ok tough guy
It's the truth. Doesn't make me tough. I just don't give a shit about what most men think. I hate most men anyways because of being repeatedly molested when I was younger.
It's easier to just deck somebody who throws passive aggressive jabs at you than to do the stupid little dance which is just them throwing little punches thinking you won't throw the big one.
I don't need to look manly. I know I look manly but when you're a lunatic drug addict it doesn't matter what your physical appearance looks like.
I'm not in a good place right now. I'd probably punch somebody in the face who pissed me off for fun. Physical pain doesn't scare me. I grew up with violence.
I'll take all the insults In the world from myself and bury them deep inside but God forbid the asshole who tries to put me down in front of others(women), which is the only time I care. Probably psychologists would say I'm chaising love I didn't get from my mom from females but I push them away too to protect them from my bullshit. I don't want anymore dead bodies in my bed.
Not tough.... Quite the opposite.... Usually toughness is a cover for pain.
One of my best friends was a huge fucking guy, ripped, Projected, confidence, stoic, had no problem picking up women, wouldn't back down from a fight. Of course I knew about his drug struggles and divorce from wife and loss of kids but he never talked about pain or wanting to die. Woke up one morning, grabbed his rifle and walked out to the hwy where he blew his brains out in front of morning rush hour traffic.
