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Vent/Rant Thread 1 (POTENTIALLY TRIGGERING)

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Yes, so (((hugs))) I'm often unaware of how hard things are for other people and I know these things that bring out your tougher and more scrappy nature are not in anyway comfortable or enjoyable. I know you will overcome all obstacles. It is your destiny. Stress is a phenomenon to ignore like your heart beat or breathing. You can tune into stress it is always there but most of the time we can be mostly unaware of it and functioning just fine. I think I should be infracted for responding in rants twice now.

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i seriously do not believe that the sign of an irresponsible addicted greedy person would be to turn away a mmj farming license, and a continuous flow of 45 plants.

no i do not

and neither would anyone else who has control of my life atm, but because im seen this way by those who do have control over my life atm, i cant dare show this as an example of exactly how i am not that person.

thats a shit load of money and shit, that i really dont give a fuck about at the end of the day - p e r i o d - now i would also say to go a n d spit in your mirror and watch your filth run down your breathless body - in the proud reflections of your own one dimensional life to those who assume of me and mine
 
how do we move with time, a perpetual force that creates waves, which can bring all to a drifted battered stand to a still
how do you look for direction, when we are the hands of the compass after all place centered yet lost and tranquil
how do you acknowledge each day, when each is to be equal
why dont we acknowledge how what we see and hear in all is only limited to how we judge ourselves from what we learn from others - and allow our thoughts to sequel
 
i dont comein the dark side very much but i fucking hate myself right now I keep blacking out every time I drink which is a couple times a week. Every night i tell myself im just gonna get comfortably drunk and the next thing i know i'm waking up in a place i don't remember goingto. FUck!!!! :X
 
Cars.

I had a busted taillight (thank f*ck I didn't get pulled over), transmission fluid was black, and wipers needed replacing.

My Great American Road Trip wound up costing more than a damned flight. My dad is paying but still, WTF. I did have a blast, though. A couple photos are on FB and my friend is sending the rest.

"If it has tires or testicles, it's going to give you grief."

/facepalm
 
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Fucking asshole that couldnt even be bothered to send me a text to cancel an arranged meeting on Saturday, is now denying that she even saw my message on FB- WHICH- she fucking responded to
...I was unaware of the fact that you could respond to a message that you had not read??!!!!!!!!????????!!!!!!!!!!!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!:!:!:!:!

The message I sent on Friday asked could she confirm a time/day at the weekend that she would be available/like to meet...
To which she responded: ''Tomorrow, am not sure about the time but will text you when we get in the car....''

I waited in all Saturday for a response!!!! I waited until this evening to see if I would be graced with a text saying 'sorry'- and nothing!:!
Am will not be treated like a fucking doormat, I hate being taken for granted, you can be sure if it was someone else she would have fucking had the courtesy to text them. She had brought me to a party last year and fucked off to another barbeque and left me with a bunch of people I didnt fucking know. Also, her sister claims that her own relationship is on the rocks and she has told me nothing of this. Yet I have been quite frank about my last relationship with this person....So wtf is she hiding from me for...She asked me last week to come to her 30th Birthday Party so I assume she isnt trying to give the friendship a brush-off? !!

am thinking that there is something seriously missing here. Maybe nothing to do with me but nevertheless am tired of not getting the respect I give. Not sounding arrogant, we all make mistakes but I literally am on my own at the moment and cant let anyone impact on my welfare, as I have nothing to fall back on anymore have no-one to back me up or help me fight my side so am not gonna let anything slide with anyone- full stop.
So I told her whats what and was Kurt about it .

I know she likes me but feel I am not held in high Esteem. Fuck that shit! She ended up making some excuse about her sisters car breaking down and how she had to fix it and how stressful a day she had but to be honest, with all Ive been through the past year if I have to spell it out to people to show e a bit of courtesy/respect- I dont think I am that bothered with them.:/
Think some people ust have notions that you are just a character and not a human being in your own right in need of a bit of consideration like anyone else. She apologised and it was all civil, I have alot of time for her and am sick of thinking about people who dont seem to think about me back- It really pisses me off- know im sensitive but that does not make me a fucking idiot.
This shit knocks me out, am used to keeping the peace. :/
 
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It was a joke, guys. ;) Hence the facepalm. It was a self-facepalm.

I saw the saying on a crappy keychain years ago. I definitely don't hate men. ;)

I just went over the invoice - again. There are TWO huge mistakes on the invoice. I called the shop and they said "oh, those are probably typos, because our system is heavily automated."

The 'typos' consisted of that they said the windshield was "OK" (it has a very visible 1/3-in smash from road debris on the driver's side - my insurance will cover it but how could they not notice?!) and in the Comments section, there was a note that said "noticable [sp] engine oil leak" when I specifically asked if there were any leaks in the engine, valves, or anything else. The mechanic told me that none existed.

Of note also is that their inspection warranty said they'd fix any windshield issues as part of the service I received. Was that a typographical error as well? It sure would be nice to not need to file an insurance claim for the road debris. I don't want my car to leak oil. Engines need lubrication to work effectively. I know that much.

We depend on our vehicles/trains/planes/bikes/bodies to get us safely from Point A to Point Whatever. It is important to maintain whatever mode of transportation we choose to take for the safety of ourselves and others. I paid good money to have my car in good working order. I'd have placed my car in the shop for a couple days rather than to have received excuses as to "typos".

I pay money; I expect professionalism. Gender/sex is not an issue to me. Excuses about typographical errors/computer errors do not discriminate, and neither do I.

I hope this clears up any misconceptions. The ultimate responsibility is with the individual to maintain his or her s*it together, be it on or off the road.

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Mariposa said:
It was a joke, guys. ;) Hence the facepalm. It was a self-facepalm.

I saw the saying on a crappy keychain years ago. I definitely don't hate men. ;)

I just went over the invoice - again. There are TWO huge mistakes on the invoice. I called the shop and they said "oh, those are probably typos, because our system is heavily automated."

The 'typos' consisted of that they said the windshield was "OK" (it has a very visible 1/3-in smash from road debris on the driver's side - my insurance will cover it but how could they not notice?!) and in the Comments section, there was a note that said "noticable [sp] engine oil leak" when I specifically asked if there were any leaks in the engine, valves, or anything else. The mechanic told me that none existed.

Of note also is that their inspection warranty said they'd fix any windshield issues as part of the service I received. Was that a typographical error as well? It sure would be nice to not need to file an insurance claim for the road debris. I don't want my car to leak oil. Engines need lubrication to work effectively. I know that much.

We depend on our vehicles/trains/planes/bikes/bodies to get us safely from Point A to Point Whatever. It is important to maintain whatever mode of transportation we choose to take for the safety of ourselves and others. I paid good money to have my car in good working order. I'd have placed my car in the shop for a couple days rather than to have received excuses as to "typos".

I pay money; I expect professionalism. Gender/sex is not an issue to me. Excuses about typographical errors/computer errors do not discriminate, and neither do I.

I hope this clears up any misconceptions. The ultimate responsibility is with the individual to maintain his or her sh*t together, be it on or off the road.

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I have grown so very, very tired of this place I call 'home' and all of its surroundings.

I simply cannot even leave the house to go to the store without someone recognizing me, yelling my name, FOLLOWING ME until I acknowledge them, ect. To some people, that may seem enticing. In this situation, I am not one of those people. I hate this 'reputation' I have had in the same bloody town for the past eight years. Granted, I have seen the obvious happen. Now that I have ditched the meth, heroin, blackout drinking, promiscuity, cigarettes, and odd crowd of 'infamous' assholes, I have heard (and experienced) that my 'reputation' is rather respectable. I don't go to foolish parties anymore, I don't meet with foolish people, and I don't let anyone disrespect this rockin' body! With all that said, my past still haunts me sometimes, man.

I keep finding myself running into people from highschool and getting this horrendous anxiety to the point where I have often literally RAN the opposite way from the person I have encountered. I no longer want to be seen as that 'lost cause' (as an IV heroin addict who was doing far worse than I was once labeled me). As much as I know that I am no longer that person, my issues get in the way of displaying how much I have really changed. When I run into this multitude of acquaintances, I feel overwhelmed. Frankly I have been around the block more than a few times, and I know the games of telephone that my mere appearance may engender.

I continuously hear story after story about how 'successful' all the people who used to copy my english homework are, and you know what? I really do not give a shit! I am lucky to be alive and in good health! My success WILL come! I just simply had to tackle issues that many people would have committed suicide over. Due to these pending issues (and then some), I do not want to make 'small talk' with anyone local from my past. If that were, in fact, my motive, I would not be consistently changing my number, acting as though these individuals are invisible, blocking said individuals off of social networking sites, screening all current calls, ect. I understand that some of the gossip about me was and still is a bit interesting (for lack of better terms), but I also understand that life is fluid. I am not quite sure what it will take for me to completely fall off the face of my previous social earth, but I am undeniably frustrated that people still have the audacity to say hello to me, hug me, hit on me, ect...when my body language clearly states "I will be cordial for 1.5 seconds, then you may now proceed to fuck off."

I have enough difficulties simply being around areas that remind me of unsavoury events and individuals. I really would just enjoy the respect of these past acquaintances by having them let me go completely. I want no attachment to anyone from my past who is in my area. Now, leave me the fuck alone and go on your merry way. Detaching myself from all of these people was the best thing I could have done for myself. Give a gal some credit and I will give you yours.
 
panic in paradise said:
yes, well, we are lucky to of been gifted this life, but
after that - there is no luck i dont think -
just what you do with what you got

& so far, the world is mine..!
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... usually.
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^ There is luck—I assure you. I have testimonials. ::Chuckles, shakes head::
Although a subjective topic, there is absolutely no denying luck when experienced. Almost surreal really. Now, is the SUCCESS and QUALITY of one's life solely dependent on luck? I think not! Hence why I agree with that "just do what you do with what you got" statement.

Pssst! You can't have the whole world, goddamnit!
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haah^^

yes you can have the world - wtf goddamnit!
mine again then
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everything happens, and was put here for you - just as it was for everyone else, most people would just rather not make full use of this part of life, as they have never had to acknowledge it.
 
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