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Cleantime/Sobriety Countdown

J.Wallace said:
I've been sober from Oxycodone for almost 2 months now. Not really an addict anymore, use to be into it heavily for almost 2 years straight of daily use. Been doing good, try not to do it too often anymore.
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I feel fantastic. I'm almost through working the twelve steps and got to make all my family amends on Christmas and it was awesome. I lost my apartment, truck, phone, relations and everything in my addiction but stuff is starting to come back now. I'm happier today sober with nothing than i was when i was getting high daily and owned every toy a 22 year old could want.
 
This thread isn't really appropriate for BDD, but its an awesome thread. I'm going to move it over to The Dark Side - where I (and others) feel it fits much better.

BDD --> TDS
 
I realized last night..... I can't even remember how long it's been, since I last had opiates. The closest I can figure, is that its been about two years.

The only break I had (nyuk-nyuk), was when I cracked my collarbone last winter. That earned me a month's worth of vicodin, and yet I got rid of the bottle after taking 5-6 of em. After about a week I could sleep without agony every time I rolled onto my shoulder, so off to the disposal those shitty vics went.

Even on my worst days, when my spine & knees are letting me know consistently why I got on morphine in the first place..... I have absolutely no desire or need for junk. The alternatives I've found are so much better.
 
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My mom is going to try to get off booze this year. She is 73.

She drinks about one bottle of wine a night. Sometimes two bottles of wine. Sometimes a little Schnapps too.

The problem is that she is on methadone for pain management. That combined together with her wine turn her into a stumbling, rambling, lost lunatic.

I am 52. I gave up alcohol last New Years Day, when my sister, who is 43, got out of rehab. I had hoped to set a good example for her and my mom.

My sister is drinking again but got much better at monitoring herself and became a pro at hiding her use, and at the same time she's come to hate our mom's drinking.

So much so that she wouldn't come to my son's wedding on Dec. 10 because our mom would be there.

My mom is going to start attending AA meetings now, and says she is going to stop drinking.

ALANON meetings were very helpful to me when I was learning how to live with an alcoholic mom. She has been on drugs and alcohol all my life, but with substantial periods of sobriety and healthy living enough to keep her marriage to my dad together. I wonder if I should go back to ALANON for help.

Now married 53 years, my dad has threatened to leave if she doesn't stop, because she is quickly becoming housebound and he doesn't want to spend whatever years he has left waiting for her to just die. He is a very healthy 84 years old and I guess he has had all he can take. Finally.

Alcohol seems to be the most harmful drug, because it's everywhere, and because it's advertised, and because it's socially acceptable.

And because it has my sister and my mother both pinned.
 
^ I found Nar-anon really helpful when Caleb was spiraling down. I think the letting go, when it comes to family members, is the hardest thing in the world and it helps to have group support for it. In your mother's case, it must be more difficult because she is elderly. I wonder if there is some kind of Senior Services in your area that could help your support your Dad and your mom in this? That could make it easier for you to step back and take care of yourself. I agree with you about alcohol and I am sorry that it has claimed so many of your family members. Take good care, Ugly, and remember that loving someone and fixing them are two different things. I know you know that but I always found it helpful to be reminded.<3
 
I have been sober from all drugs and alcohol since September 9th 2011
I originally went to detox in March of 2010 because of alcohol, meth, crack, morphine, and percocets.
I went to a 28 day program then moved into a three quarter house.
I attend meetings, have a sponsor, etc.
I have had a few relapses but I keep returning to the meetings because I did get a taste of the peace and serenity that I always hear them talk about.
 
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congratulations, dizzy! I hope the tastes you had become more and more part of every one of your days. <3
 
I don't plan to take any drugs tonight and it's not a possibility either, so I guess this is my first day clean after my latest relapses. What I do understand is that I need some other interests that I can focus on except stimulants. It's not easy, not even right now. My mind keeps spinning round and round and I cannot concentrate on anything really. Today I've been listening to music the whole day and playing Medal of Honor due to not being able to focus..
 
I know how you feel. When I stopped taking adderall I went into a depressions dn didn't want to leave my bed for weeks. But eventually t faded and I was able to get back to normal. Before getting addicted to something else... Good luck today :)
 
Congratulations to everyone on this thread. Whether it is 1 hour, 1 day or 1 year, you are fighting to get where you need to go and stay there. You have all my admiration and my love!<3
 
Yeah - trying to only smoke crack twice per month but seems to now be more like twice a week. Just went 12 days between last two times which is a nice stretch. I find that if I work a lot of hours I am way to busy to even think about it - which is good. Make more money and spend less at the same time. Also when I go on vacations I stay away from the wicked stuff.
 
I've been clean for 4 days now. Already starting to feel slightly better. Just gotta take advantage of all this extra time and energy now. I'm glad I caught it before it escalated.
 
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