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Greenlighter
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Response:to should i detox at home with naltrexone?very lengthy but worth a read plea
I have written on this in the dark side...perhaps in the wrong forum,but I received nice responses.Then I saw this thread ,and it was exactly what I was looking for.Really just wanted to talk to and identify with some one who did naltrexone to rapid detox at home while awake.1st my answer is a strong NO,it is like nothing you have ever experienced in regards to withdrawal because it is rapid...hmmm how do I put it,like scrubbing and pulling all the opiate receptors clean at a rapid pace.An entire different experience than ceasing opiates naturally and withdrawing that way...I have done that many times..and now that feels like a walk in the park.I have never blogged or joined a discussion page,but I feel so strongly and never want a fellow opiate lover/sufferer to go through this.I will not exaggerate or add drama(try lol I'm a girl)Had 2-3 days without my child wanted to detox without him witnessing it,so I get naltrexone,took 4mg.!st body temp got really hot,then anxiety that you thought you would burst,then the real killer for me restless arms and legs kicking,not just legs and an extreme case,I sat and rocked or walked around the house constantly..all the while my mental status is going crazy,strange ,massive guilt from the past came up,I'm a loser,I just wanna die,and oh God my babies ,my babies.Suicide did cross my mind ,I was unable to comprehend that this was temporary,but a minute felt like ten.Then violent vomiting,diarrhea and loss of bladder all at the same time,not pretty...but nothing at the game of opiates is.I wound up calling 911..I was borderline violent at this point...they took me and could do nothing,the doctor came 3 times to my bed but I was unable to sit still,until she finally sat me down, but commend me for trying and sent me home with 5 Xanax....Done! went home took 6-8 milligrams of sub and fell deeply asleep.Ready for this still determined I pack up and go to my mothers thinking emotional support would have helped! how soon an addict forgets the pains of even yesterday and I still had 2 child free days to do this .SO here I go with all my meds which btw I had the previous day.Clonidine,Baclofan,Klonipin 2mg and Zofran,Seroquel 25mg.and Immodium.ENTIRELY USELESS NOTHING KNOCKED ME OUT! or let me sleep due to the restless body.Then again the vomiting etc. 3 hot showers so cold when I got out I had to just jump under the covers wet.My mother began to cry..I could not let her touch me and I asked her to stop talking,I was like an exposed nerve...in retrospect I would never ever want to see my child suffer like that or any way.SO once again I could not follow through and my dad drove to my home to get my suboxone it took 45 min.and felt like 3 hours...within 45.min of taking it I was like an entirely different person,my mother was shocked ,however said this is some toxic,powerful stuff...I'm scared Tara.I have had adrenal and thyroid problems since starting subs.so it is ill advised for me to stay on it.On another note I feel screwed,will life ever be the same again..will I feel natural joy or purpose,could I go grocery shopping without 4 percocets...can I get out of bed without taking my subs 45 min.earlier...I have children I love and feel so trappped..my depression is so debilitating when I am off opiates,I just dont know what to do?Sorry so lengthy ..just wanna help and also get a little advice/inspiration....with love xo "LIfe is not a prison sentence but yet it is a spiritual kindergarten,where we are all trying to spell God with all the wrong blocks."


