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alcoholism thread

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Well, I f**ked up royally today [non-drug/alcohol related] .. so I'm gonna have my last two beers, and hopefully be straight from here on out .. can't afford to spend my $$ on drugs when I owe someone else so much now :(

Of course, suffering from so much self-loathing, all I want to do is get obliterated .. but I guess I'll try this as a test to higher responsibilities.
 
are there any other blackout drinkers in here?
fuck, i blacked out last night...woke up, my pants are soaked. i can only assume i was rolling around on the front lawn for some odd reason. i fucking HATE this shit yet i cannot stop :(
 
I actually went to rehab for 10 days for alcohol abuse. I got to the point where I was drinking day and night, and it got pretty bad. I was going through a fifth or more a day. So now I don't drink. I go to AA meetings (all voluntary), which at first I was very hesitant to do. But now I realize it's a great place to get shit off your chest. It's like group therapy. Fuck the fact that it's Christian oriented, I don' care about that. It's still fucking helpful.

And it's nice being sober. My problematic drinking was when I was alone. When i was out with my friends, I was generally ok. 5 drinks or less. But when I would get alone, I would just drink until I couldn't feel feelings anymore. So I still can go out to the bar with my friends, I just order tonic water in a short glass, and no one knows the difference (except those friends who know I don't drink). I still dabble in a couple other substances, but they aren't nearly as problematic as my alcohol problem was.
 
"still dabble in a couple other substances, but they aren't nearly as problematic as my alcohol problem was."

Yep sounds good ,just remember its not just alcohol that can spin you ,its a gene ,a trait, a dopiame transepter (whatever you want to call it)

it latches on to whatever substance your brain likes and craves it ,it tricks you into thinking its OK ,As long as you are aware of such ,never let the guard down


best wishes
 
ugh. its 9am. i can barely stand and im going to the store to buy beer to ween myself off the liqour binge and stop the shakes.:\
i wouldnt wish this shit on anyone.
 
ween off --I can only remember glimpse of what you speak or feel ,shake ,sick yuck ,it thankfully passes ,If there was only a way to bottle that yucky feeling and use it pre drink ,you know ,you get that "I going to have a drink (ftw)" feeling and poof you take a sub lingual pill that takes you to the hurt part just long enough to make you realize you don't want to go there ,the want a drink passes and your OK till next time --Why if we can help save lives and many other ailment have we not got something to easily heal us from that ,Oh its will power --??
 
^i stopped kidding myself w/the "i'll only have a few" thing a long time ago.
its not so much the shakes or the hangover that bother me...what i really hate is how i manage to blow through $200 between saturday night and tuesday morning. grrr. broke again.
 
GP... damn man you spent 200 on booze!!! in like a 3 day span.. come on man you can snap out of this. the physical addiction is brutal, whats worst i found was how booze specifically feeds on your depression and intensifys it in a way i liked..

how come your drinking so much man?

my OD saved me.. still havent drank in 20 days... just 2 dxms nothing else...

but its been easier since im dead broke and have nothing to pawn lol so id be lying if i said when i get my first pay check my first thoughts would be ecstasy, oxycodone and smirnoff, and lots of all 3.

but hopefully by then i will be in a good mind to deal with shit..
 
I am drinking a lot lately. I think it is merely because I am lonely from my recent break up. I have been finding myself self medicating with alcohol. When will it end? I just want love, but I am trying to be patient, but it still hurts. You know?
 
and stella its in some ways the worst self medication you can give yourself. all its doing is feeding off your negative feelings until you have more and more and more. no access to weed maybe? smoking weed all the time cant be good but drinking the way you are in the situation your in of course can end up badly
 
I'm sure you guys all know this, but using alcohol to mask feelings or treat depression is really a downward spiral. It makes it harder for you to feel good without it. For those of you who are getting the shakes, there is this stuff they gave me in rehab called phenobarb; I didn't really need it much, I didn't really get the shakes too badly, but there were people in there that had the shakes much worse than I, and it worked miracles. For those of you that don't have the shakes, but still have a hard time with drinking, try antabuse. It's a pill you take each day, and if you end up drinking, you puke your guts out.

I know prescriptions aren't cheap, but neither is blowing your entire wad of cash on booze. Also, I know they seem lame, but try some AA meetings. Or if you really don't like the fact that they talk about a "higher power," try some other program of your choosing. There are more than one out there. It really is group therapy. You can talk about shit on your chest, and you can hear the wisdom of people who are happy not drinking. These are just some things that have helped me out a lot. That and antidepressants/psychotherapy.

I'm not trying to preach, I'm just trying to help. If you don't think you need help, please disregard the previous statement.
 
I am not going to drink for a while, and stop this vicious cycle. I am taking your advice. I shouldn't be anyways because of my daughters, :\ but I was just feeling lonely. I have came to far to mess up now though. They are very dependant on me as their mother and even though my drinking hasn't been detected by others yet, it would be later if I continue down this path. I don't want to fail my kids or myself like that. :( Time to grow up, and face my sadness without booze. Wish me luck! :|
 
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