Woamotive, wont they be dropping you for your program? Even if it's just outpatient. ... this isnt my "scariest" drug story, but your post made me remember, and is some what relevant to you starting a program....
Couple years ago, 2, i was a mess. At least 2 jabs a day, on top of any and all benzos known to man. I had missed 2 probation appointments, dropped dirty like 3 in a row, just blatantly not giving a fuck about my plea to get probation. After being picked up on a warrant while copping (of course), the judge gave me to options. REHAB or JAIL
Terms or rehab were NO dirty drops, and must start this coming Sunday.(today was Tuesday)
No problem!!! I had a monster D habit, but fuxk it, i need to get clean, im ready to get clean, lets do it. Not much time to taper down the d habit, but again, its been done.
After court i met with the intake woman who worked at the rehab i was headed. Basic stuff, how insanely much cash this is gonna cost me, the rules, program specifics etc...
Towards the end, she asks "other then the heroin, do you take any other drugs?" I replied " yes, Adivan, Klonipin and Ambien, but i have a prescription from my psychologist!"

"We do NOT ALLOW ANY MOOD ALTERING DRUGS, NO EXCEPTIONS". The list was anything from Rohypnal to O.T.C. cold medications. Further she said "anyone who is on anything listed, either has to stop, or find a different facility".
Fuxk, my first day is in 4 days... not hardly enough time to taper down the benzos, but my choices were to not go to rehab and go straight to jail, or show up this coming Sunday. Easy choice, for anyone who has ever been in jail, even for just a night knows there is no worse place than a cold cement floor in a cell to find your self.
Anyways, barely passed urine screen that Sunday, but it was apparent from my state i had not been taking any pills so they let me slide that first evening.
After day 5, and NO sleep, and i dont mean 1 or 2 hours of sleep, i mean NONE i couldnt take it any more. But if i got caught off the grounds, or dropped dirty, it was straight to cook county.
"Fuck it". "They just dropped me yesterday, and the day before ". No way they will 3 days n a row...
Gathered up the cash i had snuck in, (i had a feeling this would happen) and using a phone inside, scheduled my dope guy to come by. We made an arrangment time, told my councilor i had to go to the bathroom quick and poped outside. Looked around the corner, and by the graise of god, a dealer ON TIME!! perfect!
I run around the corner, grab the shit, and right back inside to the bathroom. 5 minutes later, fucking bliss. Fucking perfect....
Well apparently one of the staff had witnesses my little hand to hand transfer. I am escorted to the vice president office, along with my counclers, teachers, and the douch who saw me.
Of course i told them all that he was mistaken, or that he had it out for me,regardless i was "innocent, and offended". So much for not being dropped. ....
So, we head to the bathroom, my minds fucking racing, where the fuck am i gonna find some clean piss in the next 1 minute!!?
"Guess thats it. Im going to jail. " But just for the fuck of it, i took the test. Handed the sample to the guy, and was escorted back to the office
It was an immediate screen, 2 minutes and the results are back. While we are waitin the guy who saw me was giving me the "u Fucked up now white boy. I got u" look.
2 min later, my councilor goes "its clean".
Unbelievable. The asshole picked up the screen, looking at it i have never seen anyone that disappointed. Now it was my turn to give my best "ha fucker, we both know i used but u cant prove it) look.
Turns out that since only 30 minutes had passed since i hit it, it hadnt processed into my urine yet. If they had waited to drop me that night as they usualy do i woulda been toast. (And been escorted personally by a sheriff)
But since doiche bag demanded i be dropped immediately, i was cleared... but i was so fucking pissed at my self while waiting for the results, "wtf man. So fucking greedy. Well now you are gonna kick in jail". No nice clean bed,no seperate bathroom and showers, tv, fresh fruits, blah blah blah. ..
I didnt touch another thing or fuck around the last 4 weeks i was inside. Kind of like the 8 ball on the floor of the 7 11, this was a once in a time get out of jail free. It will not ever happen again......
Damn thats long post.... but u get the idea. Be careful, sometimes you can get a real dick thats out to get everyone thats tryin to get clean.
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