Are you satisfied with your drug use?

[Thorns Have Roses]

Heck no, I've blown through $200 of H in the last week and a half, I'm unemployed and living off a fixed amount of money for the next few months, for food/gas/drugs. I need to stop before I'm eating just bread and water and having to walk everywhere.

 

[gaktattack]

Being an open minded intellectual in the bible belt makes finding good women exceedingly difficult. I used heroin to cover my lack of meaningful relationships, and to escape my despair from work. Problems remained long after the high, and instead of doing something constructive I settled for lil self destruction. Also I have mild social anxiety and have always compensated with drugs and alcohol. My drug use as of late has been always alone, mostly because there arent any cool people that would be willing to hangout while Im shooting dope. I wont scrape the bottom of the barrel just to not be alone.

My worst aside from blowing 16k in student loans from trying to drink myself to death was when my dealer asked if I could spot him to buy a QP so he could get his game going. I said sure and he then said he couldnt find a QP of doobie in chicago, he gave me 4.4 grams of smack instead for my 1k which was supposed to be an investment paid back. That dented me financially that month, Plus I did dope for 10 days straight and got sick as shit and missed alot of work and to top it off had to dig a fucking impaction out of my ass while sick... that just added insult to injury and was very dehumanizing.

 

[wolfwhistle]

im satisfied in the sense that the negatives dont outweigh the positive(s) to the point where i wish i could stop. im content with my drug use.

the one thing that was kind of unsettling was realizing how much muscle mass i was losing. going from binge drinking to doing hard drugs(both heavily, but at different time periods and apart) had my weight fluctuating like crazy.

 

[Opaner]

When I first started using opiates no one ever told me about "withdraw". And the fact that doing painkillers is not the cheapest thing you could get into. I do have my regrets about ever starting them, not so much that if I could go back in time that I would have said no. They have gotten me through the death of my father, and coping with my moms medical conditions. I know that using drugs to cover up stress and anger isn't the smartest thing to do. But it worked and I'm still sane to this day because of them.

If I could tell someone who is just starting to do painkillers, I would definitely warn them about the effects of them. And teach them everything I know about snorting painkillers. I would never wish withdraw on anyone and would make sure that they were well educated.