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De-realization is a symptom of anxiety, which in turn is caused by withdrawal. I know what you mean, I've often been confused as to what's real in bad hungover/withdrawal states. Sometimes I have wondered whether I've said something or in fact just thought it. Seriously mate, don't quit alcohol or benzos cold turkey. Have a few drinks and make an appointment to see a doctor about quitting.
 
Spurs_1882 said:
Seriously mate, don't quit alcohol or benzos cold turkey. Have a few drinks and make an appointment to see a doctor about quitting.
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I got 45 mg oxazepam by stealing from my mother.
It though helps only this day...

I was buying food and soda from grocery store, god I wanted to have beer. But all the money went to food and stuff.

And I got cough suryp containing DXM , I extracted it for this evening. I just envy those who can be drunk today and have fun with friends.
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It is so depressing , I live so far away from friends , 20 miles, and buses won't come back here at night.
 
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Fuck this ... living with sober brother, but alcoholic mother....

Mother drunk ... I'll just wait that she goes to sleep or something.
 
Shit mate I can imagine how hard it would be not drinking or being with your mates on a day like that. Is there anyway you can move closer to where your friends live, especially if you're not happy living at home?
 
Madmike said:
Fuck this ... living with sober brother, but alcoholic mother....

Mother drunk ... I'll just wait that she goes to sleep or something.
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Mate, have you actually sought professional help with your drinking/benzo use?
I've just seen a doctor about my drinking problem, it's hard but it's going to be much easier with the support of a professional rather than doing it on my own. Especially if you're not around your mates for support either.
 
I only did 13 beers last night. But when I woke up, I got a terrible panic attack.

I had to lay down , I got over it, but I have this anxiety still going on. :(
 
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Mad Mike, how many benzos do you take, and how often?
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whatever I get my hands on, lowest possible dose to keep anxiety away

that is when I plan to stay sober

about equivalent to 5 mg diazepam keeps me ok, below that and I'll feel withdrawal.
 
My mom got back from Spain, god I wished she would brought back some wines or liquer so I could get drunk. I have something, but not enough.
 
God, I bought two liters of wine and two beers.

That is awful lot to consume,

Is this a plan to go to detox that I drink like never
 
found out my wife is leavin me about a month ago, and went from a couple beers a night to drinkin when i get off work till i pass out every night. can't even talk to my best friends without gettin nervous unless i've drank some. :\ this was a trap i didnt think i was gonna fall back into. i guess some people never learn.
 
Drinking my first 16 oz of the day. Unfortunately in GA. theres no sales on sunday so i got to go grab the wine next. (no brew) I shy away from liquor. I use to drink tons and be ok, but now liqour makes me black out and do VERY regretable things. Its because I don't necesarilly like being drunk, I like getting drunk (the process of becoming more drunk). I've drank 12 packs with whole bottles of rum. Full bottles of whiskey. And so on. Now its pretty much only beer. I love when people say things like "oh i'll outdrink you" or something. Either u can drink like i can or u can't . Theres no outdoing types like me.
 
dunno why but i've gotten into the drinking routine again lately, and id just been thinkin about how i'm really just fucking myself. been feeling guilty for drinking lately, but i did it anyway like an addict. bought myself some tonight but... i just didn't drink it. i think i'm going to keep this bottle of unopened liquor unopened, as a testament to my promise or sobriety.

then one day someone will ask me why the fuck there's a dusty old bottle of bombay sitting on my marble mantlepiece as i sit in a satin robe while i puff my pipe in an old leather wingbacked chair with my feet on an ottoman...

and i'll be too senile to remember and too high to give a shit
 
I lasted about 2 weeks without a beer, and bam. I'm drinking consistently again.

I think that my drinking is tied to my depression.
 
Drinking way less as of late... 2 to 4 beers a night. Sometimes less. I rarely go out, but when I do I get drunk, but usually not too out there.

I can't drink anywhere near like I used to, looking back on it I was working up my tolerance for years... I was at my worst around 22 now I'm almost 25. I started drinking around 15 I think.
 
hello, back again since long time. still an alcoholic and now i know im damaging myself even worse than before, but shit! cannot NOT drink.
 
meh seeming as i'm in court for crimanal damage and assault on thursday for blacking out on alchol and trashing my own flat and fighting with my s/o
all i can say is i'm off the beer.
meh
 
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