Dunno, since you've told your doc about your MD use, that's likely why he won't give you benzos. Doctors are compelled to "first do no harm" (hippocratic oath), which means not prescribing substances with abuse/addiction potential to recreational drug users. To be honest, he's probably looking out for your best interests - benzo addiction is no fun. They're the kind of thing you need to exercise a lot of self-control with, IMO.