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Any long time opiate users ?

So you are saying you can use dope and not get sick for 16 hours ? hard to believe..................since most people do a shot or a bag and in a couple hours they need another. they may not get full blown withdrawals for a few more hours ,but i think once u have a habit dope is a pretty short acting drug, Why is it though the more you do at one time longer you seem to stay high , plus i think that shooters dont stay high as long as sniffers do , so they may get that rush but after that their high fades quicker i think........
 
nope, I'd take half my morphine first thing in the AM, then the rest 10-12hrs later usually before I went to bed. And be good until the same AM time next day. Granted, I'd feel like twice hammered shit, because I wouldn't wake up until I was well and truly sick.....
I also had a monstrous tolerance, and from the very start. Yet junk always effected me differently... it wasn't that It didn't work as well, only that it worked for longer and I'd be tweaked instead of nodding, unlike my buddies who tried keeping up.
 
10-12 hours ? Wow......................You guys must bet getting some extended release stuff lol
 
I can semi-function, while a lot, a lot of time goes to getting the money needed I can still maintain my hygiene, buy food, go to work etc.

I guess it is a question of money, sure a lot can't take care of themselves even if they have all the money in the world.
 
I've been using opiates for two years now. I function quite well and no one even knows I use them. This is also not me in denial because I'm sure if my mother knew she would of kicked my ass into a coma by now.....

I am a pretty happy person except for a few times out of the year. Also all my unhappiness does not come from my drug use but rather my life situations.
 
I used opiates for 4 years, 2 years of straight heroin abuse before I went to prison. Dextoed cold turkey and got out on parole several months later. I would suggest you start lifting or exercizing, did wonders for me when I was on parole.

To answer your question, yes it does get better, it just takes time. Working out is a great pasttime for addicts, it makes you feel good
 
Not sure where to post today-i am depressed n fuzzy. Off opy for 17 days but did the last of my subs yd morning. Should have arranged for more n now I am in different state so can't get more til tomorrow. I was hoping this would be it n I wouldn't miss sub-not so. Good thing is being so far from home probably can't score opy either if I tried. I have bennys n guess mb ill just take a few n sleep all day. Problem there is I have so many of them I don't want to switch addictions. Fu u ck today sucks.
 
Define happiness. Who is really happy? I started sniffing heroin when I was 16, and was shooting up by the time I was 21. My parents had no idea what was going on because I was a straight A student. It caught up to me though, I dropped out of college and got fired. I OD'ed on the Garden State Parkway on a speedball when I was 22. My dad is a cop and he had to pick me up at the hospital. I did 8 years in the military after that. Never went through the "kick." No one believes that part. The first 2 years I would still come back to NJ on leave every 6 months and shoot up, that was my "reward" for being clean the rest of the time. I'm home again now, 10 years later. I'm too scared to go back to Irvington and get my own dope like I used to, but I buy needles online and still bang coke and roxies and anything else that's safe to shoot. I'm going to college now at a university. Still getting straight A's. I have no idea why I keep doing this shit. Every house I go into, as soon as I go into someone's bathroom I check the cabinets for painkillers. It's just some part of me that won't go away. I'm not sure that I want it to...
 
jake99 said:
yep of course its not a real happiness..................i just wonder if some people are doomed to never get back to a place where they can be happy clean .................
seems that way after the damage of addiction feels like it is still there when you are clean (felonies on record, family never trusting you , not finding good job , friends , etc............)
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Thats exactly what i fear, and it may already be too late for me.
 
yeah im to point where suboxone and methadone aint even seeming to help...............thats bad because they used to make me be like "ok i can get by without dope"
may need a detox. uhhhhhhhhh
 
giveitupnj: i live my life the same way you did. I've been injecting heroin for 11 years. Every once in a while, I travel to do some quick bucks by modeling. I can stay straight up to 1 month in those conditions, until I find a dealer in the city i'm in. My whole life turns around drugs. I put myself in horrible conditions by traveling and working under withdrawal symptoms.
I think there is no such things as talent. Being straight A student is not a gift but a motivation we have to do things right. In my case, this motivation is a poison.
 
I don't know how I've made it this long. I don't know anyone else like me. That's another thing that makes this experience so lonely. Everyone else thinks I've completely quit. I'll never be as bad as I was, but I know I'm not done. It's not over.
 
It is so sad and so true. It's the only love that will never leave you.

The longest stretch I ever had clean, I read this article online. You know, because I was still thinking about it everyday. It was called "I Miss You, Heroin." That girl seemed like the only person in the world I could relate to. Anyway, you should search it. Great read.
 
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You are wrong on this one. She lets you down all the time. But you will never let her down if you don't do that 6 months program. I don't believe in the steps, because I'm not into religions. WHat's left? Ibogaine? errrrr
I'm just not ready to stop or i don't want to. That's why I surf from blog to blogs, from youtube to movies, from books to website, all about drugs. Cause i am craving for it, as i am presently working in an aera withuout the H. I love that drug thats why i love any informations or news about it. I'll take everything. You need to watch : Quiconque meurt, meurt a douleur (english version: Whoever Dies, Dies in Pain (1998)), a movie shot as a documentary because the junkies took the journalist that wanted to break in as hostage.
 
As life imitates art, I ended up with a William S. Burroughs size habit after just three years.... and part of the scary part is I know I could've very easily kept it up for as long as mortally possible.
A 20yr habit will pass in a blink of an eye.... junk does a nifty trick of drawing subjective time to zero.
Unfortunately, many junkies have an abbreviated lifespan.... so its even more of a tragedy that such time is measured by the hourglass of junk.
 
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