johntheman
Bluelighter
- Joined
- May 4, 2009
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- 58
So I dosed on DOC and 25c last night, the visuals didn't get really intense till I had 2 nice hits of n20. It's been almost 12 hours since and still feeling the effects, been completely depressed about making choices in life, and OCD paranoia thoughts mixed with synchronicity, OR is it paranoia? I'm paranoid about synchronicity, time itself. Scared of whats to come and holding on the past. I've become reclusive as I'm self conscious everywhere I go. The xanax only sedates my vision it seems to still nag at me on high doses. I need to come to terms with myself, be able to build my confidence up again, come out of being a recluse tripping in an appartment on my offdays. I have loads of cheap maoi syrian rue and b caapi from one of my favorites. Anyone recommend a syrian rue/caapi ratio? Also it is better to drink the syrian about 20 minutes before caapi correct? Thanks
