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Go to work n3o, if it isn't too late?

I don't know about everyone else but I feel so guilty when I take a fake sicky that it it's not worth it. Even the worst, most mundane, boring day at work is better than having nothing to do.... and filling that void with a vice like drinking. Speaking of which, I'll be checking back into this thread, maybe next week, when I try to dry out again :)

Best of luck to everyone else abstaining!
 
Yep I'm at work.

I hate taking sick days when they're not necessary too. It's not the time off that I mind though, it's lying to my boss that I mind.

Hey belarki I'll be attempting to dry out next week too, go us! :)
 
so my friend went to the doctor and got some clonazepam 0.25mg (clonopins) to help him deal with the sketch and the withdrawl. I took one as well and I'm feeling pretty content and will be watching tv and reading tonight and have no desire to drink. This may be a placebo effect but I feel pretty good, and am not really thinking about drinking. I know the dangers of benzos and won't be doing this on a regular basis.

Never taking clonopins, or k pins as you guys call them? Only ever taken valium, how much Valium would this be equivalent to, or xanax?
 
Bah.

I did not drink to excess and nothing horrible happened, but I did have a drink :(

I was triggered by a stressful situation. I handled it poorly. I'll have to learn to do better/try a different approach/realize that my support system is behind me in my goal not to be a problem drinker.

I went 14 days in total. I became resentful and stressed. So I drank. I need to develop some new patterns, as 1-2 drinks are still too much for me for the most part.

I'm trying not to be too hard on myself. I did avoid a $2 sangria special where I ate lunch today (after two meetings; nothing productive to do after).

Project Abstinence begins again.
 
I'm not in any way dependent on alcohol, and I apologise for just waltzing in here but I also wanted to thank onyxensentium for a wonderful post. I'm so awed at your ability to pick yourself up and work hard to get out of the horrifying situation you found yourself in.

My only real link to alcoholism is a family member and a close friend of mine. Both who I left behind in Victoria. It's unbelievably hard to deal with people who are so chained to a negative beast like alcohol, especially when you love and care for them and only want the best for them.

I wish all of you the very best in your journeys. Once you have admitted that you have a problem you're already in good stead to beating it. It's wonderful to see BL working the way it should and bringing people together to support each other through the toughest of times. <3
 
thujone said:
i think nostalgically of my drives to the city on cold winter nights to take a class. i'd keep a mickey of gin in the glove box and when i got back to the car after class the first thing i'd do is take 4-5 big rips. hey, it worked quicker than waiting for the heating to come on!

it would take me about 40-50 min to drive home from the city through all the interconnected towns in between, so there was nothing more relaxing than listening to some great tunes in the serenity of the car, warm and buzzed off some good bombay sapphire.

sometimes, i'd add to my pleasure by stopping mid-way at my favorite burger joint and ffffffffuck me... does that juicy angus beef ever taste GOOD after some gin. sometimes i'd have the poutine instead. i'd sit in the quiet corner booth by the windows, turn off my cell and watch the snow fall silently in the dark outside. at times like that, i truly felt like my brain had slowed to a stop and i was experiencing that moment of beautiful fucking enlightenment some might get by meditating.

nobody ever knew about my routine, and i think back fondly on it now.
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Haha, nice.

I think I'd be worried about eating, would slow my buzz down when I finally got home and polished off the rest of the bottle.

As for my drinking, well I'm down to about three nights a week. Usually two days on the weekend and one during the week. Since it's the only substance I abuse, I'm pretty much OK with that.
 
I should probably slow down my drinking. I wake up and drink first thing every day. I drink before and after work. I drink until I go to sleep, then I wake up and start it all over again.

I am going to Hawaii for 9 days with my dad starting on Saturday, so I won't be able to drink like that in his presence. Hopefully I will clean up a little bit while I am there. It is getting out of hand, and all of my friends are worried about me.

but I REALLY like to drink. I am sure my liver probably hates me.
 
myles p said:
so my friend went to the doctor and got some clonazepam 0.25mg (clonopins) to help him deal with the sketch and the withdrawl. I took one as well and I'm feeling pretty content and will be watching tv and reading tonight and have no desire to drink. This may be a placebo effect but I feel pretty good, and am not really thinking about drinking. I know the dangers of benzos and won't be doing this on a regular basis.

Never taking clonopins, or k pins as you guys call them? Only ever taken valium, how much Valium would this be equivalent to, or xanax?
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Klonopin makes me feel good, althoug 0.25 is a very small dose. I am not sure about the equivalence for other benzos.

I think you posted in the wrong thread though. Although your post is loosely related to drinking and alcohol, you might get more responses in a forum that more closely deals with benzos.
 
Ive been totally sober with not so much as one beer i n 18 days now but i couldnt resist getting a 6 pack of heineken on the way home today. It just looked so yummy and i wsas in the mood for having a beer or 2 up until now i didnt feel like it at all except the first few days after i gave up drinking yet again.

But since i feel like it i will have a beer or 2. Since im on morphine i don't wanna get drunk i just want a beer or 2 for the taste.
 
CHiLD-0F-THE-BEAT said:
I'm not in any way dependent on alcohol, and I apologise for just waltzing in here but I also wanted to thank onyxensentium for a wonderful post. I'm so awed at your ability to pick yourself up and work hard to get out of the horrifying situation you found yourself in.

My only real link to alcoholism is a family member and a close friend of mine. Both who I left behind in Victoria. It's unbelievably hard to deal with people who are so chained to a negative beast like alcohol, especially when you love and care for them and only want the best for them.

I wish all of you the very best in your journeys. Once you have admitted that you have a problem you're already in good stead to beating it. It's wonderful to see BL working the way it should and bringing people together to support each other through the toughest of times. <3
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Really nice post COTB <3
I'm sorry you had to see two loved ones submit to alcohol. You're right, it's a beast :(

Chaos23 said:
I should probably slow down my drinking. I wake up and drink first thing every day. I drink before and after work. I drink until I go to sleep, then I wake up and start it all over again.

I am going to Hawaii for 9 days with my dad starting on Saturday, so I won't be able to drink like that in his presence. Hopefully I will clean up a little bit while I am there. It is getting out of hand, and all of my friends are worried about me.

but I REALLY like to drink. I am sure my liver probably hates me.
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Hun, you've already got the alarm bells ringing in your head. You know your drinking habits aren't healthy.
The holiday in Hawaii could be a blessing in disguise :)
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I'm starting a new attempt at sobriety on Tuesday :)
 
I drank one beer last night and that was it. I never really had the urge to drink more though i must admit that heineken tasted damn good. Alot of times that 1 beer would be enough to make me wanna drink the whole 6 then go and buy another 12 but i havent had any real alcohol cravings as of late. Thats been good because alcohol cravings drive me nuts :!.
 
Acid Eiffel said:
is it in green bottles?
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Yes it's in green bottles and 5% alcohol like regular beer. You can get it in cans here too as well as mini kegs. I like heineken in bottles though because for some reason it tastes better. I'll only get the cans if im out somewhere and don't have anything to pop the cap off the bottle with.

It says product of holland so it's not made here.
 
Ughh

Australia Day long weekend

i.e. the 3-day national mandatory alcohol binge

Right now I feel like I would rather curl up in a padded cell and rock back and forth in the corner listening to classical music (that sounds rather nice actually!), than spend the weekend drinking.

But I'll drink, to excess, as usual, because it's the done thing 8)

Best of luck to all the Aussie alcoholics this weekend <3
 
paranoid android said:
Yes it's in green bottles and 5% alcohol like regular beer. You can get it in cans here too as well as mini kegs. I like heineken in bottles though because for some reason it tastes better. I'll only get the cans if im out somewhere and don't have anything to pop the cap off the bottle with.

It says product of holland so it's not made here.
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Which foggy and rainy island in canada you from? I'm from one as well.. out on the west coast, vancouver island. :)
 
Hello everyone.
So yeah as i feared when i cut my Suboxone off 3months ago i started drinking heavily again and using bensos. Did alot of amphetamine too but nothing out of control.
I drank every day in these past three months, about 70cl of vodka in the evening/night + ~1-8mg Clonazepam/day.

Did ALOT of stupid things, got myself banned from bars, screwed up a new relationship with a nice girl, cracked my head open in a stairwell, burned all my savings on
alcohol, drugs and women.
Its a wonder i managed not to get arrested at any point!

Well, 1 week ago i said to myself, wow! Slow down a little now will ya?!
So last saturday i cut off the booze and bensos and got some Suboxone pills, as i all ways do when i need to get of alcohol and not get withdrawl symptoms.
So i stayed clean from alcohol & clonazepam until this friday, took 0.5mg clona + 1 beer and a glass of wine. Went home and took 2mg Suboxone.

Will continue my self medication with Subxone til tuesday next week, then with some willpower, alot of clonazepam & hasch stay off suboxone & the alcohol til the weekend.
In the past ive had alot of long drinking binges, last binge lasted about 1½ year of everyday drinking. Just sitting at home, watching TV drinking beer & vodka and
on the weekends meet some mates and get pissed.

Enough rambling, gonna try and catch a few hours of sleep and then clean the house and go grocery shopping.
Safe drinking mates.
 
almost up to a month with no alcohol. Its my birthday soon and i keep wanting to use that as an excuse to go on a bender.... must. be. strong.
 
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