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Why do I feel like the agony aunt in a room full of people who are trying to get straight? Probably the worst possible place to play that "part"..

Suffering is a part of life. A BIG part. It's part of what makes us human, being blessed (or often cursed) with a wide range of conscious responses to our own painful situations.

Pretending that everything is great only lasts for so long, as I know for myself after enduring multiple relapses while trying to maintain the same mindset.

We have to acknowledge that there is pain and find multi-faceted ways of dealing. One approach is not enough. Posters who seem to have found their way to sobriety by developing their interests is one really good tack, and an undeniably awesome one. But there are more to be exploited for others who aren't so sure of their own abilities and competence.

I look forward to any and all replies.
 
Had to drink tonite ... finally got an overdue rejection from one job. Thought I was out of prospects, but got an invitation to begin the testing process for another ... not really what I want to do, but my only shot at this point.
It'll definately require a drug test ... all I want to do right now is go back to using .. but maybe if I drink all the time I can stay off the illicits 8(
 
you know, even when i think i cant possibly get liqour (im totally broke. no money at all till friday) life just kinda throws something my way to enable me to drink. i was almost enjoying being 90% sober this week, then, somehow i mentioned to my boss that i wasnt drinking cuz i didnt have any money.
he immediately pours me a beer at the bar and says its free...then another one...THEN hands me $10 and tells me to go buy booze.
it was pretty cool..but still...i didnt miss the hangover the liqour caused.
 
clean and sober another day... If I can do it, anyone can. Probably helps that my friend's val prescription was cancelled. :p %)
 
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you know, even when i think i cant possibly get liqour (im totally broke. no money at all till friday) life just kinda throws something my way to enable me to drink. i was almost enjoying being 90% sober this week, then, somehow i mentioned to my boss that i wasnt drinking cuz i didnt have any money.
he immediately pours me a beer at the bar and says its free...then another one...THEN hands me $10 and tells me to go buy booze.
it was pretty cool..but still...i didnt miss the hangover the liqour caused.
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damn... fate eh sometimes...
 
Pretending that everything is great only lasts for so long, as I know for myself after enduring multiple relapses while trying to maintain the same mindset.
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Of course it doesn't always work. I just find that always trying makes it better, never worse. It's definitely hard to do during times of depression or anxiety, but it can always help to some extent. It's better than wallowing in anger/pain.

:)
 
Tonight am drinking... like a gentleman, with a good Okay cheese and a good aperitive wine. If I was an alcoholic, it would always be my ritual. It's so cool.
 
f**k, I'm so sick of not using illicits ... alcohol is such a horrid substitute.

edit: and what's worse, such a cheap substitute.
Why go out anywhere or try to score on the street when I can get drunk + full for $3, thanks to the local Indian minimart?
 
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f**k, I'm so sick of not using illicits ... alcohol is such a horrid substitute.
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fuck oath. quoted for truth. anxiety for me is so out of control that i've been having 2 or 3 panic attacks/day... and i REFUSE to go back on benzos, the only thing to do is to drink, and my tolerance is so high for both drugs... ugh, i hate it when life spirals out of control like this. i need to be back on my psych med regimen, sucks.
 
i am not at all nieve to drugs, and addiction.

to day though at work though this guy came in who looked totally 'clean' in his mid 50's id guess. he came in the store and said he is soaking wet. i looked him up and down and he was dry, he grabbed 4 8.1% 24 ounces beers and rushed to the counter. he looked me in the eyes and said he was also freezing cold, i was hot actually in side, out side it was maybe 55 f. as he said that while were making eye contact i saw that familiar desperation/fear/why? look in his eyes.

i gave him his total as he went for his wallet and noticed his hands and arms shaking, he handed me the money and his hands were shaking SO BAD, they were moving like an 1 1/2'' from left to right. he looked away and up and seemed embarrassed. he muttered some small talk as i got his change and he held out his hand, i told him 10 cents is your change and his hand was shaking so bad it was shocking. i dropped the dime in his hand and looked him in the eyes again, he still had that same desperation in them. i told him with what i hopped to seem as concern/pity/sincerity in mine and told him to go home and get warm and dry, and then bagged his beer. he looked at me like he knew i understood why he was shaking so bad and said in a voice like was about cry "thank you son."

he walked out the wrong door, or the door that was the opposite of the one he came, and was further from his car, and speed the hell out of there.

i get the 'shakes' often but nothing near that, that is when i tapper and stop for a while, to night it has taken me 5 cheap beers to start buzzing. i hope none of you are as bad as that poor soul, and never are.
 
CHRIST! Another morning waking up sober. If at all possible, I'd remain perpetually drunk. I don't even want to be sober. I want to drink and drink and drink until I reach a state of anaesthesia. Either that, or I'm joining the priesthood.
 
"Joining the priest hood "--lollolloool

You're sober not celibate j off you'll rmeber -lol Im soory I cant stop lauginh
 
Kerrigan said:
CHRIST! Another morning waking up sober. If at all possible, I'd remain perpetually drunk. I don't even want to be sober. I want to drink and drink and drink until I reach a state of anaesthesia. Either that, or I'm joining the priesthood.
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hah u sound like me homie

u gotta be easy and just do like 1000mgs of dxm and ul lfeel better i wouldnt reccomened it though

how you doing man you were high i think?
 
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