Drugs and Love
I have advice for you from two vastly different persectives that run along the same lines, so listen well:
From a clinical perspective (and not an illicit one - you may only dig yourself a deeper hole this way via the Heroin/similar drug route) - Attempt to obtain a prescription for a benzodiazepine (examples - Valium, Klonopin, Xanax, Ativan, all of which I believe are the most commonly prescribed). Ive been through nearly every SSRI in the book, save the ones that were *just* created within the past year (the amount of time since I stopped fucking with them), and then I found Xanax. Taken as prescribed (dont let yourself abuse these, or at least, too much!

) they really do cure that empty hole of lonliness that I am sure has been pervading your mind recently. We've all been there, some more than others, and I think I can claim to be one of the former.
From a personal perspective, which could possibly relate to an experience you might have with it , Xanax relaxes me, creates in me a newfound social compatability with other human beings, and forces me to take an interest in life and explore its possibilities, expanding my thoughts through easier conversation with my fellow humans.
From a humanitarian perspective - and someone else's comment in this thread spurred me to mention this, so props to whoever said it first - is
L-O-V-E, man. I recently fell head over heels in love for the first time in my life and realized, to my utter astonishment, that I *could* (not that I would

) cease the use of all other drugs if I could feel the way I do with this girl all the time. She's incredible, she completes me, all the nonsensical stereotypical language you'd hear from someone in love, but let me tell you - it is *true*, it will not lead you down a dark and dirty path, and it
-lasts-. There is no 'half-life' or "tolerance" for someone who is in genuine love with another human being. The sense of lonliness is overtaken, and ultimately replaced, by merely *thinking* of the person in question. Even when you're not with them. It's remarkable.
I may just be undeservingly lucky though, having fallen in love and gotten scripted to 4mg of Xanax a day within 3 weeks of each other. But honestly, I understand your pain and how you want the world to go away. Opiates seem like the easiest answer, but can lead to so, so many more problems than you're trying to "cure" now - not that Xanax can't, but I'd advise taking these things as prescribed exactly for that reason.
But as for benzo's and love, these proverbial "drugs", in the literal and figurative sense, allow one to pursue, and to seek out the world instead of withdrawl and hide from it. Please consider what I've said. One happier person on this Earth of ours is one more step towards the unification of our collective conciousness.
Peace and Best Wishes!
Vaya:D