Ximot
Bluelighter
demention, ha ha LOL
e1evene1even said:Oh and where is the guy that did the 40mg? I'm I the only one who finds it annoying when people start taking herioc doses of brand new chemicals and then disappear from the thread, never to post again...
Once you give up Desire..
give up Attachment..
Attachment to your nice car..your money..your wants..
the desire to get laid..
the Desire to keep a hold on your girlfriend/boyfriend..
the Attachment to all of your "things",
your addictions your pizza your internet your this your that your
"I" want this "I" want that "I" like these clothes "I" dont like that person..
...and...
the Desire or Attachment to even..
-- BEING ALIVE--
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If you still fear....
fear death, fear punishment, fear pain,
fear of the thought of loosing things,
fear of not being good enough or smart enough,
fear of what others think of you,
fear of ..anything at all..
If you are emotionally all over the place..
up down sad happy blah AHH! Uhh..
Waah help me! Noo Fuck You!
If you are still Stuck in the Past..Living inside your Mind..
Why did I do that? If only I would have done this instead!
My life would be better!
*WAKE UP* no, it wouldn't be.
Remember the past, and learn from it, what else *CAN*..you DO,
About the Past?
stop living in your head and live right Here:
!NOW!
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You are still Attached, you still Desire.
Your not in the Zone = the Tao = the Flow = in Harmony.
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If things dont feel Perfect and things dont just Fall Into Place,
--automatically--
--with no effort--
Where you go the people you see the things you do
the reasons you do them the dreams you have and what they mean,
if Knowing what its all about and Why its happening isnt fully automatic,
if you arent sure why your doing this or why you coincidentally keep running into
this or that person at this or that wierd place and time,
If you dont understand why your mom hates you or your dad raped you,
if you dont understand why your life now "sucks" and your friend suddenly turned gay,
If you dont understand how that "one guy you know" can still unconditionally Love,
the dad that raped you the mom that hates you
the people that fucked you over
the guy you knew that beat his girlfriend up
the people you hate because they did this or that to you
and,
dont understand how that "one guy you know" can still unconditionally Love,
You, after you screwed him over after you stole his stuff
after You, -- oh wait,
your better then the dad that raped you
your better than the mom that hates you
your better than the guy that beat his girlfriend
your better than all those people that fucked you over because,
--or, maybe you think more like this,
-replace the word better with worse either way it works-
....you ARE the dad that raped you
you ARE the mom that hates you
you ARE the guy that beat his girlfriend
you ARE the "one guy you know" that...
-- Its OK though you see --
Its not a 0n3ee or zer1oo
situation.
Its not as simple as Black or White or On or Off.
Its a learning process that takes time, and
you let go of your attachments and desires
at the rate --You-- let them go.
But you can speed it up if you listen,
listen to the mom that hates you get to understand the guy that raped you
*listen* to the guy that beat his girlfriend and learn to
teach
love
give
and....
i will finish this later because I got a "random call"
call it a coincidence if you want,
but if you listen to these coincidences you'll realise,
there is no such thing as a coincidence,
they are signs trying to tell you things,
it may seem vague,
it may not make sense,
But treat it like a very difficult and long class in school,
The Class called Life,
a difficult to understand lecture,
you can and will understand it but you've..just...got....to.......
LISTEN.
That call I just got from a friend was a "message" while typing this up,
telling me to get my ass off this computer and
get back to a higher priority.
He didn't know he coincidentally called me up to tell me that,
it was an unrelated - scratch that.. its all related,
conversation about this and that,
...or maybe he did know..?
more later.
....you ARE the dad that raped you
you ARE the mom that hates you
you ARE the guy that beat his girlfriend
you ARE the "one guy you know" that...
Delsyd said:I havent taken this one above 12mg yet but at that dose it felt like ~2g of mushrooms. Though the trip was a little different than mushrooms in that i never felt any anxiety (in fact i felt quite euphoric at that dose).
Miprocin reminds me alot of mushrooms too> With miprocin 20mg feels like ~3.5g of mushrooms. Miprocin is just a brutal as mushrooms when it comes to your ego.
The only similarity i found between the 2 is that they both reminded me of mushrooms and yet in compleely different ways.