You just saw all the bullshit a racist said to me. Love can only conquer all when weāre in Heaven. Thatās it. Thatās all.
Whites wonāt be the only people in Heaven btw. Get over it.
I donāt really believe in heaven. I donāt even believe I have a real self that is absolutely different than any other; I think Iām shaped in a lot of part by the physical world, itās limitations and my physical imperfections. I know I have been shaped by my allergies...failures...
I think we all - everything is made up of the same thing, and we all, as we meander, try to make it through, have the same ācompassā. We react to the same true source(s)...(?)
Iām struggling for explanation, but I donāt really believe there would be much of anything unique and individual left, to ābe with God in heavenā (and experience as I am?) without my flaws, imperfection, and separation...from God. Iām not sure why/how I would ever be preserved after this life on this Earth, which I made āmyselfā from (as an individual). This world is, and I am made in a fire (friction, conflict...), and success is perhaps putting it out (Nirvana?)? Not that I intend to mean with what Iām trying to jibber-jabber out, ending life.
Perhaps there are things that need to burn, and there are reasons to burn... I burn for reasons, for now.
I do think that ālove can conquer allā - but as I said before, love to me is understanding/knowing, too, āthey know not what they doā; Love to me comes with understanding that we cannot be expected to feel warmth/tenderness/affection toward everyone equally at all times, and cannot expect it - without payment - from āothersā (individuals, religions, groups, ethnicities, races..). But it's okay to ask (for love); And I can't argue with giving love, to anyone, but love to me is not simply giving everything up, mindlessly sacrificing the mind, expecting some to pull and others to not. And, We cannot bet on our best behavior, when life is literally at our throats by nature (the cells not-me in and on my body, eating each other, in their balance, preventing some from eating me...all falling in a kind of balance for me to exist at all, helping me digest food, protecting me from other outside germs, not because they care about me, but because they thrive on me, and care about
themselves). There has to be something to forgive... Life wouldn't exist without losers. Without failure. Without a seed that breaks, but some that don't; birds and squirrels wouldn't bother trying to crack nuts/seeds, to eat them, if none ever broke, but the seed tries not to break, to pass itself- To survive- But because it's eaten, and because it fails, sometimes, it/we lives.
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A side-story: This post-an earlier version was on my mind, after making it, because I was struggling to nail the words to the truth of it, and was feeling like I was failing. It was on my mind much of the night, at work. I stopped at a place called Rainbow Blossom in a city called New Albany, on my route for work delivering pharmaceuticals to nursing homes, and right after this I pulled out onto the street and saw a license plate of
613LOV. 613 is a number that is important to some who identify as Jewish, as it is the number of commandments/mitzvot that are recognized in the Torah, if they number them. I have an interest in numbers, in a way, and have found certain commonality and interest in that they do too, and also have interest in the religion, and other things around it, as it's a sort of base from what Christianity came from, and Jesus, even though they if not "Messianic" don't consider him to be the Messiah/Christ.
With this in context - with this post, love in question, coming from the 'Rainbow Blossom', I wondered if anything else connected. There seemed to be a "pattern" (I'm not saying there was, I'm saying as an organism that looks for patterns, to survive, there seemed to be one, there was a
question if there was one...). At least, associative, in my mind, not to say anything more than that- What I observe. I did remember something about a rainbow and God's love.
āThis is the sign of the covenant which I make between Me and you, and every living creature that is with you, for perpetual generations: I set My rainbow in the cloud, and it shall be for the sign of the covenant between Me and the earth."
-Genesis 9:12-13
I'm not really sure what that "means". I also don't mean to say I believe seeing "613LOV" right in front of me in that timing, today, was anything, but I'm not sure. It made me think.
I do think love is always the right choice. But also, again, I do think it comes in different forms, in certain order...
A Hebrew word meaning "love" is related to or means "give". We give love. God gives. Ask and ye shall receive? But are we able to continue giving it, if certain conditions are not met? Do we have enough, for everyone,
equally? Do we not need to put our own mask on first? Make sure our muscles are working properly, with our bones, ligaments, tendons..? Why do I marry my wife? And not some other? Why do I focus on my children? More than others? Why do I breath before making sure others are breathing? We need to make sure we're going to get back for what we give... We don't continue giving, even to family members, who bring about a curse on us, who thieve... and destroy. There is not a perfect relationship of reciprocity, between the races/ethnicities/religions.
Some are expected more of. Some could disappear and life would continue, just about the same as it was - or better (perhaps, which is sad).
Loving properly requires intelligence/wisdom. Sometimes love is letting go. Leaving it be. Closing the door. Even locking it. But you still venture out, and new days happen, and so do new buildings...
It is interesting to me, it's another "pattern?": The 188th positive commandment of 613 that are supposed to be observed by Jews is this one I was looking for- About genocide of a race/tribe of people- Amalek. I had a sort of crush on a Jewish girl some years back whose English name has a gematria of 188. She was the first Jew that I was attracted to, from memory.
This is what Chabad.org says about that commandment:
The 188th mitzvah is that we are commanded to wipe out ā from among all the descendants of Esav ā the descendants of Amalek, male and female, young and old.
The source of this commandment is Gād's statement1 (exalted be He), "Wipe out the memory of Amalek."
We have mentioned previously2 the statement of our Sages,3 "The Jewish people were commanded three mitzvos upon entering the Land of Israel: to appoint a king, to build the Beis HaMikdash, and to destroy the descendants of Amalek."
Waging war against Amalek is also a milchemes mitzvah [obligatory war].4
The details of this mitzvah are explained in the eighth chapter of tractate Sotah.
I just remembered/considered - the last girl/female to tell me she loved me (outside of family), many months ago, or years (but it feels recently), named her son Israel. Thought of this in the shower.
Jesus, loving as he is, did show that he favored giving to his mission, mostly/mainly, for his own people; if he was to be the fulfillment of the Torah, he was ultimately for himself(?):
The Faith of a Canaanite Woman
21 Leaving that place, Jesus withdrew to the region of Tyre and Sidon. 22 A Canaanite woman from that vicinity came to him, crying out, āLord, Son of David,have mercy on me! My daughter is demon-possessed and suffering terribly.ā
23 Jesus did not answer a word. So his disciples came to him and urged him, āSend her away, for she keeps crying out after us.ā
24 He answered, āI was sent only to the lost sheep of Israel.ā
25 The woman came and knelt before him. āLord, help me!ā she said.
26 He replied, āIt is not right to take the childrenās bread and toss it to the dogs.ā
27 āYes it is, Lord,ā she said. āEven the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their masterās table.ā
28 Then Jesus said to her, āWoman, you have great faith! Your request is granted.āAnd her daughter was healed at that moment.
People try to say that Jesus did not have any order to his love - that it was absolutely unconditional, or seem to say it would be in the way he would give it, but who would be a more valuable person to give your time and resources to, someone working for you, or someone working against you - at some point or another? In this, Jesus didn't plan this all out. He wasn't responding to her. His disciples got annoyed and begged him to respond to her to make her go away. He tested her, in a way, but she responded so favorably that he granted her request. She had to say that yes I'm like a dog, and I'm very submissive to you, Lord. When she knew her place, he helped her. I also know my place, when it comes to others' families, and communities. To others, I don't expect that my place be as equal to them, that they should take the time that they should be investing in themselves and their children/family, and give it to me. Anyone who promotes such an idea is lying, and I try not to be a liar. If Jews, if they believe that it is their way of life that is best, because it absolutely was given to them by God, as a way to survive the world, do they mindlessly "sacrifice" it to any and every god on the earth, any Non-Jewish person? Do they say, oh "equality", and say "no big" if they are replaced by Muslims? That's not very mindful, if you ask me. I also do believe that races have something in common with religions. Often they go in tandem. Ethnicities, whatever. Someone who is white is most likely going to be the person to not try to tear down someone who is white, because they're white (but in this world, with white-guilt programming, and white people trying to reconcile the difference that exists in their social landscape, however, this is different now), or black because they're black. Or Jew for being Jew. Jews give to who can and who wants to hold what they have to give, to carry it forward, to continue it. There's a form of insurance there. Commonality. Ground. Jesus was on a mission. When you're building a rocket, you don't give the parts to build toys, like, "no big". Some people are simply going to be more receptive, and capable, due to circumstances, to keep carrying on the faith. They're going to speak closer to the same language, using the same words meaning the same things, and will have the same identity, roughly, that isn't somehow against another's. That doesn't mean we completely turn our backs on others. But there are reasons to be careful. "Freedom is not free."
So far, who has demonstrated that they can support a way of life that we have come to love and rely on? Where are all the peoples of the earth, seemingly heading toward? And you think there is absolutely no reason to protect ourselves? But I'm just racist? That's the argument? And what I say is bullshit?
How to love the enemy?
This man, quoted and pictured in this graphic, his funeral was the
largest in Israeli history.
Some people don't have our best interests at heart. At least one couldn't blame someone for thinking so.
^They often promote,
these other people entering into our lands, and attempt to shame us for not
loving them, equal to our own - or even different from our own...for even having a concept of us and them as different is tensioned ("We're all Americans"). They'll say it's in the name of love... They'll reference their religion for this motive/behavior, and well, forget that part about genocide of another nation as it is also commanded and a war to be had for all time, as they do this in other nations, as they make way for all the nations to flow into the new white Amalek (because
Nazis if not).
People who are instructed this, who we are supposed to be okay with the religion of, even though it says this, about us:
O you who have believed, do not take the Jews and the Christians as allies. They are [in fact] allies of one another. And whoever is an ally to them among you ā then indeed, he is [one] of them. Indeed, Allah guides not the wrongdoing people. -Quran 5:51
I'm okay if you practice this, outside of us, away from us. I'm not going to foster or promote it in any way, or your 'right' to exist in place of us.
But the left(?) will say we need to "love" them (shame on you if you don't like we say!), and Angela Merkel will feel bad for what Germany did to the Jews, and try to reconcile with the world by destroying her own people. Like that's real love (more like fear of what others think, of meeting
everyone's different impossible approval).
"Never will succeed such a nation as lets their affairs carried out by a woman." -Muhammad (Bukhari, Maghazi, 82, Fitan, 18; Tirmidhi, Fitan, 75; Nasai, Qudat, 8; Ahmad b. Hanbal, V, 43, 51, 38, 47)
Love? How? What course to take? How to work out our very real, and layered differences? Just set to destroy? Like it matters? They (and we) set us up to fail.
Here's another dip-shit white winner -Cuck from Germany..
So many people don't love us/themselves. Someone needs to. That's why I'm here.
Perhaps... are we the seeds? The seed? I want to stay intact, naturally. I might be swallowed whole, or, and I might be crushed, and digested. But if I didn't want to stay in-tact, you probably wouldn't want to eat/use me. There'd be nothing to use; there'd be nothing there. Even if it is repeated back to me, what I said before in this post, that sometimes they need to break, as they are, to be shared/spread, as they are, to be food, that still doesn't make me work to break so easily...
I may have found a contradiction(?) - or some other way of seeing? Consider.
Myself said:
I just remembered/considered - the last girl/female to tell me she loved me (outside of family), many months ago, or years (but it feels recently), named her son Israel. Thought of this in the shower.
Her last name was Maple. As I sat down to play a game, I thought about this, with the seeds in context. A maple seed is not hard- It's very soft.
I took this picture of this one that flew in my car through an open window, as I was driving to get food, after seeing children play with them at my complex on/around Mother's Day, one year.
I used to pretend they were sentient. I'd draw pictures of them, with faces, at my grandmother's, where there were lots of them.