s2k1099
Bluelighter
I've been prescribed Adderall IR 30mg since 2010. Since then i've noticed a change in the effects, medicinal and recreational alike. In 2011 I was taking these pills recklessly and in very large doses with no regard for restraint. usually 60-80mg every dose and re-dosing around 2 hours later
Back then I remember the tasks I'd preform whilst under the amphetamine effects were more meaningful, for example i would write poetry, i got into website designing, I started selling on ebay, and i created a photography website and learned the ins and outs of lightroom CS5 and photoshop and actually became reasonably talented with design techniques. One of the major differences from then and now is back in 2011 i would stay awake for days and days on end and when i did decide to crash i would always drink as the comedown, i would abstain from eating anything for sometimes 3 to 4 days, eating only when i was about to crash then repeating the same habit when i awoke 12-18 hours later.
Now I take 30mg every dose and make sure I'm always 4 hours apart from doses, i eat somewhat regularly and i typically don't binge for more than 48 hours without sleep. So I'm seemingly taking care of my body better than i did in the past but irregardless of this I still can't seem to ever get a 'project' going or sit down and write some amazing poetic shit or find my old streak of amphetamine induced genius that i used to have back in 2011.
Ideas?
Back then I remember the tasks I'd preform whilst under the amphetamine effects were more meaningful, for example i would write poetry, i got into website designing, I started selling on ebay, and i created a photography website and learned the ins and outs of lightroom CS5 and photoshop and actually became reasonably talented with design techniques. One of the major differences from then and now is back in 2011 i would stay awake for days and days on end and when i did decide to crash i would always drink as the comedown, i would abstain from eating anything for sometimes 3 to 4 days, eating only when i was about to crash then repeating the same habit when i awoke 12-18 hours later.
Now I take 30mg every dose and make sure I'm always 4 hours apart from doses, i eat somewhat regularly and i typically don't binge for more than 48 hours without sleep. So I'm seemingly taking care of my body better than i did in the past but irregardless of this I still can't seem to ever get a 'project' going or sit down and write some amazing poetic shit or find my old streak of amphetamine induced genius that i used to have back in 2011.
Ideas?
