hey guys,
well, i'm single again too... bored on a saturday.
i can understand what people talk about now when they
say "a broken heart", because that is where it hurts.
i have a constant dull pain coming from within my
chest constantly, and it makes me feel afraid and sad.
i'm back where i began in many ways, but much wiser for
what i have been through. i've learned a lot about myself
and about relationships. far too much to put down here,
and there are thoughts still going through my mind about
the whole experience of being in a relationship.
i sacrificed a lot for my relationship, now i feel like i have
very little to show for it. my self-confidence is at an all-time
low right now and i am trying to find a way to snap out
of it. sometimes its hard for me to think that i am worth
anything to anybody out there.
i understand that happiness comes from within, but as hard
as i try to fire up the happiness furnace inside me, it just won't
start. i can't lift myself out of this depression. it hurts so
much, and i so strongly believe i have inflicted this pain onto
myself. i'm lost, i need to break out of this cycle.
Cohaa.