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Cleantime/Sobriety Countdown

I have close to six months sobriety. I am a Suboxone patient, but other than that I use no mood altering chemicals. I do the occasional SMART recovery meeting, did 12 step meetings (went to hundreds of meetings) for several months but found the 12 steps just did not match me personally. I still attend a meeting once in awhile, but do not work the steps and do not have a sponsor. I have decided to take at least another 6 months off of all substances. One of the best decisions I have ever made. If I do decide to use again it will only be Beer and Marijuana and under strict rules. I cannot ever use any type of "hard drug" again.
 
MySecret said:
6 days sober... until I smoked spice today, which is pretty much a relapse.

6 hours clean :(
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Stand back up, brush the dirt off of your shoulders and keep taking positive steps forward.

It is what you make of it. Take from it a learning experience. I very much recommend taking a long break from all substances.
 
dobbedome said:
How long have you been sober/clean?
And if your not sober/clean how long was the last time you where sober and how long ago was that? And do you want to be sober/clean

i'll start:)

not sober; 1 1/2 months ago. Was sober for a lil over a month. Wish to be clean :/
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Clean and sober since 03/15/86, AA/NA and some outside help. Not a drink or an illegal drug, 25 years and still active in the program and I love it. Wife has 18 years sober and most of our friends are in the program, just a way of life that's so much better than what we had before.
 
Cee Hawkins said:
Not Sober; Got a 120mg Oxycodone CWE brewing as I type.

In the last 2.5 years I haven't been clean & sober for more than 14 days. I was clean for 14 days about a week ago. Then I spazzed out and went on a 4 day Opana (oxymorphone) binge. I've been taking a couple moderate doses (50-120mg) of Oxycodone daily since the Opana slip up which ended a few days ago.

:| Yes, I do want to get clean. I am going to make another run at it.
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You can do it, just keep trying
 
thats right^

nine months woot woot get at me haha

even though i have been taking my will back in other ways, still feels good to have freedom from DRUGS.
 
i will be 4 years clean in may. my drug of choice was ice. i didnt do a detox with meds or any rehab. i did 5 sessions of hypnotherapy.

In the first couple of weeks of getting clean. after that broke up with my junkie ex and moved back home with dad and his family for 9 months. now live with mum. am currently on meds for epilepsy. I seizure as a result of my past use. I have been previous diagnose with everything from drug induce sz to anxiety disorders. I have recovered from all these via various therapys.

Fuck all i can say is if i can do it any one can. Take it easy :) joel
 
Joelz breaking ties to all people who are using is a key to recovery.

A junkie will have more of a chance to drag you back down, than youll be able to get them into recovery..

Its not worth the chance...

Congrats of your recovery!! Youve got alot to be proud of

OVERDONE our right it seemed like it went by slow to me. Feels like I never relapsed.. I still sonsider myself to have 3 years clean.. Is that bad???
 
SececaRD said:
OVERDONE our right it seemed like it went by slow to me. Feels like I never relapsed.. I still sonsider myself to have 3 years clean.. Is that bad???
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I don't know. Everyone has their own approach, definition and feelings concerning relapse.

Speaking from my own experience... I relapsed after five years of complete abstinence (twice). I didn't care about the 'time' when I chose to get clean again and started counting from Day 1 again.

The last time I was clean (the most recent), I had 9 months and 25 days of complete abstinence. THIS was hard to let go because I worked HARD and suffered the pain of getting clean (like everyone else) and made the decision to go back out for about 3 and a half months.

At first, starting at Day 1 again (and even telling people I had 3 months clean) was difficult. It was humbling and I felt 'less than' in many regards (sadly, people in my area use clean time as status and associate some sort of hierarchal value to clean time).

It ain't like that anymore. I have 6 months and 16 days now. I don't really share my clean time with others when I go to meetings and I realize that it is pride (which is the opposite of the humility I am trying to learn, practice and be in my day to day) that messes with me when I compare my clean time to others

There were (and still are) times when I so badly want to be one of those folks that can honestly raise their hand when asked 'Will those with a year or more clean time raise their hand to show the newcomer it works?'. Fuck it. The exact nature of my desire to be one of those folks is because I want to feel that sense of accomplishment (and yes, status) NOW. The fact of the matter is, I will have that accomplishment only when I accomplish it.

Honesty with myself will allow me to be better honest with others. I can't have false pride and humility/growth at the same time. I figure I'll just be patient, apply what worked yesterday to today and eventually I can use that resource to 'look at me now as opposed to then' to get me through a future, guaranteed struggle.
 
About to weeks. Didn't set out to stop really, just been working a lot of overtime and haven't really had time. Didn't realize it had been that long until I read this thread.
 
From 2005-2008 I was addicted to oxy>heroin. In 08 I overdosed twice, the last time wasy on shooting heroin while snorting oxys and I went to rehab. I was clean from Sep 08-Aug of 09, when I started snorting, then of course shooting again.

Today is my 2nd day clean, and I hope to keep it up. Good luck to all the other struggling bluelighters!
 
clementines_ghost said:
Four months yesterday. Life is better than ever.
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How did I miss this post???? Man, I love hearing people enjoying being clean. I'm so happy for you Ms Ghost! <3 10 years of opiates just got the shit kicked outta them! =D


oliphill said:
^^ :)

9 months clean now! (on 7th)

Fuck me what a journey!

:)
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awwww shit!!!! :D please tell us that you are keeping a journal so we can hear all the crazy/interesting stuff that happens when when we are clean! Congratulations, man! =D

I'm at an even 200 days as of today. All the work is paying off and the rewards keep coming. Hardly any are material and I'm okay with that. 'Things and Stuff' are more temporary than the feelings, perspective, attitudes and general (sometimes interrupted) inner peace that I've been experiencing %)
 
The last day I used to get high was 3/11, but on 3/31 I did 2 7.5 as I had ran out of subs n just had to take the edge off of WD's. I have pondered ever since how to count my clean time, but have just now decided it must be from last use even though I did not get high. Oh, well! So, I now have 11 days n counting, clean. Coulda', shoulda', woulda', damnit!
I do however have 126 days off of cigs.
 
OverDone said:
How did I miss this post???? Man, I love hearing people enjoying being clean. I'm so happy for you Ms Ghost! <3 10 years of opiates just got the shit kicked outta them! =D




awwww shit!!!! :D please tell us that you are keeping a journal so we can hear all the crazy/interesting stuff that happens when when we are clean! Congratulations, man! =D

I'm at an even 200 days as of today. All the work is paying off and the rewards keep coming. Hardly any are material and I'm okay with that. 'Things and Stuff' are more temporary than the feelings, perspective, attitudes and general (sometimes interrupted) inner peace that I've been experiencing %)
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Congrats on your 200 days and counting :)

I hope to be joining in this thread from bedtime Thursday, will try to resist posting every minute in the first stages ;)
 
i stopped taking opiates in Oct. 2010 ................that was my D.O.C. I miss them so much...i do others d. on occasion but never opiates......if i did it would be the end of me.
 
after 3 weeks I went off the deep end , I'm nowhere close to being back. It fucking sucks , this shit eats you alive , I'm gonna try n quit for myself since everytime i try n quit for other ppl it fails. I know that sounds like common sense, but I don't have much care for myself anymore.
 
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