yeah, i know man, ive seen the intervention show before, i know what the doctor said is true i have a severe alcoholism problem and am flirting with opiate addiction (via oxycodone, however i am lucky i am scottish hah and we are cheap its weird i have a natural tolerance for oxy, but im clean for now and working out. ive made 3 posts here before, and im always the same. ive been a daily addict for several things for years and have a self loathing no one can understand. drugs and alcohol help so much, im very fucked as im sure you can see. im sober for 4 days now, but ive damaged myself from doing 8 e's a night at times, doing dxm for almost a month straight (good god thats what unsettles me man my body can take a pounding (i hope), but it will never end simply because i want death. i mean im happy now and i still dont like myself. i NEED to man up, talk to my doc, and give talking it out a shot. or its back to the old weed once a day... multiple times daily.... e.... alcohol.... etc