Sorry for long post but if you're interested, read on
Diphenhydramine:
I took 750mgs on the 2nd day of sleep deprivation..
My girlfriend was cuddled up with some other guy in the ned next to me, while she decided to dump me and be nasty about it at the same time.. i then notice my closest mates are in the room with us all calling me horrible and disgusting. I lost my girlfriend and friends that night. I was sitting at the foot of the bed crying untill my girlfriend told me to fuck off out of her house and stop being pathetic. I walked home at half 3 am (i took it at 5pm the day before).. i was close to hanging myself. Luckily it started to wear off on the walk back to my parents but i could still not decide wether or not it was real untill i spoke to my girlfriend the next day at 1pm. To my :D it was all in my head..
I feel i learnt something and carrry it with me still today from that ^
On Mushrooms:
At a house with around 10+ mates. Everyone started doin mushrooms. I hadn't slept the night before as i had been doing amphetamine. Eat just under 3g's of potent shrooms and smoke a joint. As i was coming up i was having a game of chess with a friend of mine.. i suddenly peaked hard. I went to move a piece and simply moved it 1 square across cos everythin was goin mad. I started gettin really hot (i thought this was in my head) but when i looked up my friends looked at me like /wtf/ and asked if i was ok cos i was really red. I sat there and pulled myself together. Then i get a txt from a guy i know saying that he's being attacked in wellington. At the time i was in wallington so jumped up ready to go help out untill someone pointed out the fact he didn't say he was in wallington. After a friend called him it turns out he started on someone and was now scared so i just thought "nob" and sat back down. (That guy got pretty bad amphetamine psychosis a few weeks earlier which took him a good couple of months to recover from).
Everything was ok at this point but i kept noticing a friend of mine (qwerty) was looking increasingly more scared. I couldnt tell if it was my hallucinations cos at this point my closest friends were lookin like aliens to me. After a while qwerty got up and sat outside in the hall at the bottom of the stairs so i come out and sat with her to see if she was ok. She was trying to put ear phones in to listen to music but was only tangling up the wires more and more. She then looked at me and struggled to say: I can't see (she was trippin so incredibly hard that she couldnt really see past the visuals). I tried comforting her then she wanted to go up to her room to calm down. We go up to her room and she tells me to put on some music.. but she doesnt know what. I then look at her and she looks like she's in more of a panicked state than i have ever seen anyone.. bright red, eyes wide open, deep breathing and rockin around. I hug her to try and comfort her and she starts rubbin me, she started rubbin my ass so i pulled away..
Just realised im talk about someone elses trip (relates to mine but).. back to mine..
Anyway it ended up with her runnin out of the house (now completely lost it) and me and a friend followed to try and get her back in. I had no shoes on and it was kinda wet. She then started trying to jump through solid objects, screaming, not taking in anythin me or my mate said to her. We couldn't get near her without her freakin out. My mate said it would be best to just hang back and make sure she dnt jump in front of any cars or anything.. so she runs off down the road and starts strippin. All the way.. completely naked. I try to cover her up but she looks at me as if shes gonna hit me and pushes me away. I try again a couple more times and the same thing happens. There have been many people by this point driving past who have seen 2 guys chasing a naked girl down the street screamin.. so police are on their way. My friend decides to call the ambulance to get her to a hospital for some trip killin drugs.
The ambulance and police turn up at the same time and because of her violent state the police take over and restrain her (about 15 police) (Oh and she punched 1 of em

) The police get her in the back of the van to then start threatenin me and my mate with "wastin police time".. we were like ye alright mate lets get to the hospital then. The ambulance driver kindly let me and my friend ride there with them. Once im in the ambulance i realised i not only had my drugs on me, but hers to (i had taken them off her earlier). So i have a bag of cannabis. 2 bags of amphetamine and a bag of shrooms.. i stay cool and we arrive at the hospital waitin room. I say to my mate im gonna go stash the chemicals and he says theres no point, if they havnt searched us already they're not going to..
So we're waiting in the hospital for about 15 mins when 3 police walk in.. come up to us and search us. Shittin myself but played it cool. Got away with it.. Phew! For the rest of the time in hospital i was in a state of semi panick (i don't freak out.. im always able to stay relatively calm). A friend asks if we can go see qwerty because she may respond to familiar faces. She says no but then comes back a couple of minutes later to allow us. We go into a room where there are about 6 police all holding her down to a bed while shes screaming up at a light.. every now and again looking as though shes in a comfortable hypnotic state of bliss.
A bit later on i had to talk to her parents who were trying to get us to leave the hospital, but we refused because our friend wanted her parents to go.. not us. (Shes an adult). In the end security come throw us out and i give him my thoughts on the matter ("you should be throwing them out not us, shes an adult, she can make her own decisions"..) so me and friend get a cab back to the house.
The whole cab journey i was convinced that the driver was police who was gonna bust the house and all my friends as soon as we got there.. He wasn't..
Once back i felt ok.. calm.. cool.
A month later i realised that the past 4 weeks i was a different person. I don't wanna get into how.. but i wasn't me for a month after that experience, but it only hit me that i had been different once i started returning to normal.
Cannabis:
For me the only time cannabis has caused something other than gettin high, anxiety and good ol paranoia is when i smoked 1.2g's of high quality bud in 20 minutes. At first i thought i was gonna whitey, felt hot, weak, and had the 'yellow vision' (dno if others get that) but I've learnt how to manage that situation and just chilled out. I went inside and was sitting with all of my good friends + a few more.. around 8 in total.. no1 i was uncomfortable being with. Then i realised i was being really anti-social, as in not talking atall (quite normal) but then i got caught in this strange thought pattern. I really wanted to join in conversation, but I couldn't think of anything to add to the one that was currently going.. so i thought i'd start one with someone who wasn't involved in that convo, but when i looked each of my friends, all that was going through my head was what i looked at.. like i would look at my friend Gary and my thoughts would be: 'Gary, what do i know about Gary, what can i say to Gary..' and i couldn't remember anything about him. Then i would look away all frustrated then would just think 'coke can' 'ash tray' or whatever i looked at. I then realise i didn't know myself, or anyone around me.. but at the same time i knew i knew them..
My friend then looked at me, realised i wasn't right and asked if i wanted to sit outside.. I replied.. not outside.. and got up and went into the conservatry to lay down. He came out with me and i remember sayin: I.. feel.. really.. not.. right.. like 1 word at a time was all my brain was capable of doing. I thought at that point who i am had been destroyed, i had pushed myself too far and i wasn't comin back. My friend then said: you know its only the pot you'll be normal again soon.. to which i said: nah.. different.. i.. don't know.. myself.. At this point i realised it was takin me so long to get my words out because my brain would VERY quickly run through every possible word (for example: ye, yes, ya, yep" and i didn't know which 1 was me. When forming sentences your personality obviously brings up the words you would use, and the way in which it is said.. but i had nothin. To try and explain better.. for the sentence: I don't feel good, my brain would think of every way of saying it, but not fully.. like it would come up with: not good, bad, feel, not good, not right, don't.. at the time i came out with "I feel really not right".. I would normally say: "I don't feel right".. Get it?
Anyway very shortly after, much thanks to my friend, i started to speak how i normally would, or atleast i felt comfortable with it. I went back in and sat there the rest of the night extremely stoned (still anti social, but thats standard)
The next couple of days were hell. I was constantly telling myself I'm not right. I can't communicate with my friends, let alone other people, like i used to. I was psychologically beating myself down into a kind of state of depression because i believed i wasn't comin back. Someone would say somethin.. then I'd think 'right, what can u reply to that.. say somethin' but i couldn't. Nothing i thought of felt like it was me. I also noticed i had an uncontrollable want for more bud.. like i was proper addicted to it or somethin.. I laid off the bud, and i slowly returned in a few days..
LSD:
Took 3 tabs and got more tripping than i had previously been. I went to a "party" that turned out to be a socially challeneged girls version of a party while her dad was still in. The whole night i sat there not feeling too bad but really antisocial and wanting to feel better. It gets to home time and im walkin home with a boy i grew up with and my girlfriend of the time. The whole way i was still not talkin much and the guy i grew up with was havin a little debate type argument thing with my girlfriend (was all good).. This guy used to abuse pills more than anyone i've ever known (he went on holiday and dropped 55 pills over 24 hours and spent a week retarded.. he used to go out and pop em like sweets to the point he was sittin there in his own world talkin to himself every friday and saturday for years).. At the end of my journey i remember him saying something like: you shouldnt do them too much cos the bad shit starts kickin in, like depression and stuff.. I then went home where my gf quickly fell asleep.. I tried.. In my head i was going over me and everyone i care about and coming up with reasons as to why they're crazy and need help, then it would come back to me and i would realise that i was crazy and needed help.. this went on for a couple of hours untill i went downstairs and calmed myself down with Ice Age
Next time i heard anything about that friend of mine was when i was again on LSD and found out he was in a car accident and was in a coma with definate brain damage. The decision to turn off the life support was made a week later due to the extent of the brain damage.
With LSD I've found being by youself (particularly if everyone is asleep, or u are trying to sleep and cant) can make LSD horrible.
Salvia:
Dno what happened but when i come back to the real world i had a sense of impending doom and like i was about to go into a traumatic 24 hours LSA trip (had eaten some seeds that luckily didnt work)..
I'm tired *yawn*.. will post my very mild amphetamine psychosis experience up later if anyone of u requests it
