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Cleantime/Sobriety Countdown

7 or 8 days now (cant remember i showed up at detox around midnight)

Was on Oxy, Hydromorph, Heroin, Dexedrine, assortment of Benzos, and high grade marijuana.

I feel fantastic. My mind is clear, and now I can starrt properly addressing my mental/emotional issues.

:D
 
^-- good for you..i am trying to do the same but i haven't found a way to get off these stupid xanax pills without having a seizure so i am doing the slow weaning...

..i just want to be clean and sober. I am only taking enough to keep from getting sick but i still feel like i can't say clean and sober till i am off completely....

I think being on these are making it harder for me to not want something harder..........
 
I'm seriously considering relapsing on purpose..... there's something to be said for being chemically-numbed all the way down to pure emotional ignorance.
ignorance is bliss after all.....
 
Ix, you're gonna do what you're gonna do - i know how it works - but just remember how much harder it is to quit every god damn time you go back - one time truly never is enough.
me - 24 hours. lol word.
 
i know.... i decided that if I do relapse ever, it's only gonna be for once. if imma do something, i might as well do it right..... no quit/start/quit/start
 
what's your drug of choice ? I dunno how anyone can use once - i can't do it - everytime i try to use once i am in detox within 2 months or worse.
 
^-- O keep telling myself I will be completely clean from everything and just try heroin one time and then i will be done with everything..........but i know that one time i try it i will just end up ......in another detox or some thing too..............i am trying to stay strong but its so freakin hard....
 
^ right, I had 3 weeks clean and on the 3rd week I had enough with life and said fuck it - every damn time it becomes worse but I still won't sit here and say i hate opiates - i hate being a drug addict. Anyway, I'm kicking again, shit is never fun but I'm more used to it now. If you hear me say ... just one time .... punch me in the fuckin jaw lol.
 
Pot & LSD.

That I became an opiate addict wasn't a choice.... I didn't take my first morphine pills for fun.

When I say "relapse", I'm not talking a single joy-bang to relieve stress or whatever.....
Relapse, as in going way back deep down in it.... and not looking back.

theartofwar said:
what's your drug of choice ? I dunno how anyone can use once - i can't do it - everytime i try to use once i am in detox within 2 months or worse.
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yeh know.... detox is the easy part. 8)
 
detox feels like a second home to me at this point lol.

I'm sorry to hear things are going shitty for you bro and hope you don't go back to it. Regardless though, wish you the best.
 
four and half days......

for the 6th or so time in the last two months.......luckily no sickness what so ever, god i love bupe......
 
Got busted this past weekend. Been clean since Saturday. What is that? Four days. The only drug I consumed regularly was marijuana, and I miss it. Still, I think this sober time will be good for me. Sucks it had to come from such shitty circumstances though.
 
SkagKush

Only during detox, or sobriety time do we count half days!! =]

Congrats bro.. I remember a time when a half day was a miracle.. Keep it up before you know it youll have a year buddy..

P.s be careful how often you use subs cause I was doing the same thing, on off on off relapse, and the subs stoped working fully. Just a warning, maybe it was just me too..

Take care bro
 
It's hard to know where the count begins... I had my last dose last night, but in fact the whole day was a vast reduction to my normal daily dose, and the last dose was just to use up the stuff. In effect I've been starting withdrawal since midnight. Think I got 5 minutes sleep at the beginning of the night, then the restless legs started up...

So, I'll start the countdown from midnight, my time zone, as a rough guide.

So, 7 hrs 53 minutes... give or take a few minutes... my post time may differ! (just looked and it matches my laptop clock! Cool!)


ETA: 12 hours - make that half a day!

ETA: 18 hours 8 minutes - 3 quarters of a day!
 
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theartofwar said:
^ right, I had 3 weeks clean and on the 3rd week I had enough with life and said fuck it - every damn time it becomes worse but I still won't sit here and say i hate opiates - i hate being a drug addict. Anyway, I'm kicking again, shit is never fun but I'm more used to it now. If you hear me say ... just one time .... punch me in the fuckin jaw lol.
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I swear I better not say One more time either.......and now i am trying to tell my self

"Hey how about i stay clean for this amount of time then i get to IV something and then stay clean for a while and repeat kind of like I get to treat myself for staying clean by doing drugs........

.................WTF is wrong with me really WTF shit i hate being an addict .

some one just knock me out.......to bad it cant be an opiate to knock me out. lol

but seriously I am really going to do this day by day.....
 
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