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BL/TDS Self-Harm Support: Thread 4

Well my girlfriend droped thru... for 2 seconds. @ least i got a hug she looked @ me and was going to get her shit to stay with me but i told her no. Im already too drunk and benzofucked to be of positive anything to her so shes off for the night I think she's safe but theres fuckin animals out there and she only 18, I worry so much that she gonna find out the hard way how the scene works around here. I just wanna b there with her & probably ma switchblade to fuck up any cunt who wants to try take advantage of her, But its out of my controll, Now im into my 2nd bottle 2 much xanax also, im just feelin fearfull of where im gonna go tonight. Theres a total sranger on facebook whos keepin my company. Even gave me her number, maybe i just need to talk to someone.... Its been so long since i been able to start a convo its fucking sad. I dun really wanna cut @ this point. but im writing myself off and thats what scares me into thinkin im gonna loose it @ some point and start. Fell like a hopeless case even though i managed to get shit done just a few days ago. now its the weekend, im alone, drinking and drugging and these thoughts keep creepin in to just destroy myself. They say theres light @ the end of the tunnel.... I reallly cant see it atm:(
 
No I dont see a therapist, I did when I was teenager and had anorexia. I dont like them controlling me, trying to change me, im not crazy, I like me how I am, I just go threw hard times emotionally on occassion, but then I get over it. Its ok, we have moved now, its new again.
 
Libby said:
No I dont see a therapist, I did when I was teenager and had anorexia. I dont like them controlling me, trying to change me, im not crazy, I like me how I am, I just go threw hard times emotionally on occassion, but then I get over it. Its ok, we have moved now, its new again.
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Well I must say that I can't disagree for your reasons.

I just urge you not to burn yourself! <3 I don't want to change who you are, but I just don't want you to hurt your body. There are other ways to let out this frustration without hurting your body. Even if you don't need medical assistance - I believe in treating your corporeal form with respect. The body is a temple, so to speak.

I still don't think me merely saying this will necessarily influence your choices in life, and I respect that, but this is what I want to say because it could help. <3
 
Just crawling back here with a sore head and feelin bad, Wanted to say i am ok atm i made it thru the night and huge thankyou to the folks who helped me see last night through. Really gotta stop the boozin when stuff falls apart. Its dangerous in more ways than one:(
 
My burn is looking heaps better already, I think after few years very minimal scarring, and I will be sensible and get the rest of it lazer removal. I may get something else in memory of skoota later on but I will think it through properly and do it properly. Be responsible and not unstable and patient and fuck things. Sorted.
 
Thanx libby.... I hope that you r ok <3
burns are a bitch of a thing and can also relate to the tatoo i dont want, I'm gonna have it covered though if i ever get enough money to waste on gettin a sleeve done.
 
S.M.F.G and Libby, I am so relieved to hear you're both doing a bit better. So much love to you guys, please take care of yourselves <3
 
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