention from everyone including police/paramedics and eventually get confined for not cooperating (every time they’d follow me around id get scared shitless and they would say “paranoia!” thing is I did nothing wrong and was being persecuted so my emotions would run wild etc.) long story short I would “lose control”, get admitted into a ward, then leave go back to smoking and then back to square one. Last time I was admitted same thing happened, but something changed…


was in psych ward for almost 2 months and my father told me I could come home IF I take medicine shots, my mother gave me the option of going to a rehab centre (and not take the shots) ((doctor said injection was an option but I could keep taking the pills I was taking instead of the shots)) wanted to go home, not to a rehab centre (for god knows how long, been there 4 or 3 times also) so I accepted the xeplion treatment (here its called xeplion, I’m Spanish, hence the broken English) without looking into it, as medication never really had changed me after stopping treatment I thought this would be the same and didn’t give it a second thought (wanted to go back to freedom as soon as possible)


First shot got me trembling, tachycardia, pain in pones (i think, cant remember exactly), fell asleep feeling like i was dying
I took invega/xeplion shots for 6 months. (after that reaction I kept taking it which makes me a retard I guess, and makes the doctors who saw my body react like that incompetent or evil, I guess both lol.)
during this time I gained weight, lost the will to exercise, lost coordination (cant dance like before), lost vocabulary, long and short term memory impaired, creativity almost gone, ETC. until I couldn’t stand it anymore, got off the medication and was really happy about being about to recover the Magic (or however u call what makes you want to get out of bed in the morning)
I’ve been off it for almost two months and I’ve been feeling worse than ever


I thought this was like all other medications I had tried, you stop treatment, symptoms (dancing and singing in the street happier than ever) and joy, motivation etc come back. Wasn’t worried about It being gone because I thought it would come back like it had always done)


but now its been two months and I seriously contemplate suicide … feels like I wont go back to being who I was before these shots (an imaginative creation-monster, always lost in deep deep complex thoughts)
did u feel loss of cognition, intellect, memory? my memory has become shit. i don’t remember what I’m thinking whilst I’m thinking it. that’s how bad it is. not kidding. also I feel like I’ve forgotten everything that’s non-essential to keeping me alive. I feel like this drug leaves u with the bare minimum to keep going, in all aspects. physical emotional and mental, and by cutting the “excess” thought processes it assures that no abstraction will happen


my spirit has gone from Surging Thunder to Listless Waning.


TLTR:: was basically tricked into taking invega by my father (now i know why she divorced him, hes even more of a psychopath than she is) and everything I held dear about my Life has been suppressed/deleted. Id like to know which one of the two it is. Do you really think it will come back? the “psychosis”, the individuality, the independence, etc. ??
 
SECOND POST (yesteray evening)

hey me again
invega / xeplion induced ?depression? (if depressed people woke up feeling like this one day after living with depression they?d probably all commit suicide) is gone
as I was writing my first post I felt it fading away (didn?t truly realise this) and when I was done I sent it
then I realised, no anhedonia whatsoever
so i went out, all happy and stuff, and as I hit the Random button in TIDAL (spotify lookalike) No Love by eminem started
damn

rush of adrenaline

first in months
and then i started singing 100000% louder (ha) and better? amazing acoustics really
:) it feels like my spirit is back with a vengeance
i now can say im glad i took the shots


I KNOW THIS SOUNDS CRAZY and you may very well think I?m a troll
but
ill PM u gladly and HELP YOU THROUGH THIS
I instantly love all of you for not losing hope.
I thought it could be a window but it seems permanent, who knows
maybe i wake up tomorrow feeling like shit
i hope not, and i think i wont, but if That comes back I?ll have hope. which you should have too.


I recommend writing down your whole process, what YOU?ve been through, WHO you are and WHY this has happened to you


also i now see my father in a different light
i truly belive hes good and did what he thought was best
maybe hes a cunt i dont know! but i feel good about him anyways now.
maybe even thankfull
 
@we flew over wow! Well I have to say I can relate to all the down feelings you’ve experienced but I have to say that’s awesome that you made that kind of happy recovery. That’s cool to hear the joy you feel. We don’t think your a troll, we actually really enjoy hearing success stories. We come here to report the good and the bad. But primarily just for support. For ourselves and each other. I came here very sad not that long ago and have progressively gotten better after the injections. I took them for 10 months. Been off for about 8 months, I still have struggles but I also have improvements. Welcome to the group, again it’s good to hear a recovery story ❤️

@specified I smoked when I was on the shot. The only thing I really took from it was I felt extremely paranoid. Like over the top racing heart paranoid when I smoked on the injection. Didn’t really get a high. That might not be everybody but that was me. I also smoked after the injection a few times but the time I really felt high and like normal was about 6 months after my last injection. The high felt completely normal like what I was use to and no paranoia at that point.
 
The straightjacket just won't loosen up, I'm in a worse place each day more unwilling to get out of bed hope is lost within me. I've probably recovered some I feel there is too far a gap for my brain to make. My heart has been crushed the idea that all my dreams are over has sunk in and I'm in a deadlock of messed up brain lost hope and no motivation. How you guys have managed to go on for so long I do not know

@Draztik sorry youre experiencing similar problems mate seresta sounds like valium which has helped me cope temporarily and I avoid being dependent on stuff for obvious reasons and it can make it harder to track any recovery from the invega poison
 
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nybryx said:
i cant believe im experiencing this unimaginable hell, im seeing it for what it is nearly 12 weeks in and its making me and my life uglier by the day. ive written suicide notes and ive accepted i have no future, i have no choice but to hold on until im ready and able to cross over to the other side. goddamn this im so tense unsettled and unable to chill for a moment. thanks for trying @invegauser thanks so much
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Hello everyone, if u want invega to get rid of the body much sooner then 6 months then top 1 thing is
to take burdock root. Because it is famous for detoxifing the blood and helps gets rid of drugs in the body very very fast(in my opinion,not sure but u could research it in the internet). And also 2nd best thing is lemon. 3rd best thing is drinking water(especially alot). But remember if u drink alot of water with food then it might be possible to gain weight, so drink alot of water not with food(at least kinda empty stomack). I think excersise(especially alot) will help get rid of invega sustenna faster in the body.And u could research online how to detox your body from drugs.so if these 4 things r done, then this poison will be completely out from the body less then 3 months after injection(so less then 2 months not taking this horrible drug). U might probably have some withdrawal side effects from invega sustenna but I think it's totally worth it for this invega to get rid of the body faster if u r impatient about it.and the best thing for getting rid of invega in my opinion is burdock root.i hope this helps
 
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@We Flew Over: good read. like Willowblosom said, not a troll. you went through a hard trial and came out the other side yourself and better. appreciate you sharing. keep spreading the word where ever you may find anyone suffering from xeplion/invega. no worries on the english, it was better than you think and we understood. congratulations!

@Specified: the only other p.s. Willowblosom didn't include is we are all different. some can while on it, some can't. what she's relating is pretty typical. heed her advice, too many people thinking smoking the ganja is not dangerous. think again! i'm was a heavy smoker and i had it happen once, even smoked myself sober twice.
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Yeah true everyone's different some people will feel it others won't. I never got psychosis from weed.
 
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Invegarecovery said:
Hello everyone, if u want invega to get rid of the body much sooner then 6 months then top 1 thing is
to take burdock root. Because it is famous for detoxifing the blood and helps gets rid of drugs in the body very very fast(in my opinion,not sure but u could research it in the internet). And also 2nd best thing is lemon. 3rd best thing is drinking water(especially alot). But remember if u drink alot of water with food then it might be possible to gain weight, so drink alot of water not with food(at least kinda empty stomack). I think excersise(especially alot) will help get rid of invega sustenna faster in the body.And u could research online how to detox your body from drugs.so if these 4 things r done, then this poison will be completely out from the body less then 3 months after injection(so less then 2 months not taking this horrible drug). U might probably have some withdrawal side effects from invega sustenna but I think it's totally worth it for this invega to get rid of the body faster if u r impatient about it.and the best thing for getting rid of invega in my opinion is burdock root.i hope this helps
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Have you got papers stating burdock root gets rid of invega?
 
Ok, for the progress since getting of antipsychotic... I was put on antipsychotic a while ago for many reasons, getting involved with the wrong crowd was one. I finally found the girl that was hiding from me all this time (they told me it was a delusion, LOLOL). This was a major breakthrough for me, but yeah i'm waiting for my results, expecting weaker results, like 2.5 for sure. This isn't as bad as it used to be, but i'm expecting better improvement next semester.
 
It didn't specifically says it gets rid of invega but I think it helps get rid of invega significantly faster because in the internet it says it defoxifys the blood
 
Hi

I'm on xeplion 100 mg injections and am considering to stop taking it.I have to take it though because I'm in a group home for mental patients where they force you to take it, but I have a steady job and am thinking on moving on my own. I'm interested in hearing about reduction symptoms from this drug, I have been on 150 mg shot and now psychiatrist reduced that to 100 and in autumn she said that I could be on 75 mg, but idk if I can wait that long because I have terrible side effects(more on that in another post) So I'm really interested to hear from some of you what are ordinary reduction symptoms...thanks
 
@willowblosom "rude and unkind" is one way of putting it lol, you described the effects so correctly it should be banned and victims compensated for life and all the remaining poison be injected into the psychiatrists nuts
 
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