insomnia
Bluelighter
i'm still single... how ghey.. oh well maybe one day.
Originally posted by Decimal Dan:
2 of Cups: You're singing my tune there!
But yes - right person, wrong time. It really sucks...
What can you do though? Keep the bait on the hook and the line in the water. Leave it there for long enough and you're bound to get some bites.![]()
Thanks DDI feel your pain also! Although I got into it knowing he would leave eventually, as he's only visiting. Yours sounds even more painful in some ways!
Paraphrasing what Plazma said, you can't choose who you fall for, and I have a belief in not holding my emotions back in these situations, which invariably gets me into trouble. Love passionately and sincerely and all that. Maybe I hoped I could change his mind (so to speak), cos I saw so much possibility in what we had. Hell, even he saw that. But he's been burned before too, and while I don't tend to let it dampen my enthusiasm when I get into a new relationship, he goes into one protecting his feelings from the outset. So it's off to Canada without me, but with my friendship and a big piece of my heart (although in my bitter moments I do feel he copped out big time ).
Yeah, love is scary. But it's beautiful, and full of hope, and some people have even been known to take drugs to emulate the feeling *gasp*. Hmmm... maybe I'll go back to flirting for a while now, hehehe... love will find me again. Or maybe some casual sex'll do for now.
And Chemical Night: I totally agree with you. the grass is always greener for a lot of people. Problem is when you keep jumping over that fence, the grass patch behind you goes brown and dies, or something, so if the grass wasn't greener on the other side, the original patch ain't going to be green when you get back either!... or something...
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*hugs* for all!