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Originally posted by miss apple:
[QB]doofqueen how have you gone from breaking up with the person you really really love to having a date last night that obviously went well?
Man I'd be crying into my drink for weeks if i was in the same position. Well done you for being able to pick yourself back up again!
QB]wasnt a date date...was an old 'friend' i guess i really miss him and im going 4 second best or something...im still heart broken over it but what am i supposed 2 do? wait around and stop everything 4 a guy that says hes got 2 sort his shit out and has no time 4 me or cant put the effort in that i deseve? i had a bad day today... :( been listening to jewel and kasey chambers , drawing and writing depressing poetry...i have one i want 2 send him but i dunno if i should...im trying to give him space...no ph calls or emails etc....i so feel like ive just been used up and spit out and am on layby or something...i fucking hate feeling like this :( i guess a part of me done it to spite him or something...kinda like "well i'll show u" fuck i dunno....im still so screwed up *sigh*
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Doofster, much as i know it sucks, you have to go through this hurt in order to heal, and feel better about the whole situation. DOn't try to deny your feelings, or the good times you had. Instead, try to see them as a great part of the immediate past, and don't worry if it upsets yout hat it's over. The more you cry, the easier it will eventually become.
In my experience at least... :)
 
so here i am, insomnia strikes again. being single is somewhat of a dilemma, i find.
one can claim to live for oneself or rather, enjoy the life of singlehood with no responsibilities to another person. go out and have fun, have a good laugh at life, live it up. have quiet walks or moments with yourself, soak it up, look around you and wonder at the secret lives around you as you walk on the streets with music in your ears.
we have our friends around us, thank god for them. to distract ourselves, to laugh and cry together, the good and the bad times. that sense of companionship, comradeship, we're all gonna live forever, or so we thought.
as much as we, or perhaps i should say i, as im sure some of u reading would like to disagree with me, but i digress. as much as i like to think im surrounded by friends and loved ones, it is still a sad fact that i am alone. and it is a fact; there is no denying it, nor any attempt at deluding myself can convince otherwise.
in the quiet of the night when sleep escapes, it is a truth i have to live with.
 
^^ You should also be glad you have caring and good friends. Try thinking of the people who have neither 'a partner' nor any real friends to comfort them at any time. That said, if you seriously are feeling alone, try taking some self evaulation to why you are not in a relationship with someone else? You've previously mentioned your strong emotions towards the music you like being a factor why you are so picky in picking a partner. Why not let the walls down in regards to this and see what happens? Hell you may find a partner you can truely care for and if not, just get rid of them and work on another strategy plan.
 
Congrats to Funki-honey. :) From everything I"ve heard (and semi-seen) he seems like a sweet, smart, sexy boy. But you do know, you are now an official dj-slut. ;)
Plazma: Oh yeah baby. I fell at your feet in a fit of passion as soon as I heard the words "piss-flaps". Take. Me. Now.
 
I've been resisting the temptation to hit reply for some time now, mostly because i don't have much wisdom to reply with, though i guess most like me aren't looking for a reply, just a place to talk.
Four months of single life after nearly a year in an intense live-in relationship seems to be taking it's toll, along with constant partying without really connecting with anyone, connecting with people that you shouldn't (ie: not single), desiring connection with those you know will not be returned, yes single life is starting to suck...
A good friend has reminded me that things tend to happen when you least expect them, so it's time to start trying hard not to try so hard :) It's hard not to drown in nostalgia though (had to say that 'cos I want to quote a song from david sylvian)
hux.
NOSTALGIA (David Sylvian)
Voices heard in fields of green
Their joy their calm and luxury
Are lost within the wanderings of my mind
I'm cutting branches from the trees
Shaped by years of memories
To exorcise their ghosts from inside of me
The sound of waves in a pool of water
I'm drowning in my nostalgia
[ 24 February 2003: Message edited by: huxley ]
 
i had a relevation last night, unfortunately it kept me awake until the sun nearly came up, but bleh!
its my turn to be emancipated, time to find my freedom
its my turn to be fucking happy damnit , fuck contentment, i intend to be blissful, glowing, radiant BY MYSELF
*giggle* watch out, the bitch is back
 
but vurt we're all alone. every single one of us. no matter how many people we connect with, how many people we love, or how many people love us we're still our own entities with our own thoughts, our own soul, and our own time to die (which I believe is the moment when we're truly and utterly alone).
a relationship doesn't fix that.
 
*Enters via side door and sits down on the comfy leather couch with a bailey on ice and a cigarette and offers a catch phrase or two*
"Nice one FUNKI good for u!" says backo and continues, "Dont worry Doofie, things will get better."
*Finishes his cigarette and slups on his baileys.* ;)
 
SDB: Monkeys are a cheap substitute for chimps. They are hopeless at holding their alcahol and can't load a semi-auto for nuts.
I thought you knew better...
:)
 
Originally posted by Queen Beat:
Congrats to Funki-honey. :) From everything I"ve heard (and semi-seen) he seems like a sweet, smart, sexy boy. But you do know, you are now an official dj-slut. ;)
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Thanks heaps Babe, im so not a DJ slut tho :)
Thanks Andge for the support and backo aswell
Im happy
-funki-
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what???
i don't read the forum for like a few days and fuck buddies is all wrapped up? no!
funny things do happen... on the weekend a good mate of mine hooked up with a girl he's had a crush on for ages! i was there when it happened and it did make me feel very good... albiet a tad jealous... but hey, its all good :)
also i think the girl i've "fallen in love" with don't like me quite like i like her... but yeah... its prolly for the best...
anyways... bring back fuck buddies... !
Cohaa.
 
well well well well well well well wellsie well
I had one fucked up Saturday night. What do you do when a good friend of yours kisses you much passionatly and edges for you to "stay".. repeat the words "i don't think so" like a babbling idiot!
Isn't it nice that a friend expresses such feelings for you? I'd like to say yes.
So after a few messages and calls on his behalf i finaly get the balls to talk to him. I feel really bad that i do not share the same feelings for him as he me. But i mean what the fuck, i'm not gunna be with someone just cos they like me and i go out with them just so i don't hurt their feelings. I've been down that road before.
I feel like an evil bitch
End of rant.
 
the title was NOT changed and no posts have been deleted... I assume you're looking for the part before this which was closed.
 
apollo... bite me :P
I've discovered lately that I like the faucet on my bathtub so much more than i like men ;)
I've turned down two really lovely men in the past three weeks because everything else in my life demands so much of my time and attention that even if I was interested in anything I couldn't give it the attention it deserves. Not to mention that my medical problems must mean I'm hell to be around at times. I'm living in wild swings of emotion and mood and it's grating on my nerves, let alone anyone elses.
Not to mention that the trust factor is really really shot in me. I'm so very sick of trusting people (both friends and partners) and realising that they're not worth the time of day.
And, strangely enough I'm really over the whole fuck buddy thing, it's such a waste of time and it's so hard to find someone emotionally sound and mature enough to handle that kind of relationship.
Not to mention that between uni, work, studying my diploma of frontline mgt so i can teach it next semester, vocal coaching and pilates I barely have enough time for me let alone anyone else.
I guess if i met someone who inspired me enough to find time for them I'd see what I could juggle but really, right now it's all too much effort when I'm happy with my life the way it is.
[ 25 February 2003: Message edited by: PsychoKitten ]
 
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