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Missed you all! My laptop is broken :( cracked the screen to a pretty impressive degree so been without net for ages.. gone a little crazy I think. Nearly 2am so off to bed but hope you are all well <3
 
manicmama said:
Who tells a 4 year old ther mam don't love them?
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Somebody selfish who doesn't mind hurting little kids?
Somebody who shouldn't be a parent?

These would be my guesses.

MM..am sorry to read what you're going through with your child.
I'm more sad to read what a child is forced to hear.
Can't say I blame you for wanting not to feel.

But you must feel now more than ever.

Hopes that you do what you can and should to get your baby out of a toxic situation.

I wish you and your child the best. <3

token

edit: effie you can plug your laptop into any pc monitor...if it's just the screen that's broken..
been there...done that.
 
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^ I didn't get it closed, man.

I didn't even talk to verso (or anyone else) about them closing it and I don't even think it needed to be closed. I think they should reopen it for you and I bet they will if you talk to them about it.

I apologize for what I was saying in there. I was unfair with some of the criticism and shouldn't have said anything. I think it will be reopened and I hope it can spark more discussion and more people get involved. Honestly, I really don't have anything against you personally and usually I am impressed with your contributions so I wasn't trying to denigrate you as an individual or anything like that. You certainly are a valuable contributor to BL and I'm glad you're very active.
 
Criticism was welcome, I just felt like at some points it crossed the line. I deleted that post above you, just because its irrelevant now that you've entered your presence in BDD.

So yeah, let's keep drama out of Bluelight!

How's everyone?
 
effie said:
BDDDDDDD <3

Missed you all! My laptop is broken :( cracked the screen to a pretty impressive degree so been without net for ages.. gone a little crazy I think. Nearly 2am so off to bed but hope you are all well <3
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Was wondering where you had got to, check your latop for a VGA connector and just plug in a separate screen, if you wanna be really neat get a USB Keyboard and mouse and your properly sorted, I good while ago I had a laptop with a broken screen that work were throwing out as my only machine setup that way worked a treat and free !.

If you lived closer I'd drop all the bits to you, these days I have more nits of PCs in the garage and loft than I care to admit to partly as I was selling cheap PCs on Ebay a while back when we were a bit short of cash, got loads of stuff via some IT contacts, businesses throw away so much stuff its criminal. Anyhow you seem sorted now budon't ever hesitate to ask happy to help anyone if can.

Screen should be a fairly easy job to get done, if it's a decent machine, you need to find an independent repairer that come recommended some people charge a fortune for simple jobs like this, less than an hours work if you know what your doing, you can get screens off Ebay quite cheap or at least check out the price.

Hope your well, seem to remember you were getting out and about and livin it up bit more...go girl.

I've managed to bust my fekin knee, badly and am currently house bound until further notice, still on the taper though I'll be done by the end of this month, its getting hard especially with being stuck in the house and other shit but reckon I'll get there;)
 
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Hey token :)
Am cool,was angry, hurt n upset last nite.
Of course I need my feelins, wivout the bad we wudn't appreciacte the good. And of course, there's people dealin wiv worse shit, god bless 'em.
Anyhow - happy sunday folks :)
Me jst avin a brew, blitzed bathroom 4 me nan, kitchens nxt, makin meself feel useful.

Hope y'all doin summat nice x
 
Am I the only person who treats vyvanse like meth some days?

I can redose-redose-redose on this stuff and not really get bad side effects.
Benefits: I'm the friendliest guy at work.
 
Umm, is vyvanse amphetamine? If so I take street speed - not meth, us brits r a wee bit scared of meth - everyday, just eat it, an since I bin on it, everyone, including my care co-ordinator, my nana, my gp and practice nurse, etc reckon I am the most stable, 'normal', well I've ever been. They've seen me clean and on a variety of shit, but it would appear speed makes me less crazy ha ha.
 
I prefer dextroamp over meth anyway. The dopamine rush and NE rush is much more stimulating and I love it. Come downs are never an issue seeing as I usually can drink a cup of coffee to make them go away, or if I'm trying to snooze, a little benzodiazepine/GHB.

Meth's dulled down NE and increased serotonin make it far too mellow for me. It also seems way more addictive.

I live in America so there's little meth crystal shards growing everywhere.
 
manicmama said:
Hey token :)
Am cool,was angry, hurt n upset last nite.
Of course I need my feelins, wivout the bad we wudn't appreciacte the good. And of course, there's people dealin wiv worse shit, god bless 'em.
Anyhow - happy sunday folks :)
Me jst avin a brew, blitzed bathroom 4 me nan, kitchens nxt, makin meself feel useful.

Hope y'all doin summat nice x
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MM...
Glad you're feeling better today:)

<3token
 
I used 2b a bad cokehead, I was just chaotic n psychotic on that. Clean, I'm not exactly depressed, just no drive an little energy, can't be botheredness sorta thing.
Now on speed, well, just makes me me, but the energy and ambition to go to work and do my job well, not only look after my childs basic needs but play with him and take him out. I usually sleep ok, don't take late, force myself to eat a little through the day and manage 6/7 hours or so, should I obtain a fresh supply that's a bit stronger an I aint adjusted my amount, or I just decide to speed my tits off with my mate then I got Zopiclone or clonazepam in desperation.
Never had a bad comedown in my life, but now I've been on it daily for a while I'm expecting a bit of a rough ride when I stop - though tbh, I'll probs just feel like I usually do clean but feel worse cos I've been used to feeling so good everyday.
How you describe meth, it sounds shit to me - like when I tried crack, was expecting this amazing rush everyone goes on about, an I thought wtf? Goin for a line me, see ya.

Edit - hey token! Thanx, beauty of bein me - never can be in a bad mood long :) hope ur good x
 
Those moments when you've had a little too many benzos and you start having these ideas...

Then you sober up a little and look back and thank God you didnt follow through.
 
Never abuse benzo's other than to sleep if am out of zopi, not a fan of downers in general, did av an alcohol issue - in the fact that once I started 2 drink, I cudn't stop. As a result any wonderful ideas were either followed thru or I cudnt remember anything after my 1st drink.
 
Not a big fan of benzo abuse either. But I'm less of a fan of panic attacks and insomnia.
 
Panic attacks - I don't envy u!
I am lucky in comparison, my benzos r 4 anxiety/racing thoughts. Me being me, I like my busy mind - so don't take em 4 that. Anxiety, if it's bad I'll pop one, but only if it's really bad.
For my sleep - which is poor after takin amp int day or not - I got my Zopi, I only take wen I'm lookin a bit drained thru poor sleep, usually once sometimes twice a week.

I would just rather cope til I absolutely can't cos I don't fancy tolerance and dependency and eventually goin thru w/d, especially when I aint bin gettin high on them lol.
 
Renz Envy said:
Not a big fan of benzo abuse either. But I'm less of a fan of panic attacks and insomnia.
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manicmama said:
hey token! Thanx, beauty of bein me - never can be in a bad mood long :) hope ur good x
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Hey back @ you...never being in a bad mood long...that is a beautiful thing.
still trying to figure out the beauty of being me..but I'm good, regardless. thx.

~token
 
You have beauty - you come across kind, thoughtful and wise token. I'm sure there is more.

I have more bad points than good, but at least I can admit my faults, some people believe they are perfect or better than you. We're all equal, I may have mental health, drug and anger issues - but others should find there own fault and work on that before criticising mine.
 
^ and she has a gorgeous avatar! :D

Manicmama, nice to see another UK person here, especially SW UK - I'm a Bristol girl :) you are absolutely right, none of us are perfect and learning to know and accept yourself is one of life's challenges!

How is everyone today? I am mildly stressed (money issues :|) but not too bad. Mostly sleepy..
 
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