You sound like a alcoholic and there is little to no chance you will be able to moderate your drinking if your anything like me. It used to be all or nothing for me and still is sometimes. I had to give up drinking pretty much entirely for about 4 years before i could drink normally again and even then the only reason i could drink normally is because i was on opiates which took away my desire to drink.
Over the holidays i felt myself slipping back into my old drinking habits so ive had to give it up again. Not so much as a beer in 12 days. I'll have a few beers down the road but right now it's just way to risky because i can slip back into habits pretty quick.
Giving up drinking is really fucking hard but atleast it sounds like your not physically addicted so thats atleast one good thing. The main thing is to pick up something else when you stop drinking. Anything a hobby, working out, etc. I started working out like crazy when i gave up drinking and continued like that for about 3 years. I was in the best shape of my life all because the exercise helped take my mind off getting drunk.
Try not to think of it at all to many people focus on how long theve been sober but i found this totally counterproductive. By far the best thing to do is put it way back in your mind. Just make sure you don't put it far enough back that you think you can allow yourself that ONE drink.
Over the holidays i felt myself slipping back into my old drinking habits so ive had to give it up again. Not so much as a beer in 12 days. I'll have a few beers down the road but right now it's just way to risky because i can slip back into habits pretty quick.
Giving up drinking is really fucking hard but atleast it sounds like your not physically addicted so thats atleast one good thing. The main thing is to pick up something else when you stop drinking. Anything a hobby, working out, etc. I started working out like crazy when i gave up drinking and continued like that for about 3 years. I was in the best shape of my life all because the exercise helped take my mind off getting drunk.
Try not to think of it at all to many people focus on how long theve been sober but i found this totally counterproductive. By far the best thing to do is put it way back in your mind. Just make sure you don't put it far enough back that you think you can allow yourself that ONE drink.