Alright. Let's be friends (again)!
I'm not sure what you're saying i.e. you tapered down in 10mg increments or you tapered down until you were only on 10mg?
If you tapered down in 10mg increments I don't see how that could be a nice experience and if this be the case then maybe you were being a bit too ambitious and putting yourself through unnecessary torture. You're going to have to go slower than that in my opinion. No need to be a hero or impatient. It's not a race or a competition.
If you got down to 10mg: well done to you in that case. And in which case: you did it once and you can do it again. And you'll have all the support you need from friends right here. That should be obvious by now.
I say again: pick a dose, any dose, and stay on that every day until not this coming Monday but the following Monday (you've left it too late now for this week in my opinion and need to pick a dosage and stabilize on it first). Then try going down in 1 mg increments. If that's too much: then try going down in 0.5mg increments. We'll all be here to hold you accountable and will be rooting for you I assure you.
There's no shortcut here my friend. I know these little wonders only too well.
Nobody is going to laugh at you or tease you.
And if you want to openly discuss your situation and get it off of your chest: we're all listening. Maybe a good idea as I'm sure it'll help. But it's personal and up to you.
Doesn't matter how many cadavers I may or may not have seen. People handle things differently.
I cannot even say well it must be terrible for you and I'm sorry to hear about your situation or that I sympathize because that would be disingenuous of me on many levels. Not least of which is that I'm not a care giver nor medical professional and not in your situation.
But I am, we are all, here to help and provide harm reduction advice and listen and to try and understand. Believe it or not. It's a true story!
I'm also going to go out on a limb here and apologize for coming down so hard on you. I'm sure there's a bit of a language barrier and not to mention cultural differences. So while you may have shit all over some people: could be that it was meant as a joke (and given all the fucking and blinding that goes on around here it's understandable). So no harm done. Not on, nor from, my side anyway.