rangrz
Bluelighter
I'm glad you got it to close up! 

I have stomach problems due to my condition, and eating can be verypainful. At it's worst, it prevented me from eating for 5 weeks.
Well it certainly is a disordered pattern of eating (meaning, it's not normal), and if you're concerned you should definitely speak to your doctor about it. Do you reckon you might do that?Am myself having and have been for a while, having trouble eating, stomach problems are a part of it due to high anxiety, I'm lucky to have a coffie in the morning, no breakfast, pills in the morning chased with a few drinks...If i get lucky i may feel like something by the afternoon. But have had some degree of concern about this for some time, I'm slim built but from a lack of training and exersise, I starting to get real self consious of my looks especialy my midsection and my face that seems to be growing older and sicker everyday.... I wonder if im on the verge or actualy have some kind of eating disorder, My diet is so fucked go for three days without eatin, then sometimes binge out till i feel sick. other times il eat a little when absolutly nessacary. What would that be defined as i wonder...
Mugz, as eukaryote said above, there are different types of cutting and self-harm and many different reasons why people do it. I guess if we were to look at it really objectively, cutting is cutting, regardless of the original intent, and a lot of people have difficulty distinguishing the difference between cutting for self-destruction or cutting for, say, body art. Whether or not the fact that you cut yourself the other day is a problem for you is really something only you can answer. In my opinion self-harm becomes a problem when the person is using it as a way to numb their emotions, or for self-destructive purposes, or specifically to get the endorphin rush. If people cut for these reasons they are not dealing with their negative emotions effectively and thereby perpetuating their problems. There are many, much more effective ways of dealing with our problems.so the other day I kind of cut myself, not for the pain though, I cut a symbol into my knee that I have been seeing and am using as the starting basis for a new language that I am creating.
I only really realised today that it was self harm, and I'm not sure what to think of it, or what the doctor will think of it, especially as she will most likely ask to view it, and it will most likely still be there.
I've never cut before, this didn't feel like traditional cutting but it was still cutting if I think about it.![]()
Fair enough. Were you reinforcing them so that the scar will be more prominent, or purely so the wound will be more noticeable? What do you think the doctor will say?
Mugz? Why did you re-injure the cut? When you see your Dr, do think you can be honest with her/him as to why you cut yourself?
Splat I am so grateful for the friend you have, as I wish you wouldn't feel compelled to do this to yourself but I am so glad someone was there to help you when you needed it the mostI just made a 1.5 inch gash 1cm deep in my calf almost up to the bone. Luckily I had someone who cared to help me work through my problems. I was tempted to continue destroying myself, taking all the pills I have and finishing myself off. I love you my dear, and I couldn't have stopped myself with out your support.
Mugz, while I understand why you re-injured, because I have done that countless times on myself, why do you feel that you need to make physical indicators to your doctor about your mental state? Do you feel that your doctor isn't taking you seriously now, without visible signs of your distress? If he/she isn't listening to you or taking you seriously as it is, you should possibly consider seeing a different doctor who will take you seriously without you having to resort to self-harm.Mugz said:I'm not really sure why I reinjured myself, or why I did the first one. I think doing it again to actually draw blood was so that I have something to show the doctor when I have my appointment on the 5th of Jan, as I'm not sure whether or not she would believe that I ever did it if there was no evidence.
Mugz- i don't think a doctor needs evidence to believe you've s/h'd, there are loads of self destructive behaviours that don't leave scars and they get taken seriously. its really not worth it- reopening the skin increases chance of infection and may (i've been told) increase the chance of a more permanent scar- i constantly reopened all my injuries when i was self harming and have been told this contributes to me still having raised scars over 11 years later (dunno if you saw my forearms when we met, prob not as the discolouration has finally gone!). you don't need to risk having to walk round with these forever just to be taken seriously by a doctor.
my suspicion is that you want to be taken seriously by your own head too.... but i wont go into that cos if i'm wrong it oculd easily be offensive.
Mugz, while I understand why you re-injured, because I have done that countless times on myself, why do you feel that you need to make physical indicators to your doctor about your mental state? Do you feel that your doctor isn't taking you seriously now, without visible signs of your distress? If he/she isn't listening to you or taking you seriously as it is, you should possibly consider seeing a different doctor who will take you seriously without you having to resort to self-harm.
Because this is only the second time you have self-injured, you may not realise the slippery slope you're potentially heading down. I started self-harming at age 12, and 15 years later it is still something I battle with every now and then. It very easily and very quickly becomes an addiction in itself. I'm still using Bio-Oil to try and reduce the visibility of scars on my arms and legs that are 13-14 years old, and those are just the smaller scars. The larger scars I will have for my entire life, no amount of scar treatments will get rid of them. And where did cutting get me?? Absolutely nowhere. What purpose did it serve? None. I still had all the same problems and all the same negative emotions after the wounds healed, nothing changed. Except that I now have permanent scars to carry around with me, to try and explain to people who notice them and ask what happened, which created a new source of anxiety and depression in itself.
It's not worth it mate, please get the cutting idea out of your head now, while you still can.
Take care Mugz![]()
That is so good to hear mate, good decisionMugz said:I don't want it to become another addiction, will cut it out (pun not intended)