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I decided to take 150mg buproprion today instead of vyvanse, ans this shit makes me feel even more aggitated and anxious than amphetamines do. I had some leftover wellbutrin from last year and I was like whatever, I'll take ir because I'm trying to cut back on cigs and take a break from vyvanse. But that was a bad choice.


Fuck wellbutrin, this shit has me craving cigs and more anxious than vyvanse. I'm flushing the remainder of my wellbutrin stash down the drain. Fuuux this shit!

I do feel rather stimulated and shit but bleh, I should have taken vyvanse. Whatever ill just stay completely sober tomorrow, no bupre no vyvanse no wellbutrin, and on Friday. I'll take my usual dose buprenorphine and vyvanse.lolol
 
tentram said:
what's everyone's thoughts on the movie "argo"? i'm downloading it now as i've just completed the "silver linings playbook" move. which i'm going to watch after finishing off "django" very soon.
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Yeah I like Argo, and I'm glad it actually won an Oscar even though he was not nominated in the best director category although tbf I have enjoyed all of Ben Afflecks directed movies, like 'Gone Baby Gone' 'The Town' 'Good Will Hunting'. I've actually watched most of this years Oscar nominated films such as... Life Of PI, Lincoln, The Master, Django, Silver Linings Playbook etc

I particularly like the the scene in Silver Linings when there talking about there meds... Trazodone, Klonopin and what not... Talking of movies I recently watched Drive for the 2nd time, personally speaking I think this film should of Won some Oscars last year.
 
^Yeah? I dunno, I've never understood why people love Drive so much...I mean I've watched it multiple times, but tbh that's only cuz Gosling is in it =D
Other than that I thought it was quite slow, and there isn't really much of a story to hold on to and stuff...but hey, to each their own.

Django on the other hand, fuck. Best movie I've ever seen I think. I'm so happy Waltz got the Oscar!
 
FUCK YEAH! my boss just called me up. i start work on monday. i get roxis on sunday so monday should be enjoyable, as well as tuesday and wednesday.

got my haircut, shit, showered, shaved, and got stoned af. im soooo happy
 
Pagey said:
^Yeah? I dunno, I've never understood why people love Drive so much...I mean I've watched it multiple times, but tbh that's only cuz Gosling is in it =D
Other than that I thought it was quite slow, and there isn't really much of a story to hold on to and stuff...but hey, to each their own.

Django on the other hand, fuck. Best movie I've ever seen I think. I'm so happy Waltz got the Oscar!
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Django was pretty good, I am disappointed in how big of an asshole Quinton terintino is. In the interview for his movie he was a complete douche bag. Whatever, he makes good movies lol.


Hmmm idk, it is hard to say what movie I think is the best movie I have ever seen because I really like a lot of movies. It's hard to pick a favorite because there are different genre's and shit, but django was definitely up there.

I didn't think drive was amazing, but I didn't think it was horrible on the other hand. It kept me entertained even though being slow at some points. It was definitely better than some of the new Adam Sandler movies like that's my boy, or the love guru by that other dude. They both sucked dick, and I turned them off before finishing them.

Mainly, I enjoy all action movies with guns, or swords and shit, and I'm not a big fan of comedys as they all seem the fucking same to me. Chick flicks aren't my favorite either, probably because the center peice of those movies are attractive men, and I'm not attracted to men in a sexual way. But I liked the twilight movies because I drool over the main girl from that movie...ummm I think her name is Kristen Stewart? Idk but Id do some raunchy things to that girl lmao...

Movies with boobs are nice aswell. Always a plus, but just because there is a hot girl in the movie doesn't mean I automatically like the movie. Some of the America. Pie movies or other stupid comedies with naked women are stupid, and if I wanted to see boobs that bad I'd just look up some porn lmao.

I am a movie fan though, not like a huge nerd that can quote every single line, but I do enjoy a good movie. Oh yah. And the star wars series is overrated. Maybe its because I grew up in a time where computers and cell phones were prominent and star wars just seems outdated and silly.

Which brings me to to a movie I liked, Prometheus was a good flick
 
Know this ain't the place to rant but...

I got shaken down by two detectives last night and I am pretty fucking pissed about it. They pulled me over for no reason, searched me and a passenger for no reason, tried to illegally search my car and to top it all off made me do a field soberity test just so they could laugh about it.

I am sick of this shit....I must fit the description of that guy that wanted munchies at midnight. This has happened twice in as many years, don't they have something better to do like find the crack heads that constantly steal my stuff?

I am firmly in the fuck tha police camp now. Nothing but a bunch of "good old boys" covering for each other. They pull shit like this and cover for each other then wonder why we distrust them.

So if any LEOs are reading this: fuck you. I will never respect you. You are scum, filth, and I hope you get what's coming to you asshole.

From now on I am recording everything that happens while my car is on the road and if I see another driver pulled over I am stopping and recording that too. Hell if I see the police in public at all I will record them.

Sorry guys....I know its a useless rant but I had to let off some steam. Waiting on the weed man to get in touch, soon as he does I am twisting up a fatty and playing some CoD, hope y'all nightwent better than mine.
 
Pagey said:
^Yeah? I dunno, I've never understood why people love Drive so much...I mean I've watched it multiple times, but tbh that's only cuz Gosling is in it =D
Other than that I thought it was quite slow, and there isn't really much of a story to hold on to and stuff...but hey, to each their own.

Django on the other hand, fuck. Best movie I've ever seen I think. I'm so happy Waltz got the Oscar!
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I'm not really sure what it is about Drive that appeals to me so much... Maybe it's the understated Love story between Ryan Gosling and Carey Mulligan (Who is nice enough to eat) Or the fact that Goslings character is such a nice guy yet such a bad futhamucka at the same time... Or the amazing Retro Electro Euro-Pop sountrack.. Or the fact that the first time I watched it I was knee deep in Benzo/Opiate addiction, signed off from work at my Employers request and at complete rock bottom in my life? I know that may sound very strange to some, but where I'm at Psychologically has a big bearing on what I'm feeling Musically and visually and this has been the case all my life (I dont know, it may be the same for others?) Anyways.. I'm not really sure but something about that film grabs a hold of me like very few others have ever done.

As for Django, yeah I like it, and I'm glad Waltz got an Oscar, but for me personally, I always have a soft spot for Pulp Fiction when it comes to Tarantino movies, maybe because I was a corruptable 14/15 year old when it was released.
 
smokemctoke420 said:
Being searched sucks, you feel violated after. Did they find anything? Hopefully not
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They didn't find shit because there wasn't shit to find. We don't ride dirty....:)

They were really concerned about my cell phone though and constantly reminded us that we couldn't use them. They knew they were doing wrong and didn't want any evidence of it. Next time I will have my stealth camera rig installed so I'll have audio and video of this bullshit.

They were actually laughing at us when they pulled us over which they made sure to do on a dark side street where there would be no witnesses.

Man you should have seen that guys face when I told him he wasn't searching anything without a warrent. He got pissed but fuck him I didn't want him spitting in my slushy. >.>

You know it kinda brings a smile to my face knowing that these guys can't eat anywhere without getting spit in their food. Used to not agree with fucking with peoples food but if anyone deserves it its bad cops.

BTW the local guy they called in to do my soberity test was a young'in. He knew it was a bullshit stop as soon as he got there. Basically wasn't going to fail me unless I fell on my face. Asked me where I'd came from, when I said "playing call of duty with my friend" he got super cool. Turns out he plays too and is a huge fan.

Its too bad that they are going to take a nice kid like that and turn him into scum.
 
yeah bro, that shits wack. when me and my boy got pulled over it was the one day i dint have anything on me but my buddy just picked up 2 quarters and one was for me but i left it in the console with his, along with his 2 bowls. he took the blame cuz i never asked for the quarter he just assumed i wanted it cuz i was out. it wouldnt make sense for 2 of us to split charges and everything was his except the one bag i didnt even expect to get.

they also made him do a field sobriety test and they said he failed. the one rookie cop goes "hes so stoned haha", i wanted to smack him cuz my buddy didnt smoke in 5 hours since he was waiting on me to get out of class.

long story short he got possesion of marijuana (2 counts), possession of pharephenia (2 counts), DUI second offense, and unsafe lane change. he lawyered up and they offered him the mandatory minimum of 60 dayss in jail and he said "no, i have a good lawyer". needless to say he had to take drug court and the first offenders program since they dropped it to reckless driving alcohol related which is bullshit cuz he didnt even drink.

this is the same police dept that tasered a man on his birthday and planted drugs in his car. heres the link
http://www.wmdt.com/story/20378552/dagsboro-man-sues-city-seaford-alleges-police-abuse

fuck the police, i hate em.
 
Thank you, smoke. It's been a tough few years battling this opiate addiction but I think my time is up with it. I have two choices now really, continue and ruin my life, or get off and sort my life out once and for all, close this dark and horrible chapter of my life once and for all.
 
your welcome.

pretty much. im not physically addicted but years of mental addiction off and on take a toll on you to. im also planning on drastically cutting back my usage very soon. you seem like a strong person, i think you can do it.

just make sure "cannot" is not in your vocabulary, have confidence in yourself.
 
synthetix said:
I'm going into treatment tomorrow... Hopefully I'm going to detox from opiates once and forever. I hate this life I'm living at the moment..
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good for you, man. have you been considering this long and given yourself time to choose a decent place to detox? it's a hard choice to make for some but you've the wits about yourself and seem confident going into it which is a great way to start:) i wish you the best of luck, dude.

is maintenance an option you're throwing around at all? or you just want to get fully clean? nada thing in the system deal.

i've struggled with opioid addiction for around 7 years so know the game pretty well and have done many detoxes at home and some easy while others were absolute hell and misery. spose it's the price to pay for long term addicts.

morning BDD folk. my car conked out on the highway 3km from home so apart from the great start to the day that had to come along and cause me a little stress. not too worry too much, though. on the plus side i got my physical exercise for the day completed :D now time to kick back while i'm morphed up, watch a few new flicks, smoke a little weed and cigarettes and drink cawfee. ohhh yeah. it's going to be a bum day today!
 
Good luck synth, and keep strong. If you can overcome this obstacle, you will.be able to accomplish anything. Withdrawal and abstinenceis probably one of the hardest challenge a person can face...

I'm glad you were able to make lemonade from lemons Tentram! Good to see you in good spirits

Oh yah, and fuck the police. Fuck them so hard, don't they have anything else to do besides catching some kids with a little weed? Fuck that shit, they make a bonus for getting a certain amount of arrests, its their quota. Dog eat dog world....


Today was alright . Woke up in withdrawal and was able to get relief from a little bupre, then Foolishly swallowed some wellbutrin. The day started out good, then I I realized I was dehydrated when I could barely stand up and felt nauseous as fuck. As a result, I wasn't able to get the exercise I wanted and planned on. Kind of didn't do shit today and feel kind of stuck . Supposedly I got a call for a job offer, but it was at 8am so I didn't bother to answer, and when I called back , a third-party messenger service answered. And I didn't make any effort to find community service. Bleh...
 
Good luck synthetix....just remember getting the drugs out of your system is the easy part. After that is when the battle really begins, then it is just up to you and your brain. You just need to keep your eyes on the prize and realize there is absolutely nothing to come of using, not even once. Just remind yourself that your an addict and there is no such thing as just once, if you choose to use again it is in full knowledge that you will be welcoming your addiction right back. You can do it bro good luck.


As for drive, I thought that movie was really overrated, nothing special. I was hoping there would be some badass driving scenes and there literally only one. So lame. Also the main chick could've been hotter.

Hope everyone is having a good night. I'm comfortably jammed, gotta get up at 5am to continue studying for my midterm tomorrow. I got a fat shot waiting for me when I wake up which is stupid haha cuz that early im just going to end up nodding my ass off and not getting anything done, but hey thats life. It really bothers me that somehow since I relapsed about 45 days ago there hasn't been a single day where I havent used dope and I don't have any income. It really depresses me to think about how much dope my parents have secretly funded man, I'm such a shit son. I want to get clean for my parents so bad ugh. I got a bunch of suboxone at my disposal too, it's just that I never take them cause I always have a way of copping some dope. I got a new connect today with firee dope and wicked good deals too, the last thing that I should have done if I'm trying to quit soon. Oh well....life goes on ya know? I hope everyone is taking care of themselves and at the very least happy :)


P.S. the person who is in withdrawal from oxymorphone, sorry I can't remember the user name. You took amphetamines and coke while you were in opiate withdrawal? *shivers* That sounds terrible. I can't imagine the comedown from those while you are dope sick, sounds like the worst thing ever. In all honesty I probably would have shot the coke if I was in your position, but would have regretted the hell out of it when it ran out and I felt like complete death. Yuck.
 
Good luck synthetix. Great decision.

Plugged 70mg of 4-FA a few hours ago and took 1.5mg of Alprazolam about 30 minutes ago. Just chilling for the night playing games and shit.

As far as drive, I really liked the movie. Great soundtrack. I did a film review on it for my college composition class.
 
Morning all. How is everyone doing?

Took 250mg tramadol, 300mg of lyrica, and 150mg of hydroxyzine this morning. Just drank 20 oz of wgfj (BLEUGH! Never get used to that shit.), and about to take 2mg of alprazolam and 10mg of hydrocodone (won't get me high, but will help a tiny bit lol). Gotta go have new MRI's done on c-/l-spine, so the dose will help with sitting in that hell tube.

Gotta a question. Not asking how to score pills, but wondering if I should ask my doctor to switch me to 20mg of desoxyn/day (10 at 6am, 10 at noon) from my current vyvanse dose. Don't know if that would look bad. I just know that it's smoother, and I have anxiety. Another issue with the vyvanse is that my first class is already over by the time my dose kicks in. That shit takes forever to kick, and it's not all that effective. :/

Not asking for advice on how to ask her, but just asking if it sounds like an okay plan or if it would make me look bad. My appointment isn't for another 12 days anyway lol.

Positive advice appreciated. :)

edit: and to answer your Mass, I never got into WoW, but I used to play GW1/2 for a bit. Mastered the fuck out of 1, but didn't do much in 2.
 
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