I went clubbing on the pretty solid dose of 24 mg. I did not really feel like tripping that day nor like going to the club but I had preordered a ticket and could not leave my friend hanging. I took a whole 24 mg with me to decide there if and how much I'd take (this was an agar tab made for personal use splittable into 4x 6 mg pieces). I decided to take it and not wanting to waste any took the whole damn thing. I had a meal of foraged mushrooms 2 h earlier. I did not expect its onset to be so delayed. At first I regretted not having weed with me as I would have tried intensifying whatever little effects I had. I'm so glad my vaporiser was not charged and left at home.
But then it came on an hour or so later than it usually does, and the dancefloor was not a good place to be on. I had a flashback to the whole "my hand is dying" thing I got from 25E-NBOH 3 years ago, and which I had thought I was beyond now. I tried dancing it out but felt like my soul was beginning to leave my body and an egodeath experience in a full club felt inappropriate. Fortunately, my friend was not feeling the vibe either and helped me get home by tram. The whole time, despite me doing the best to calm myself down and just let it happen (which I managed surprisingly well), I had a very much increased pulse as measured by my watch. I felt as if I was poisoned or as if the foraged mushrooms may have intensified the 2C-B due to some unknown interaction I had neglected to find out (in hindsight, there should have been nothing to worry - I did not find any candidates for interaction).
At home and in bed, at a time where the 2C-B usually would have already ended, I was in for a very intense ride. I do not often get CEVs and can't remember ever having much to show with 2C-B, but here I was having intense CEVs similar in nature to DMT, but with not quite the vibrancy nor increase in field of view. The foraged mushrooms were dancing in front of me as if to ridicule me (
somewhat akin to a mushroom machinery version of this) as I was tormented with the consequences of my actions. And I swore to myself I would never bring myself in such a situation again and many more things. A lot of those things I now retract, having had time to think over them sober, but at the moment it felt easier to give in to that tremendous force
Well, it's something I said previously: always when I thought I had thoroughly explored 2C-B, and it would not surprise me anymore after the many many trips I had with it, it would show me a new aspect of it. I've never had it been this powerful but then again I had not ever taken it quite as stupidly. It's great stuff and as difficult as that experience was, it actually gave me some confidence in managing some stronger experiences. But I'll try not having to rely on such confidence by being a little more careful with the basics (set/setting/dose) which were all wrongly chosen during that particular experience. I'm glad I was experienced enough to somewhat manage after that blunder. Any less trust in myself or 2C-B and it would have been a total freakout. Yet I do not have to retract my statement that 2C-B usually does not hand out more than one can handle - which can be a lot!
