A wish. That one day soon poetry will replace these disjointed phrases.
I miss it so.
Being able to write emotions who
become beautiful despite their reality;
flowingly communicating and
mentally masturbating
themselves onto the page.
Receiving praise for their cum stains rather than
recoiling from expressions of disdain
because
I can't say it so that you will understand.
When one spends life on mountaintops this is inescapably so.
Especially since the mountain is mine and
now so far away. Some days the
picture in my mind is even hazy,
abducting peacefulness and
soiling the wistfulness
supporting my well of strength.
Sense of self translates into nonsense
when imaginings no longer
help to
Remind me of myself. The part of me that's who I am
which for all of us is where we come from.
Because who we've been adds up;
it is who we are and the sum of both
equals the person that will be.
And I just wish the words would come back to me;
so that someone could listen.
so that someone could understand.
so that some relief could be had
from this silence none of you can hear.
I miss it so.
Being able to write emotions who
become beautiful despite their reality;
flowingly communicating and
mentally masturbating
themselves onto the page.
Receiving praise for their cum stains rather than
recoiling from expressions of disdain
because
I can't say it so that you will understand.
When one spends life on mountaintops this is inescapably so.
Especially since the mountain is mine and
now so far away. Some days the
picture in my mind is even hazy,
abducting peacefulness and
soiling the wistfulness
supporting my well of strength.
Sense of self translates into nonsense
when imaginings no longer
help to
Remind me of myself. The part of me that's who I am
which for all of us is where we come from.
Because who we've been adds up;
it is who we are and the sum of both
equals the person that will be.
And I just wish the words would come back to me;
so that someone could listen.
so that someone could understand.
so that some relief could be had
from this silence none of you can hear.

