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Bluelighter
The trouble with using psychs to permanently regain intense emotions is that sometimes everyday humdrum existence is not in league with the intensity of LDS, mushroom, or MDMA (etc.) highs.
I'm not even talking about physical brain chemistry here. Not all of life can be a peak experience, and if you long for all of life to feel as intense as a drug trip then you might find yourself feeling bored a lot of the time. I remember going through a phase like this after about two years of experiments.
Also, you're probably still very effected by the breakup with your girlfriend. When you're close enough with someone and the relationship ends, sometimes it can feel like a death, and the relationship needs to be properly mourned. From personal experience, this can take A LOT of time. This is even besides the fact that it happened while you were SUPER switched on to emotional sensitivity, which does sound like a traumatic experience. (PTSD is probably a really good definition, if you need one.)
To me, the flatness you're feeling with life in general COULD be an emotional reaction to all the drug-induced intense experiences. (Like... what now?)
The flatness you're feeling about other people COULD be an emotional reaction to breaking up with your girlfriend.
I've experienced both these things, and they are definitely valid.
It does sound like you're still unsure about the intentions of the introspective trip. I thought at first that you wanted to explore the source of your negative feelings regardless of other people, now it sounds like you want to be able to reconnect with other people? Accomplishing either one of these things will most likely help the other one happen, but setting a clear goal might help you create a really good set and setting that will be most beneficial.
I'm not even talking about physical brain chemistry here. Not all of life can be a peak experience, and if you long for all of life to feel as intense as a drug trip then you might find yourself feeling bored a lot of the time. I remember going through a phase like this after about two years of experiments.
Also, you're probably still very effected by the breakup with your girlfriend. When you're close enough with someone and the relationship ends, sometimes it can feel like a death, and the relationship needs to be properly mourned. From personal experience, this can take A LOT of time. This is even besides the fact that it happened while you were SUPER switched on to emotional sensitivity, which does sound like a traumatic experience. (PTSD is probably a really good definition, if you need one.)
To me, the flatness you're feeling with life in general COULD be an emotional reaction to all the drug-induced intense experiences. (Like... what now?)
The flatness you're feeling about other people COULD be an emotional reaction to breaking up with your girlfriend.
I've experienced both these things, and they are definitely valid.
It does sound like you're still unsure about the intentions of the introspective trip. I thought at first that you wanted to explore the source of your negative feelings regardless of other people, now it sounds like you want to be able to reconnect with other people? Accomplishing either one of these things will most likely help the other one happen, but setting a clear goal might help you create a really good set and setting that will be most beneficial.
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