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22 days clean after twenty years of lorcets

Obtain pills? Easy

Pharcyde said:
yep opie wd is a bitch. how the hell did you get hydros for 20 years?
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I am 59 now. Honestly have been on them for probably closer to 25 years or so. A few loose doctors would give prescriptions with several refills. Paid 4 to 5 dollars for each pill on the black market. They have always been around. Others would get prescriptions for a hundred and sell them. So most came from quack doctors. They made money from the office visits and would writ the scripts for everyone to keep coming back over and over. It was easy. Just took money.​
 
I think it's been 6 weeks without taking hydrocodone. The toughest part is each day starting at 5:00 p.m. Because I would take most of my pills everyday after work. And on weekends I would always try to start after five. So that alarm still goes off at five everyday telling me it's time to pop pills. So now I have a diet coke instead of vodka. I have started to crave sweets more. I love chocolate and most candy. I'm not over weight now, but must turn off the sweets soon. I like ice cream too. When taking pills it was easy to avoid over indulgence of candy. But what I am meaning to say is the urge to pill pop comes everyday at five. The brain starts to play tricks with my decision making process. Sometimes it tells me it's ok to just take one pill to help my urge. Oh, I know it's the devil or if you don't believe in the devil just call it whatever. But we all have those voices trying to make us to take the forbidden fruit. Thanks for everyone who has posted in support. Thanks, g
 
guidog! youre still goin strong?? I found a good tip today after I came close to a relapse. Delay. Like set your kitchen timer for 10 minutes, and do some yoga or something, then see how u feel about poppin a pill :) gl, cfz
 
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Hi CfZrx,
hope you are doing fine. Yes I am hanging tight. It feels so good not to be a slave to those pills. I will try setting the kitchen timer the next time I struggle after work. I used back pain as an excuse for popping pills, but I really used them to dull my senses and just used them to chill out. Loved to drink on then to give them more kick. Now not popping pills my drinking has faded.
Thanks for writing and tell me how you are holding out.
 
Hi gd :) I will have 7 days without abusing pills tomorrow and I'm getting stronger. I have arthritis of the neck and it hurts a lot much of the day the nerves and the muscles. I liked how large doses of opiates (went from 60 mg oral to 60 plugged to 120 mgIV over 1 year) would completely ease the pain, but I am learning to manage on my small prescription plus weed, and my life is flourishing again. My biggest trigger is being alone. I heard you either get tired of getting high or die. Hope I'm tired enough, but I know how impulse can sneak up.
 
Harry Potter

CfZrx said:
Are you gonna read Harry Potter?? lol jk
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Not sure about Harry Potter. I made a list of the books recommended and will go to book store soon.
I hope you are managing ok tonight. When was the last time you were sober for any reasonable length of time. Sometimes I wonder since I have used for so many years I may be doomed.
 
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