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[laCster]

whats up envy, cloudy, lou, effie, and NT?

im doing awesome!!!

hows everyone else doing? i have been along in a long itime, but i have finally realized that i dont need to use drugs everyday to feel happy about myself. i i have learned how to balance my usage alot better, but i am on a thin line. im like right on the edge of becoming an addict so i have to be extremely careful. i am only using subs, benzos and amps 1-2 times a week and hats it. i started 2 weeks ago and i found out being sober is that bad. i actually enjoy some activities while sober such as exercise, hanging out with friends, dancing, going to hookah bars, and girls :D

I've changed my taste in substances.

I went from GHB + meth combinations to a safer, legal

Klonopin + vyvanse

Life's better when you can be open about your drug habits.

i love love love love LOVE klonopin and pure d-amp and race mixs (dex, addy, vyvanse)
all you need is some suboxone (my 2nd favorite opiate to combine amphetamine with) or hydrocodone (the best amp combiner IMO i jsut fucking love it!!)

^ GHB is a must try, if only for its phenomenal aphrodisiac property. I was a sex beast and had the most perverted ideas when I did this drug.

Howdy BDD. I'm a bit ill at the moment, I hope it wont last. Trying to stop JWH totally. It's hard.

See ya

im sorry reed i hope you get better!! JWH is a a nasty drug IMO, and much more dangerous than regular old weeds. ive heard JWH WD fucking sucks!!! but with marijuana i stopped cold turkey after smoking everyday for 6 years straight. maybe there was one or two days, but literally every day. i was trappin though so i had enough hahahaha

 

[Renz Envy]

What's the final level of harm reduction training in your opinion?

I believe the final level of harm reduction is when you're a successful individual who can use a drug habit to progress his or her life. Whether it be by stress relief or concentration enhancement.

Mastering harm reduction means having an in depth, biochemical knowledge and control over every substance you use. A master refuses to take random pills handed to him or her without testing them first. They also understand the social ramifications that drugs can cause on their life. Therefore its not only the medical aspect, but the sociological aspect of it as well. Their use is typically kept to themselves, however they will not hesitate to spread information as it's their obligation to do so. They do so without sparking too much self-incrimination through knowledge.

A master can drop any habit, and understands the difference between his or her life sober and while using. They may only use certain substances in certain situations. They know that at the end of the day a balanced, quiet use of drugs is beneficial to their life.

Although his drug use was not kept secret, as it benefits science. This is an example of a master:

 

[laCster]

very good post renz!! i definitely agree!

how've you been man? i remember when you were new to this site and only had like 300 posts, what i am getting at is ur a cool dude lool..

hahaha im fucked up

any good drugs today?

 

[Renz Envy]

Not to much. I was sober for a month and it really opened my eyes.

I struggled with beating a meth habit that was going to take my future. What a devil. Meth is like a monkey that shits on your shoulder and rationalizes why it should be allowed to keep shitting on you. I have the will power to kick it, but I don't have the will power to use it WISELY.

Not going to be the last time I ingest methamphetamine, however I do not intend to use it until I'm ready. I clearly have not reached the point where I can handle it.

Realizing every day that drugs are a stair-step process. If you're not ready for the harder drugs, you'll ruin yourself. After proper training I think anyone can use meth or heroin and be 100% okay, it just takes years of training with the softer substances. (Marijuana/hallucinogens being beginner drugs then intermediates(some pharmaceuticals) and then the hard things (coke, heroin, meth, GHB, Ket)

For example: If someone dropped meth on my desk, yes I would do around 20-30mg of it. I can control myself from getting "high" on it, but I can't control myself from not using it everyday while its in my vicinity. I'm not ready. One day I'll use that powerful ass drug like a weapon and put it down with no problem. Until then, my life isn't supposed to end with me dedicating it all to a stupid psychoactive crystal.

 

[laCster]

i am also struggling to stay sober, but after gettting kicked out 3 rehabs, i finally decided to go to AA/NA meetings everydayand now that it s in my own hands to get sober, i feel alot more willing, yah there will always be bumps on the road, but right now i am happy where i am at. from using suboxone everyday, and occasioanlly using benzos, i stopped going to the sub doc but i still have some left over. now i just take 2mgs maybe 1-2 times a week and stay completely sober (ciggs and caffeine dont count) for the next 6-7 days. before i went to rehab, i was Dkilling myself slowly and i would freak out when i didnt have fdrugs or ran out of drugs. i needed some thing in me every day and if i didnt have it i would crawl in my skin. i am greatful for all the rehabs ive been too. but LMAO i went there to learn how to control my drug usage (ahahahah my parents thought i was there to get completely sobers) and it definitely helped as i found fun sober activites to du while sober such as exercise, hang out with friends, hookah bars and most importantly girls i dont think i am an addict to drugs, i just hav an addictive personality and i like how drugs make me feel. i think i am going in the right direction IMO

i am astounded that i can go multiple days without any sort of drug because last year i would have NEVER thought that i could go a day without uusing.
i am truely greatful

but agree and disagree with your theory, some people just cant manage drugs at ALL and even the softer drugs they go crazy on them and need them every day. but hahaha there is no such thing as a successful heroin addict. my awarnss immensely grew and i know that if i go back to harder drugs like heroin or oxy than it will be game over, even if i had multiple eyars and months sober.

some people are like that though, its a slim percantage of the population but some can use some heroin maybe 1-2 times every 2-3 months, and there are some people that use heroin 5-10 times a day.

 

[Renz Envy]

http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/threads/...-Reduction-Enthusiast?p=10653705#post10653705

Decided to make a thread on the levels of harm reduction knowledge based on what I've seen in the forums, real life and myself.

 

[Jktm]

for recreational use it's better to throw your tramadol in the trash.

qft

 

[Cane2theLeft]

There's really no need to promote threads you started elsewhere in here, Renz. It comes off a bit narcissistic tbh.

 

[laCster]

^jealous

 

[Jktm]

Not to much. I was sober for a month and it really opened my eyes.

I struggled with beating a meth habit that was going to take my future. What a devil. Meth is like a monkey that shits on your shoulder and rationalizes why it should be allowed to keep shitting on you. I have the will power to kick it, but I don't have the will power to use it WISELY.

Not going to be the last time I ingest methamphetamine, however I do not intend to use it until I'm ready. I clearly have not reached the point where I can handle it.

Realizing every day that drugs are a stair-step process. If you're not ready for the harder drugs, you'll ruin yourself. After proper training I think anyone can use meth or heroin and be 100% okay, it just takes years of training with the softer substances. (Marijuana/hallucinogens being beginner drugs then intermediates(some pharmaceuticals) and then the hard things (coke, heroin, meth, GHB, Ket)

For example: If someone dropped meth on my desk, yes I would do around 20-30mg of it. I can control myself from getting "high" on it, but I can't control myself from not using it everyday while its in my vicinity. I'm not ready. One day I'll use that powerful ass drug like a weapon and put it down with no problem. Until then, my life isn't supposed to end with me dedicating it all to a stupid psychoactive crystal.

Yes, it is a son of a bitch to kick...

It gets easier the longer you go without though...

I got on it bad for a year...didn't eat or sleep at all when I was on it...Most of what I had was water, gatorade, or sprite...

Went 6 months without and decided to do it once more...I had a problem with doing it constantly when I had it, so I put it down after one use...Next time I used was about 11 months after that...Did it a few times and used it quite a bit better in terms of not loading bowl after bowl and just smoking 24/7...I could eat on it, sleep on it if I wanted too...just much more controlled...Then I didn't do it for about 3 months, and I only did it then because I wanted to find out what was in the capsule my parents found in my late grandmother's house that they had just recently started renting out...Well...it was dope lol...burnt like it, felt like it, and it lasted 12 hours lol...

It's been 4 months since I last had it, and it will probably be a really long time before I do it if I do ever do it again...Too risky to use recreationally in the line of work I'm going into...

 

[Renz Envy]

It's been 4 months since I last had it, and it will probably be a really long time before I do it if I do ever do it again...Too risky to use recreationally in the line of work I'm going into...

and that's all part of HR. Gotta decide: "Drug or Life."
Everyone has a weakness

There's really no need to promote threads you started elsewhere in here, Renz. It comes off a bit narcissistic tbh.

I suppose, it was more of a continuation of a post I wrote in BDD and decided to go all the way with it.

The combination of substances may make me act a tad narcissistic, I apologize, I got a little excited.
Feel free to knock my ego out the door.

 

[laCster]

meth is one hell of a drug, i have some acquaintances who would rather shoot up meth than heroin or opiates. crystal gives madd euphoria so i have heard

smoking on some newport shorts, what do y'all smoke?

 

[Renz Envy]

I don't smoke cigarettes unless I'm out with friends. I Prefer marlboro 27s.

 

[laCster]

yeah im not that big of a smoker unless im messed up i like to chain smoke.

or when i dont want to use any drugs that day then i like to smoke ciggs. i prbably on smoke 2-4 cigss those days

i fucking LOVE ciggs on cocaine and amphetamine because they make them more euphoric IMO.

smoking ciggs on a low dose of dxm 90-120mgs feels really nice too because its antitussive properties which allow to take fat drags and causes sex

 

[Renz Envy]

My uncle and grandfather were super chain smokers, both died from smoking related deaths.
They were up to 2-3 packs a day.

I inherited the same gene.

I pick up a cigarette and NEVER feel satisfied with just one. I need to smoke 2-3 at a time to feel buzzed. Tobacco is pretty bloody bad for you, so I'm steering clear of that.

I'm not uptight or anything, if you handed me a cig I'll smoke it. I just don't feel the urge to constantly fiend over the things.

 

[the toad]

smoking ciggs on a low dose of dxm 90-120mgs feels really nice too because its antitussive properties which allow to take fat drags

Lol i should try this for smoking herb

and causes sex

Say what?

 

[laCster]

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My uncle and grandfather were super chain smokers, both died from smoking related deaths.
They were up to 2-3 packs a day.

I inherited the same gene.

I pick up a cigarette and NEVER feel satisfied with just one. I need to smoke 2-3 at a time to feel buzzed. Tobacco is pretty bloody bad for you, so I'm steering clear of that.

I'm not uptight or anything, if you handed me a cig I'll smoke it. I just don't feel the urge to constantly fiend over the things.

going into rehab and getting sober, once i was mostly sober i didnt smoke weed so i just started smoking ciggs

i feel yah, differnt people have different brain chemistry... for me, i can go weeks withut smoking and i would be fine. i could take 2 drags and i could be fine for the day, im never a big smoker, its just not something that it that enjoying for me. if i was not getting drug tested, i would quit the ciggs and go to weed for sure. i never smoked ciggs before

Lol i should try this for smoukin
g herb


Say what?

ughhh, dont even get me started cuz i cant smoke weed ! jahajahahahah

most people think DXM is dirty and a shitty dissociative which i agree because when you take higher doses its just soo crappy. however, i have sweet spot of between 90-120mgs that gives me this awesome feeling of relaxtion and confidence. essentially, i look at it as an anti-depressant because at low doses it has poor affinity to NMDAr , but extremely high affinity to serotonin receptors. it NRI abilities are not as potent as the SRI abilities, and it is a sigma-1 agonist which in the brain NMDAr and sigma receptors are located usually around groups of opiate receptors. which is why some opiates are NMDA-antagonists, most opiates are sigma agonists, and DXM binds very very very lightly to the opiate receptors.

i usually take the DXM with some type of opiate because it goes sooooo well IMO. its the perfect synergism for me. maybe i just have a weird brain? idk

marijuana is also an amazing synergist with DXM because....welll, idk why looololol. it just is, i also like DPH with DXM alot to help with overstimulation and nausea. sometimes i get itchy from DXM because it releases histamine, but i fucking love low dose DXM



one of my favorite combos at this moment is: suboxone, benzo (xanax, kpin, val, ect..), gabapentin, DXM, marijuana and most importantly DPH and tagamet for potentiation

 

[Allein]

Addiction or at habitual and uncontrolled use is an issue for me regardless of the substance.

I've spent the last 3-4 years working on understanding my abusive nature, something that I largely didn't recognise properly for probably all my life. For my drug use is most definitely linked to, problems I have with anxiety and depression. This is part of me and the person I am, it has it up and downsides like most peoples lot.

For me I cannot deal with anything vaguely addictive, possession is consumption, there is no self control, it got lost along the way of I ever had any, which is doubtful.

I don't make such distinctive lines between one drug and another, for example its only in retrospect that I realise that my 15 year hash habit was stupidly excessive and just filled the gaps between my weekend stim benders. As I got older I switched to Booze and coke and when I could no longer hide from the depression any longer I turned to more booze more stims and Benzos. Eventually ending in me putting myself into secure care as I'd totally lost the plot.

I can only speak for myself but thoughts that I can handle "just a bit" of this or that are just excuses for me to start using again. The latest example being the Benzo taper I'm almost done with .....again.

 

[Jktm]

meth is one hell of a drug, i have some acquaintances who would rather shoot up meth than heroin or opiates. crystal gives madd euphoria so i have heard

smoking on some newport shorts, what do y'all smoke?

Ya, strongest euphoria I've ever felt was on meth...I'm in pain all the time, so even high dose, strong painkillers won't get me high most of the time...last time I felt euphoria from opioids was on 90mg Morphine, and that's probably only because I took 4 phentermine to stay awake on them (I wasn't planning on taking them that night...got pulled over doing about 95 MPH on the way back into my town because my friends gf heard someone whistling outside and they live way the fuck out in the boonies...didn't get a ticket though )

And ya, I'm with Renz on the 27's...Been my smoke of choice for about 3 years now...it used to be Camel Wides, but after a year of smoking a pack-pack and a half a day I was having horrible, horrible upper respiratory problems, and my chest felt really really heavy and kind of painful, so I switched to what I considered a cigarette that's between a medium and a full-flavor cigarette...

I don't smoke cigarettes unless I'm out with friends. I Prefer marlboro 27s.

Amen to that...Marlboro 27's are the tits...Gotta be the shorts though...I got excited when I heard they were finally coming out with 100's, but then when I tried them, they just tasted different than the shorts for some reason lol...

Recently I've been smoking L&M Turkish Blend 100's, because a gas station in my area has been keeping them at about 4.49/pack POST-tax...

yeah im not that big of a smoker unless im messed up i like to chain smoke.

or when i dont want to use any drugs that day then i like to smoke ciggs. i prbably on smoke 2-4 cigss those days

i fucking LOVE ciggs on cocaine and amphetamine because they make them more euphoric IMO.

smoking ciggs on a low dose of dxm 90-120mgs feels really nice too because its antitussive properties which allow to take fat drags and causes sex

LOL, I wish I could make drugs more euphoric with cigarettes...I'm a pack a day smoker, and have been since I started smoking 5 years ago, so they really don't do anything but calm me...I think it's been really hard to stop smoking because I use them for anxiety...I think vallium would be healthier though lmfao...I prefer vallium to other benzos (with the exception of halcion (triazolam) of course lol), but my tolerance is too high for a prescription of them...I'd need to take a minimum of 4 for them to have a worthwhile effect lol...

 

[tricomb]

-Crystal is one helluva drug.

-Turkish Royals

-Hash oil

-South Park

-Otter Pops

-percosex

-norcozy

-best friends chillin

-summer nights

-friday

-whatchu know?