I'd like to talk about a topic that affects some singles in the time AFTER a breakup that doesn't seem to have been discussed yet.
As many of you know (and hence it has adverse effects on opinions of me/relationships with me) I'm single and not particularly happy. However, it's not the singleness that's bothering me. I don't have a problem not being in a relationship - I'd been single for just over a year before my last "relationship" (yes, I use the word lightly) began - I have a problem with what's happened since then.
This could turn into a person-specific rant so I'm not going to use any names, though I'm sure you'll all work out who you are, and of course, we all know who this is regarding.
There were many things that happened AFTER the relationship ended that caused things to work out badly; ie. with the boy (yes, boy) in question deciding that he wanted nothing more to do with me, and further to that, telling mutual acquaintances and friends that basically I was a psycho - a) not to speak to me, and b) to tell me that they hadn't seen him.
So, out of concern for his wellbeing after some things he said, and having been told that no one had seen him for almost a week, I about went out of my mind. But hey, that's okay, because he doesn't have to worry about it anymore, right?
I'm just pissed off because it's not often that anyone tells the whole story (and I'm not telling the whole story now for the sake of those involved), and because of that, relationships are ruined. My relationship with my parents has been strained because of HIS parents talking with them, my relationships with Melbourne BL's have been severed and strained due to whatever the fuck he's telling people, and I feel as though my life is in tatters (as some of you know, and as some of you may have read in the Life forum, though I'm not suggesting any of you would hang out in there because it sucks).
To those who have been avoiding/abusing/intentionally making me feel worthless over the past couple of weeks, a big FUCK YOU, because you don't know even the half of it. When I say I urgently need to speak to someone, it means I urgently need to speak to someone. The worst thing that's come out of this is the lies (and yes, I am guilty of lies as well) and the heartache that has accompanied the lies. People I considered to be friends have developed opinions of me that I'd hoped they would never develop due to the fact that they hear half-truths and half-stories.
I'm moving back to Adelaide, mostly as a direct result of this, so that I can be surrounded by people who genuinely care for me and want to see me get better, just so I have a bit of a crutch when I need it (and I'm not saying that I want anyone else to solve my problems for me, just that I need some support when I fuck up, which happens from time to time (okay, 24/7)).
And to those of you who have been unfaltering in your help, concern and kind words, particularly mOw^wOw, pekkie, hIDeHo and stacy, you have no idea what it's meant to me.
Is this suitable for the singles thread? I'm single, I guess I can post this here.
My (long, drawn-out) point is that I seem to have been reduced to a bit of a crumpled heap bearing scars both phyisical and emotional, and I'd really, really appreciate it if people could find out the whole truth before they form opinions on the aftermath of relationships. Not just in my case, or just in someone else's case, but in everyone's case. There's always something you don't know when you only hear one side of the story.
Thanks.
