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Cleantime/Sobriety Countdown

wow it feels great. the withdrawals from benzos were hell, you can read my thread entitled 'benzo withdrawal' if you want to see exactly what happened to me, it was a long, strange trip to say the least (although very entertaining for someone else to read, i often laugh about some of the things that were happening to me.) to give you an idea, and something i did not include in my thread in TDS, i was hallucinating that this obese girl that i know was raping me! i had to whoop her ass to get her to stop.... funny yea, but not at the time! to anyone that is currently going through benzo withdrawals -- keep it up, it only gets easier. PM me if you would like!
 
Ive got about 9 days clean.. I had 2 1/2 years but I blew it for a few month of heroin...

People dont put your faith in your clean time... It really means nothing if you think about it..

Everyone even if you got one day clean... Im proud of you.. You can do it!! =]

Im feeling ok still cant sleep well, still sweating that nasty smelling sweat.. Oh yeah my DOC is Heroin...

Thanks for listening =]
 
doc: iv dope/coke, oxycodone, alcohol.

ill have 9 months on the 8th of april clean of e'r thing. damn thats a long ass time!!! haha :)
 
after 8 months of sobriety, i just relapsed. The guilt is killing me. All i thought about was drugs, so I assumed that when i did it I would feel amazing. I was wrong. benzod out, I had more anxiety than when i was sober.
 
^ keep it up man, it only gets easier from here........

if counting days helps, then keep it up.....the number also only gets bigger.........
 
Im 4 days clean off all opiates (heroin and suboxone) and cigarettes. Ive been chipping this past month. I want to stay clean but i get so miserable without. I have done GBL and some xanax, and dextrostat, and ambien, and wellbutrin, but I dont use those things to get high. (I know that probably sounds ridiculous to consider myself clean after ingesting all that.)


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so it's now evening and I relapsed on heroin (and cigarettes- they go together for me). I had an emotionally stressful day and almost felt like i was going have a breakdown or gbl overdose if I didnt have the dope. i was going crazy looking for money and luckily i got some.
 
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I'm at something like 9 months with no opiates, except for three or four vicodin before thanksgiving, when I came close to breaking my collarbone. but once I could sleep without the pain waking me up, two days later, I threw the rest of the bottle away. The pharmacy was flabbergasted someone would actually only take 3-4 total and bring the rest in for disposal as soon as it wasn't needed.

but otherwise, no cravings.... no triggerings.... absolutely no desire to ever touch opiates again unless its a seriously legit health need. no dreaded PAWS, or anything of the like.
my habit was by no means light, with four years gone to it, and eventually ending at rock bottom with gram-a-day heroin & meth habit. I spent a good year on pods, but at the last finally kicked with Lyrica, welbutrin, and a healthy disgust for the terrible state I was in.
 
OverDone said:
6 months clean from alcohol and drugs as of today
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Congrats, my man! Keep up the awesome work!
Hopefully, (fingers crossed) I can get into methadone wends, and start my treatment. After 3 years of this, I can't handle it anymore. After fessing up, my mom told me my life was worth any amount of money, and that she, and my pops, would pay any amount to see me clean and happy. Thankfully I have a good family (though most times I feel like I can't trust her) she really showed me today she cared. I'll be keeping posted in here, when I get on methadone, I'm done with this lifestyle. I plan on going back to school soon and getting my life back on track.
 
about 5 yrs ago I was on alot of opiates at once perscribed by my dr. I was on 2 different types of morphine plus 2 different types of oxys. At the time I was very niave to any type of drugs accept weed, so when he put me on these medications I had no idea what type of pills they were. Then after 5 years I decided to just take myself off all of them not realizing the withdrawals that comes with, I almost died from the withdrawals. After getting better a month later I was clean. Yet I did not know how those pills effected me mentally. So I stayed clean for almost 2 years but slowly got back to it. Its now been 3 years and im addicted again. Now I realize I want to be clean and how much better I feel when Im clean, no numbness to life. So Im slowly working my way off, yet its hard when your PM dr wants to keep giving you strong pills but now I insist on him only giving me Tylenol 4 and with tylenol 4 it doesnt effect you like oxys and morphine does, also with tylenol 4 its easy to slowing take your self off totally. Sorry for the long post. The point is If you can stay clean and work your way down its so much easier and actually I feel like Im growing out of it, like im bored. Good job to all staying clean and wanting to get cleaning. Getting clean is thehardest thing to do but wanting to get cleaning is the first step and deserves recogonition!
 
It really is tough, man.. It's terrible that you still want to get high, yet doing the pills don't get you 'high', just 'normal'.. Ugh.
 
^Holy Shit! I hadn't realized!!!!!

Isn't time weird? I bet it felt like AGES for you but it seems like that time just flew by (from an outsider's perspective)

Congratulations!!!! Sean is kicking ass and taking names!
 
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