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Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

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Finally found a way. Thats it guys. I am buying the bottle right now. I am gonna do it. Dont know how but I will
 
Rulomaner said:
Finally found a way. Thats it guys. I am buying the bottle right now. I am gonna do it. Dont know how but I will
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Dude please don't, I know what you're going through right now is absolute hell but give yourself a chance, as difficult as it might be right now. I wasn't even planning on commenting today since I wanted to spend this day celebrating my dad's birthday but I couldn't possibly ignore such an urgent post. I'm certain it wouldn't be a pleasant death regardless. Attempting to overdose on it will lead to severe vomiting, seizures, and even permanent severe brain damage if you're unsuccessful, most likely more brain damage than any antipsychotic could possibly cause, I actually wanted to post about my sudden immense recivery that I experienced a few days ago, I'm hoping that it gives people like you or others hope about their situation.
 
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Invegatorture said:
My social worker is telling me my mental health caused my sexual dysfunction fuck sake
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Hah ikr, my older brother strongly believes that my sexual dysfunction is entirely caused by my depression and has absolutely nothing to do with Invega. Like what the hell no, I've never had sexual issues prior even during periods of time where I didn't feel particularly well that day so there is no correlation to my mental health and sexual health at all. Worst part is that he believes every, and I mean EVERY single supposed side effect is caused by my depression and excessive worrying like what the fuck? How is depression suddenly going to cause such a ridiculous amount of issues, when it barely affected me previously? For these reasons my tolerance to criticism has become extremely low after hearing most people believe my side effects are just in my head or some shit.
 
We can't even have the relief of crying and some people have the audacity to accuse us of mental illness. Its's unbelievable the lack of self-awareness that some people here have that they can't see how messed up we are. Some even have the audacity to suggest that we should take speed or antidepressants. If i were a mod i'd ban right away those that say these things.
 
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Hah ikr, my older brother strongly believes that my sexual dysfunction is entirely caused by my depression and has absolutely nothing to do with Invega. Like what the hell no, I've never had sexual issues prior even during periods of time where I didn't feel particularly well that day so there is no correlation to my mental health and sexual health at all. Worst part is that he believes every, and I mean EVERY single supposed side effect is caused by my depression and excessive worrying like what the fuck? How is depression suddenly going to cause such a ridiculous amount of issues, when it barely affected me previously? For these reasons my tolerance to criticism has become extremely low after hearing most people believe my side effects are just in my head or some shit.
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I'm surprised how people still believe with conviction that mental illneses are real. Psychiatry surely took society in a choke hold. I've been sad and depressed before and jerking off would always cheer me up. Now this sexual dysfunftion that i feel is mechanical. I just don't have sensation in my genitals. Why is it so hard for some people to understand? The mind has no power on the body. And what would your brother suggest. Antidepressants? The pills that actually give sexual diafunctiok and PSSD? LOL.
 
Ok so I was originally just gunna go back to sleep but nah that can wait, what I need to say right now is much more urgent, especially considering most people's state of mental health.

So like basically everyone here I was once very content and satisfied with my quality of life, taking everything for granted, being completely unaware of the fact that I'd soon experience extreme suffering and misery for over half a year, easily the most difficult situation I've ever been in throughout my 23 years of existence, and would genuinely rather die then get injected with Invega ever again.

As you'd expect throughout the first several months I felt absolutely horrible, with severe anhedonia, akathisia, sexual issues, cognitive impairment, etc. As a result I felt completely hopeless, severely depressed, and constantly worried about if and when I'd ever recover to enjoy my life once again exactly like before, especially once I started reading an overwhelmingly large amount of situations of people taking years to recover, some even never recovered over a decade later.

So shortly after I spent literal hours constantly researching the most optimal, quickest, and most painless way of committing suicide. Had I owned a gun or known where to easily access one I definitely wouldn't be alive writing this now. I was very close to overdosing on every other medication I currently had, I also highly considered drowning and suffocation which I attempted but backed out immediately once I could no longer breathe properly.

Over a week ago several of my side effects had suddenly worsened for seemingly no logical reason at all, causing me to feel very suicidal once again. Because of that I had one day prepared to attempt to commit suicide again, but this time I wanted to do so in the same manner that Merek did, getting decapitated by a train while positioning my neck in the middle of the tracks. I was already going to start heading out to attempt to pull it off that day, but ultimately didn't happen as several people had talked me out of it.

Afterwards I desperately began begging and praying that I so desperately wanted to excape this hell that I've been experiencing for over half a year now, and out of nowhere, as if by a miracle I suddenly felt immensely better overall a few days ago. My biggest concern was my sexual dysfunction, but suprisingly I can function very close to the way I could before, close enough that I feel mostly satisfied and feel a sense of hope that it'll fully improve sooner or later.

So no, I'll be completely honest and admit that I still have lingering issues nowadays, such as slight anhedonia, learning and memorization issues, and double vision from the stroke I had from Invega-induced insomnia. But they're improved enough that I can once again live a pretty enjoyable quality of life again and no longer constantly think about trying to commit suicide.

So just yesterday when I went to church, I realized I could maintain an engaging conversation almost like before, yes I still have a somewhat blank mind and I'm more awkward now as a result but it didn't affect me enough to ruin my time taking to friends regardless. Realizing this, thinking about my sudden immense recovery, and the many people that care about me and would be devastated if I were to die, I suddenly felt very happy for some reason, and for the first time I was able to experience life again almost the way it was before over 7 months ago, even my personality has almost completely come back including my sense of humor.

So with all of this being said, I completely understand why anyone would feel completely suicidal and hopeless about their situation, but if you do your best to push through this, there's a possibility that you'll someday recover once again to live a good quality of life again like me. I will say though, if you're hoping to recover to exactly where you were prior, you'll never be satisfied. Instead at least aim to recover enough to enjoy certain aspects of your life again, whatever it is that you desire.

This is easily my longest post here to date, but as I said earlier it really pains me to see so many innocent people go through the same or similar experience I did, if I could I'd extract every bit of these "medications" out of everyone's system, but unfortunately that isn't currently a possibility, the best you can do is maintain a positive mindset, eat a balanced diet, and excercise regularly, even just a simple short walk is more helpful than lying in bed all day long, especially if you go out on nature preserves/trails and try to admire the naturalistic beauty of your surroundings.

(I'd like to mention that after my experience, I am highly considering uploading a video in a few days on my YouTube channel about what lead to getting injected with Invega, what I felt afterwards, and how I saw gradual, and even sudden improvements over time.)
 
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CrimsonThornX said:
Ok so I was originally just gunna go back to sleep but nah that can wait, what I need to say right now is much more urgent, especially considering most people's state of mental health.

So like basically everyone here I was once very content and satisfied with my quality of life, taking everything for granted, being completely unaware of the fact that I'd soon experience extreme suffering and misery for over half a year, easily the most difficult situation I've ever been in throughout my 23 years of existence, and would genuinely rather die then get injected with Invega ever again.

As you'd expect throughout the first several months I felt absolutely horrible, with severe anhedonia, akathisia, sexual issues, cognitive impairment, etc. As a result I felt completely hopeless, severely depressed, and constantly worried about if and when I'd ever recover to enjoy my life once again exactly like before, especially once I started reading an overwhelmingly large amount of situations of people taking years to recover, some even never recovered over a decade later.

So shortly after I spent literal hours constantly researching the most optimal, quickest, and most painless way of committing suicide. Had I owned a gun or known where to easily access one I definitely wouldn't be alive writing this now. I was very close to overdosing on every other medication I currently had, I also highly considered drowning and suffocation which I attempted but backed out immediately once I could no longer breathe properly.

Over a week ago several of my side effects had suddenly worsened for seemingly no logical reason at all, causing me to feel very suicidal once again. Because of that I had one day prepared to attempt to commit suicide again, but this time I wanted to do so in the same manner that Merek did, getting decapitated by a train while positioning my neck in the middle of the tracks. I was already going to start heading out to attempt to pull it off that day, but ultimately didn't happen as several people had talked me out of it.

Afterwards I desperately began begging and praying that I so desperately wanted to excape this hell that I've been experiencing for over half a year now, and out of nowhere, as if by a miracle I suddenly felt immensely better overall a few days ago. My biggest concern was my sexual dysfunction, but suprisingly I can function very close to the way I could before, close enough that I feel mostly satisfied and feel a sense of hope that it'll fully improve sooner or later.

So no, I'll be completely honest and admit that I still have lingering issues nowadays, such as slight anhedonia, learning and memorization issues, and double vision from the stroke I had from Invega-induced insomnia. But they're improved enough that I can once again live a pretty enjoyable quality of life again and no longer constantly think about trying to commit suicide.

So just yesterday when I went to church, I realized I could maintain an engaging conversation almost like before, yes I still have a somewhat blank mind and I'm more awkward now as a result but it didn't affect me enough to ruin my time taking to friends regardless. Realizing this, thinking about my sudden immense recovery, and the many people that care about me and would be devastated if I were to die, I suddenly felt very happy for some reason, and for the first time I was able to experience life again almost the way it was before over 7 months ago, even my personality has almost completely come back including my sense of humor.

So with all of this being said, I completely understand why anyone would feel completely suicidal and hopeless about their situation, but if you do your best to push through this, there's a possibility that you'll someday recover once again to live a good quality of life again like me. I will say though, if you're hoping to recover to exactly where you were prior, you'll never be satisfied. Instead at least aim to recover enough to enjoy certain aspects of your life again, whatever it is that you desire.

This is easily my longest post here to date, but as I said earlier it really pains me to see so many innocent people go through the same or similar experience I did, if I could extract every bit of these "medications" I could out of everyone's system, but unfortunately that isn't currently a possibility, the best you can do is maintain a positive mindset, eat a balanced diet, and excercise regularly, even just a simple short walk is more helpful than lying in bed all day long, especially if you go out on nature preserves/trails and try to admire the naturalistic beauty of your surroundings.
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Wow that’s genuinely impressive to make such recovery in just a few days from being so close to wanting to end it. I hope it continues to go in the right direction this time. I agree it does make sense that it can cause people to be suicidal. Makes me sad that so many people are struggling and all we can try to do is be there for others and offer hope by sharing our own progress, so thank you for sharing. It happened to me too of feeling suicidal, but I recovered from that feeling thankfully.
 
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naoaguento said:
Had a date with a girl, it lasted 5 fucking hours.
5 fucking hours talking in a bar.
It was such an effort. This used to be easy with my old brain, full of thoughts and easily to engage in any subject.
I basically played a role as my old self. But fuck it. I did it. Even with a fucking blank mind it went achievable.
Lasted from 19h till midnight.
Took this as a challenge, to see if I was able to talk about topics besides mental illness.
Today woke up depressed thinking about how hard it was.
But maybe I should be proud that I was capable to do it, what do you guys think?
She didn't even noticed that I was totally uncomfortable and putting such an effort to hold the talk.
Had two drinks and felt nothing, no sign of euphoria or relaxation.
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U have a sex drive?
 
Robchanna said:
Was it ever 0 % and if so when did it become 30?
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Was 0% when I was taking risperidone. My testosterone was 87 and I wasn't able to maintain erections. Sex was only possible with Cialis.
It became 30% when I stopped it. Testosterone increased to 320 (it was 520 before antipsychotics).
Now I am able to have sex without any medication (orgasms aswell).
But I don't feel the urge to masturbate (used to be a everyday needy).
 
I'll point out that it's well worth it to get through a year of feeling like shit to be around for the decades of being alive and feeling OK after recovery.
 
Ayden said:
Damn I’m only giving it a year
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You have to wait longer than that before you can determine if you will recover or not, I would say if you haven’t recovered at all In 2 years then yea it’s probably permanent and suicide becomes a way to stop the pain , 1 year though might not be enough time to start seeing improvements. I urge you to consider prolonging your 1 year mark to 2 years , it might save your life man.
 
My friend you are only 5 and a bit months off the shot it’s only now leaving your system then your brain STARTS recovering slowly at this point , you have to wait it out man you may still recover please stay alive for now…
 
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