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all my symptoms have gotten worse since I got out of the hospital, this is no longer just amphetamine OD, this is serious, it should have been out of my system by now but everything gets worse by the minute, should have let them run their damn tests at the hospital after all, would have saved me another trip and feeling even more dumb

legs don't always respond when I try to move anymore and I am terrified by now because this is unknown to me, it cant possible be the drgu at this point so

fever spiked again, burning up at almost 40c, this happened in minutes, I hope they reach me soon

something else must have been wrong from the beginning, and it was probalby not cotton fever as i thought

i'm always arrogant and think I know it all, appearently I do not, since this feeling is something i've never experienced before

wrong wrong wrong, not so confident i'll be ok this time, not so much fun anymore
 
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Toz said:
all my symptoms have gotten worse since I got out of the hospital, this is no longer just amphetamine OD, this is serious, it should have been out of my system by now but everything gets worse by the minute, should have let them run their damn tests at the hospital after all, would have saved me another trip and feeling even more dumb

legs don't always respond when I try to move anymore and I am terrified by now because this is unknown to me, it cant possible be the drgu at this point so

fever spiked again, burning up at almost 40c, this happened in minutes, I hope they reach me soon
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Do you have extreme tingling sensations throughout your body ? Is it hard to stand and is your speech slurred ?
 
YES on all points I find it hard to find words, not tingling, I would call it burning with severity, I thought it was my nerve pain but it's well past the point of that, it is unreal

left arm searing pain

vision blurry/double hard to see

trouble moving, feel shortness of breath buy tgjnk it is panic

clonazepam does nothing to relieve neither midazolam, will not take more meds for unknown ailments
 
hatrix said:
How the fuck is it Sunday where you are. That's impossible. Pretty sure it's Saturday where you are, not Sunday, as it's Friday where I am (although it's 10PM now). No where in the world is two days ahead....
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holy shit, you're right lol. oh well. io just love the sentiment of spending sunday all drugged up, nodding in and out, smoking weed while chilling out to some movies or a decent TV series. so of course i spent the day nodding in n out of consciousness, smoking a bong here and there in between waking and nodding back to sleep.

might have to jump in the shower again to wake up properly and freshen up again!

how was everyone's day/night?
 
Man wish I had a opiate prescription....

Anyways I'm off to work :( Won't be off of work until probably midnight/1 AM. Shitty. Have a good day doing whatever guys.
 
hatrix said:
Man wish I had a opiate prescription....

Anyways I'm off to work :( Won't be off of work until probably midnight/1 AM. Shitty. Have a good day doing whatever guys.
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no you don't. it consumes and eats your life. i wish i'd never taken opiates to begin with, but its far too late for that now.

eh, in other synthetix madness news, i realiased i hadnt had a bowel movement in a week. so i pumped myself full of laxatives and didn't take any oxy today until an hour ago. mother of shits. i'm pretty sure i lost a few kilos from all the crap that came out of my anus. i've never seen so much, and actually, i think I also had fecal impaction to make things worse, as when i first tried to go there was just a huge solid shit that wouldn't come out, and i didn't want to rip my asshole open. I had to plug two micro enemas up my asshole along with a shitload of lactulose and magnesium sulphate. boy did it drain all of it out of me though, and boy do i feel better.
 
Damn I feel amazing. Valium buprenorphine,marijuana hydroxyzine and 130.mg dxm

Ifeel Amazing. Anyone want to get on aim?
 
Go with valium. It will combine perfectly with opiates. It has awesome sedative and muscle relaxant properties wand many other metabolites that activate other bzd receptors such as temazepam which makes it awesome. Kicks in quickly.

IMO/IME is as euphoric as temazepam, and I like diazepam better than temazepam for recreation. The only recreational benzo IME /IME are diazepam and temazepam

You better not ditch for wanking again
 
i know valium goes well with it lol.. it's my favourite benzo to combine oxy with by far. apart from flunitrazepam of course but thats near impossible to get, or bromazepam.

i don't really like tempazepam. it's overhyped, over rated rubbish. it's good to help you sleep for like 3-4 days then it becomes ineffective even at super high doses. stupid rubbish.

lmao i wasn't wanking my internet cocked up !
 
I'm back and I know what fucked up yesterday. It's my usual luck. Appearently I was positive for both opiates and amphetamine? Though I had taken no opiates, or so I would believe. When I first took the speed I was in minor withdrawal from using ketobemidone. Well, I thought I had spilled some of my solution on my desk, so I scraped it up and put it in the spoon. This was not amphetamine, however it turned out to be fucking ketobemidone, I thought that shot felt unusually warm. So, as the hours passed, the ketobemidone and the amphetamine both sent me into the worst hell I've experienced in a long time, couple this with my usual sometimes intolerable nerve pain and you got a real keeper. Well this, and high blood pressure / resting pulse of 154.

So now I'm back to day 1 of withdrawal again, going through it for the 3rd time in what, 2 months? I don't accept this any longer, no more withdrawal, it can all go to fucking hell. I think it's time not to choose life, I'm sick of it.

No more, I've had enough. Time to fuck all this, 6 months I was sober and what did it get me? Nothing, just more pain. I'd rather chase heroin all day than lay in bed only thinking about how much pain I am in and how much I want the day to end and the next day not to exist.

Murphys law, never forget, ever. Everything goes to hell, always. Once I got struck by lightning even. God is fucking with me. So fuck him and fuck life.

Now it's time to get high and forget about all this bullshit.

@above temazepam feels like sugar too me

Let's start with flunitrazepam, clonazepam, a botte of vodka and then move on to the speed and opiates. Today, I simple don't care, I'm never gonna live a sober normal life, I don't know what I have been thinking this last year, once a junkie always a junkie. No reason to fight the invetibale anymore.
 
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i know valium goes well with it lol.. it's my favourite benzo to combine oxy with by far. apart from flunitrazepam of course but thats near impossible to get, or bromazepam.

i don't really like tempazepam. it's overhyped, over rated rubbish. it's good to help you sleep for like 3-4 days then it becomes ineffective even at super high doses. stupid rubbish.

lmao i wasn't wanking my internet cocked up !
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Flunitrazepam is easier to get than you think.. ;)
 
Eveyone sells fulitrazepam on the streets here. Every benzo is sold on the streets, though only morons buy them there.
 
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