Bojangles69
Bluelighter
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- May 20, 2009
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Jake great conversation on the phone today. Although we are both 2 very fucked up individuals, and didn't solve much of anything, I did notice that for the rest of the day I was just chilled out a lot more. We really share so many similarities that anytime I talk to you I just feel a lot less like a drug addict and a lot more like a human being.
It really makes me want to do everything in my power to get us both out of this shithole of a life.
And the coolest part is I never once looked at you like a weak person, or a drug addict, or an excon, I see you as a person who just happened to go through some unfortunate shit in life and got stuck in a bad position. There are sober "never touched a drug in my life" people in this world, there are drug addicts, recovering drug addicts with 20+ years clean, and then there are people in life who just understand. You are one of those people.
And when I really think about which group of people would be the best to be around, for my own survival, its always the latter, the ones who just understand. Like I said on the phone I'm not sure what either one of us is in store for for this upcoming summer, but if we somehow managed to both get our asses into rehab I would absolutely, undoubtebly be right there with you. Sometimes we're going through our own personal issues and don't talk for a while, sometimes we have gotten into little quarrels before, but you have never been anything less than a solid fucking friend. You never judge, you never act like you know whats best for other peoples lives (knowitalls), you're humble, you have tons of empathy for those who suffer, you know how to give solid advice and also know when its time to listen, you always keep it real, and as confused as you sometimes may feel, you prob know more about yourself than 90% of the people that exist in this world.
So if having a drug addiction is the worst thing you can possibly blame yourself for in this lifetime, in the large scope of things it really says NOTHING about who you actually are as a person. You're a good fucking guy, and don't ever forget that.
It really makes me want to do everything in my power to get us both out of this shithole of a life.
And the coolest part is I never once looked at you like a weak person, or a drug addict, or an excon, I see you as a person who just happened to go through some unfortunate shit in life and got stuck in a bad position. There are sober "never touched a drug in my life" people in this world, there are drug addicts, recovering drug addicts with 20+ years clean, and then there are people in life who just understand. You are one of those people.
And when I really think about which group of people would be the best to be around, for my own survival, its always the latter, the ones who just understand. Like I said on the phone I'm not sure what either one of us is in store for for this upcoming summer, but if we somehow managed to both get our asses into rehab I would absolutely, undoubtebly be right there with you. Sometimes we're going through our own personal issues and don't talk for a while, sometimes we have gotten into little quarrels before, but you have never been anything less than a solid fucking friend. You never judge, you never act like you know whats best for other peoples lives (knowitalls), you're humble, you have tons of empathy for those who suffer, you know how to give solid advice and also know when its time to listen, you always keep it real, and as confused as you sometimes may feel, you prob know more about yourself than 90% of the people that exist in this world.
So if having a drug addiction is the worst thing you can possibly blame yourself for in this lifetime, in the large scope of things it really says NOTHING about who you actually are as a person. You're a good fucking guy, and don't ever forget that.
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