Recovery ⫸⫸ THE RECOVERY THREAD 2020 ⫷⫷

[Juniper Bruhmomentius]

It sounds like it. You said your hetero now btw or do I remember wrongly?

 

[Captain.Heroin]

i wish i was most men are clueless

the hot ones are few and far between.

 

[Shady's Fox]

you can fly i mean flyin should be legal

i think we all need to fly

and

fly the dice clap the mic

mhmm
haha am rhyim shet

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Back into men

 

[Hylight]

wow. january.

i don't know. the depression is really bad today.

as soon as i can , i'm ended it or so that's how i feel.

it will be a while since there are some people
i don't want to upset.

maybe in the mean time i will get something deadly and just dieeeeeeee already but it IS a bad day today and then i have to go back to work a shift tonight any f ing way.

 

[Hylight]

ffs now i am eating chocolate bread cake to feel better. what has my life turned into.
chocolate supposed to help out though.
weeee. now what.
feb. has got to be better because can it not get worse. ewwww i had chocolate bread cake today
and now i feel soo much better.

for now.

 

[nuttynutskin]

About 3 months without falling off the wagon now.

 

[Jabberwocky]

i've got a cold and haven't slept well in weeks apart from when i did an almost post crack level sleep, 15 hours, the weekend before last. i think the tiredness is getting to my subconscious cos i had the first crack dream (i usually dream about smack in drug dreams) i've had probably in over a year last night. in the dream i relapsed cos i was talking to someone and found out they were smoking with ash instead of wire wool and i got so pissed off with that and their general amateurishness i decided to show them how to smoke properly.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

wow. january.

i don't know. the depression is really bad today.

YOU are worth it, you'll ALWAYS be worth it, SMILE because you're BEAUTIFUL inside and out

goes to everyone

 

[Hylight]

wow, i will be back.

i was trying so hard !

see, i needed empathy and support.

while others stand out as advocacy,

i can. i will. i am able ♡. i will be and i am.

thank you.

hugs and loves.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

wow, i will be back.

i was trying so hard !

see, i needed empathy and support.

while others stand out as advocacy,

i can. i will. i am able ♡. i will be and i am.

thank you.

hugs and loves.

If you can quit once it can be done again. Love you hylight stay strong!!

 

[Captain.Heroin]

i've got a cold and haven't slept well in weeks apart from when i did an almost post crack level sleep, 15 hours, the weekend before last. i think the tiredness is getting to my subconscious cos i had the first crack dream (i usually dream about smack in drug dreams) i've had probably in over a year last night. in the dream i relapsed cos i was talking to someone and found out they were smoking with ash instead of wire wool and i got so pissed off with that and their general amateurishness i decided to show them how to smoke properly.

Those using dreams can drive me crazy too. Stay strong!!!

 

[THECATINTHEHAT]

I had the first using dream I had in years around the start of my recent relapse. Always the same dream, either I'm trying to score crack and when I go back to the spot the person isn't there any more and I can't score, or I do score and every time I try to load the pipe I spill the gear and then slowly waste it all spilling it and can't get off. Not too hard to figure out the significance there lol.

It's clear to me now that if in future I get a dream like that then it's a sure sign I'm right on the edge of losing the plot and need to make some big short-term changes pretty fast.

 

[geekgrl]

Anyone else wonder where the years went? Fuck, I have partied hard! Good luck with recovery everyone

 

[Hylight]

tomorrow i shall start my clean detox and will try to cope with the pain that shall pass but makes it all so uncomfortable.
i keep trying. psychologically i can cope, the physical pain annoys me and is crippling but i pray for support and strength all the time.
a year ago was fighting the dependency now i fight for the coping mechanisms. i'm babbling, wishful thinking to get healthy again.

 

[Phoenix_rising]

wow. january.

i don't know. the depression is really bad today.

as soon as i can , i'm ended it or so that's how i feel.

it will be a while since there are some people
i don't want to upset.

maybe in the mean time i will get something deadly and just dieeeeeeee already but it IS a bad day today and then i have to go back to work a shift tonight any f ing way.

Shit here too hylight,had the same kind of day. Craving smack after years of staying away from it.

It'll be a new day tomorrow.

 

[Phoenix_rising]

Anyone else wonder where the years went? Fuck, I have partied hard! Good luck with recovery everyone

All the time. Scary shit ain't it. At least we had a mad one.

 

[Painful One]

Hang in there everybody!

January is the hardest month!
we are on the last day of this bitch now!

Things will look up soon.
just hold on and know you are ALL loved very much!

 

[Hylight]

i did a very strong dab.
i dint do an opioid all day.
i am so terrified of what i have become.
but i'm getting used to it, trying anyway.

should i leave because of the dab.
i guess i will if i have to. ☹

thank you for that.

 

[Painful One]

i did a very strong dab.
i dint do an opioid all day.
i am so terrified of what i have become.
but i'm getting used to it, trying anyway.

should i leave because of the dab.
i guess i will if i have to. ☹

thank you for that.

No!
No way!
You are doing great.
Do not put guilt and shame on yourself. That is the way to failure.
Just carry on!

Love you just the way you are!