First time on MDMA was with Marijuana, was I really rolling?
i'm 5'6 145lb, male.
I previously researched what is the optimal dose to take on the rolls. And i chose lighter does, as I am pretty sensitive to weed already. I grabbed my friends scales and measured out around 100-120mg. and put it back in a capsul that previously had Kava-Kava root, and my MDMA mixed with some of that Kava-Kava root herb crap. any way. So these are the conditions of my pill,
read on:
This was my first time taking MDMA. I was pretty anxious, but felt excited about it too. My girlfriend was there, though she didn't roll she becuse she had to work in the morning. She had her sister that I was rolling with and a couple of other friends, all females, so I was with a good group of people.
After an hour of taking it I felt a little body high, nothing major, and perhaps a little lighter in mood, not much but i felt different (placebo effect may be?). I texted my buddy who had the scales and encouraged me to just dumb my 100mg of MDMA into half full Capsule of kava-kava and thusly mixing it together. I texted him "Dude ... this shit aint really working" And it wasn't. I felt something different but not too strong. Nothing was 'orgazmic', i kept asking my gf's sister if it had hit her already, she confirmed after an hour. It still didn't feel like this is what every one is feeling and going nuts about it?! I just knew that people can't call this rolling. My buddy then replied ans said to take a toke of weed, and I did. And I felt liftoff! Right when the song began to explode! ... and everything was great and awesome ... HOWEVER!:
I started to notice that I'm insanely euphoric, but no other strong sensations associated with MDMA, massages didn't feel like an orgazm that every one talks about. My girlfriend even came up and blew a little wind on me, which felt nice and great at that moment, but it didn't make my eyes roll back in insane euphoria like other people's reactions.
HERE"S THE PROBLEM:
Every time i smoke weed now, I feel like i'm rolling a little bit. I get that high euphoria, my skin becomes more sensitive. even to a small breeze, my mind goes to a crazy imaginations, etc.
What happen on my roll? Did I actually ever rolled, or was it just mostly WEED that overpowered my rolle and instead was an enhancement of my weed high? Or did weed really relaxed me and let MDMA take over? I took only one puff of weed.
Or is it that when I smoke now, I try to get those other nice and warm feelings back? When I come off my weed high, I try to look back at my rave exp, and compare it to the one high I just this had, and I'm usually come to understanding that it was a little different with MDMA, but not by much i just, feel like my first MDMA roll felt like weed but ten times higher, I'm so confused. I'm rolling again in the end of september. And Id like to know whether to expect something different . I'll try not to smoke until the end of the roll this time
What do you guys think?