Random MSN Gibberings LX: Cabbage it is...

[Jabberwocky]

i hate early mornings. i like late nights where you get the dawn chorus, as long as its done/you have have earplugs by the time you wanna sleep. walking home to bed as the world is getting up is satisfying if you have a subversive personality i guess.

been woken up by screaming kids the past 3 mornings. they'd been really good and not cried for ages, then 3 mornings in a row. i'm having a late night tonight so if it happens tomo there's a high chance i'll lose my temper and end up shouting through the wall. not good conduct really.

Make them burst into a fit of righteous indignation and cut their nose off to spite their face...

...like that.

Of course, it might lead to a third option: that the usage becomes ever more covert and surreptitious in order to avoid detection. But really, if that's the option one takes, you really have to question quite how much love and respect there is in that relationship.

hahaha. yeah you're right. though i've also done option 3 (not about drugs though) and would disagree that it shows lack of love or respect, just that something stronger than you is in control of your mind.

 

[Myshkin]

I love twilight too, for similar reasons I think. Gorgeous times of day

My other favourite time. The sharpness of everything in the low light, and the 'magic hour' casting a halo around the most mundane of objects. Yes indeed.

Though I've probably harmed my eyesight through reading in twilight, plus it pisses any visitors off when I refuse to put the lights on until nature has done its thing. No soul, some people. No soul. :D

Oh, and sod the woman, oriental or not - I just want to 'meet' the big bag of drugs!

 

[parttime crackhead]

I broke my femur some years ago, was in hospital for 2 weeks and they put me on diazepam to sleep through the night and co-codamol for pain.

Had an operation, massive plate put in and 8 screws, when I got discharged they gave me a few packets of 800mg Ibuprofen tablets

Unfortunately I wasn't savvy enough at the time to realise if I complained I might get something a bit more useful.

When I left the hospital after getting a plate put in my arm they told me it would be agony once the painkillers wear off but "it's OK because we'll give you some really strong ones to take home". A box of fucking 30/500 coco's. Absolute joke. I told them I need something better because I'd take those for a headache. They said they couldn't give me anything stronger without keeping me in hospital (blatant lie). Phoned my GP the next day & got a prescription for a shitload of tramadol %)

 

[effie]

Haha drugs-dreams are epic at the time but crushing when you wake up...

Twighlight that and early-early morning really are the only time that all the mundanities of life become beautiful (is that a word? If not it should be)..

Add hallucinogens into the mix and it's perfection.

Hope you have a good day off Samhain!

 

[th3 s1aught3r]

Twilight is cool, I also kind of like the dark. When I was a kid I loved the times when the electricity used to go and we would have to use candles, every one else would be complaining but not me.
I also love real fires, we burn turf and coal fires at home, I was 15 before we even had central heating, living in the country, good times

 

[brimz]

one of the best experiences i've ever had was watching the sunrise over the Grand canyon.
As i've mentioned their is a serenity at that time of the day that is unmatched.
Also their were loadsa of amazing Birrds of Prey .

 

[effie]

sounds pretty epic Brimz..

Have an ace time abroad btw! Got pms to reply to but a bit too spaced out today, but have a wicked time and I look forward to meeting when you return

 

[brimz]

sounds pretty epic Brimz..

Have an ace time abroad btw! Got pms to reply to but a bit too spaced out today, but have a wicked time and I look forward to meeting when you return

Cheers , i'm like a kiddie on Xmas eve i jus wanna wake up n go

 

[Mugz]

Wow, the gibberings thread is busy today.

mornernoon peeps, am on my lunchbreak from work eating a microwaved cottage pie. Been good to get back to work today, found out I have monday and tuesday off too shame I have no stims at hand for the weekend

 

[Jabberwocky]

grrr i don't know what to do. 2 sets of people i really like and rarely see will be in the same place at the same time today. i was planning to go but really don't know if i can hold it together. this would be maybe ok if it wasn't for the fact that i never manage to hold it together for one of these sets of people. they will stop bothering with me at this rate. i really want to go but i don't want to make a prat of myself.

 

[effie]

All lovely. What do you think you can manage? I generally find that I am capable of a hell of a lot more that I think I am if I make it out and about..

Are they aware of current issues and will they be supportive if you're pretty quiet/need to go early/dont really manage as well as you'd hope?

I'm such a hypocrite but hiding away= short term gain, long term misery where as forcing yourself out tends to = short term pain/difficulty but much, much better long term gain..CBT innit..

Having said that, if you really can't cope, send them a message briefly explaining why (so they dont think they are being stood up) and be kind to yourself. Sometimes things are just too much.

 

[parttime crackhead]

I'm still lying in bed. Need to go to work at 5 for a fucking 2 & a half hour shift because the stupid pricks wouldn't give me the full day off. Total pointless mission on the bus do take a couple of calls & piss about doing nothing as much as possible.

Not too bad though, got a full (10 hour) shift the mora then off till Monday again %)

 

[Jabberwocky]

All lovely. What do you think you can manage? I generally find that I am capable of a hell of a lot more that I think I am if I make it out and about..

Are they aware of current issues and will they be supportive if you're pretty quiet/need to go early/dont really manage as well as you'd hope?

I'm such a hypocrite but hiding away= short term gain, long term misery where as forcing yourself out tends to = short term pain/difficulty but much, much better long term gain..CBT innit..

thanks effie.

i don't know. i don't know if i can manage any of it. avoiding their gaze as i mutter 'ok' if they ask how are you is the best i can imagine. they will be sympathetic if i'm distant/quiet or even tearful but its getting old.

but you are totally right. hiding away is in the long term bad, and i really want to keep up my relationship with these people. i should try.... might just pick up a can or 2 to drink on the train.... its not a long enough journey for me to get plastered, which wouldn't be good either.

 

[effie]

Yeah give it a go I reckon, if you can manage it (if not, as I said, be kind to yourself - tis not your fauly, obv you'd go if you could!). If it's not that great, I reckon send your mates a message saying really nice to see them but you're in a bad place atm and might not be able to socialise much - but you consider them good mates and really dont want to lose their friendship. If they are decent peeps and care about you then they will understand

I am the queen of shutting myself away, to the point of suicidalness, I cant seem to stop yet I know what I need to do to break the cycle. It's not easy, but tis the only way to get back to the life you want..

I know how hard it is tho, I really do..

 

[bignbrown]

buzzed as fuck on 4mec, i love you all :D

 

[brimz]

I'm still lying in bed. Need to go to work at 5 for a fucking 2 & a half hour shift because the stupid pricks wouldn't give me the full day off. Total pointless mission on the bus do take a couple of calls & piss about doing nothing as much as possible.

Not too bad though, got a full (10 hour) shift the mora then off till Monday again %)

so Wu was worth it last nite yeah?
Method Man is nuts he always is the one that gets involved with the crowd.
Only 3 main members didn't turn up i rekon thats apretty good result.

 

[parttime crackhead]

Aye it was well worth it, fucking excellent gig. Second Wu gig where every one of us has ended up on our own after the 1st tune. Cunts were going fucking mental, I had to rescue a couple of wee guys that decked it when it was proper kicking off, then I made up for that good deed by flooring some wee cunt that kept elbowing me lol, wee prick went flying haha.

 

[Jabberwocky]

I am the queen of shutting myself away, to the point of suicidalness, I cant seem to stop yet I know what I need to do to break the cycle. It's not easy, but tis the only way to get back to the life you want..

I know how hard it is tho, I really do..

its sad. and hard. hopefully we'll get there.

think i'll decide when i leave, if i feel too sick by the time i get to the station i'll take it as a sign. i'll regret it if i don't even try, though fear of regret is retarded. i feel like a total dick though, i feel shitty cos i've been rinsing the stims every weekend for fuck knows how long. i should just stop. new housemate moving in next week should make me behave myself a little better.

 

[brimz]

Aye it was well worth it, fucking excellent gig. Second Wu gig where every one of us has ended up on our own after the 1st tune. Cunts were going fucking mental, I had to rescue a couple of wee guys that decked it when it was proper kicking off, then I made up for that good deed by flooring some wee cunt that kept elbowing me lol, wee prick went flying haha.

Sounds pretty standard for the WU haha.
I gotta ? 4 you .
Re . Buckfast . Down ere it's 6.99 a bottle yeah mad i no.
I've never had it b4 and i'm tempted , is it the caffeine content that gets u proper fuked , cos its 15% not like really strong . n i 'm no stranger 2 drinkin 4 cans of Special brew or tennents Super.
N whats all this shit about different batches is that jus bolox?

 

[parttime crackhead]

It's getting close to that price here. It probably is the caffeine that makes folk go a bit mad on it but it's not like 1 bottle gets you fucked. I spanked a full bottle on the drive through to Edinburgh & was absolutely fine, went to a pub for a pint then went to the gig.

The different batches shit is nonsense.