@Dre87 im sorry to hear that you lost your job. I really respect your optimism and drive and hope things will turn out well at your new one.
Because of my husband we were able to retain possession of our house near Tacoma WA through all this experience. We sold it in July to move back to the midwest where he's from. Real estate in WA is ridiculous so we were able to get a very nice home compared to what we had previously. I think that it's been very good for me to disconnect from my family through this process. One of the reasons I quit therapy in 2021 was because I was tired of the subject always going back to my mother. When my brother passed away in 2017 I was sort of forced to take the role of family catalyst to hold our formerly close unit together. This created a large amount of emotional weight- when I had my first break with reality in September 2018, I was expected to not only play catalyst but also scapegoat, taking and holding the blame for every negative aspect in the family dynamic. My mother encouraged my brother and sister to sever from me and at the same time shamed me for causing that severance through my mental break. Freeing myself from this shame and weight will , I hope, have a cathartic effect on me and hoepfully free me from some persecution complex style feelings i seem to have developed to cope with this dynamic. I feel hopeful for the future here in IL and still hold out that I'll never experience another psychotic break. I have one year left on the GI bill that I received in my 2015 divorce. I think I'll use it to study art - I completed my junior year for my business BA with decent grades but I really hated the program. Before my brother passed away my goal was to do art professionally after my divorce. I had taken a lot of classes, networked and did a few cons. I'm going to try to continue this in an urban area instead of the isolated rural area I previously lived in.
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