Seattle_Stranger
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I'm just going to wear it. Judge away, I know I'm not the only one that wonders these kind of things... %)
When I lay down in bed, close my eyes, and concentrate, within a few minutes I start to feel sensations very reminiscent of the onset of MDMA. It's a serotonin rushing feeling, like my brain is being flooded with 'something', and while it's not crazy euphoric, it's definitely enjoyable if you pay attention to it. I try to imagine myself feeling this way if I was standing up and bopping to some music, and I agree with myself
p) that this would most certainly feel like a full on roll. Unfortunately if I leave bed, the feeling goes away.
For comparison, back in December, I took a ~75mg insufflated hit of mephedrone and immediately layed down on my couch to watch a movie with friends. When the meph hit, my entire brain felt tingly, euphoric, warmed up, almost like someone was gently pouring luke-warm water over the top of my head. It's nearly the same exact feeling....
Anyone else get this? Is serotonin actually being released into a person's brain when they begin to enter the sleep cycle? I'm sure it has something to do with my body and mind getting comfy and settled in, but oh man if I could have this feeling without laying down......well....maybe I can!! Here's where the thread gets really weird:
On New Year's Eve, I dropped 110mg MDA/MDMA mixture, didn't roll very hard but still felt pretty nice. When I went to bed, as usual I was still feeling it, but very faintly. However, after a few minutes of settling into bed, the same serotonin flood feeling stated above started to come over me, but with MDMA in my system, it felt A LOT more pronounced, and I started to feel AMAZING, involuntarily moaining in euphoria. While in a hyper-sensative state like this, with absolutely no external stimulation, light, sound or anything, I felt like I could literally feel the chemicals being released from the top of my brain, and literally felt like I could feel a certain spot in my brain tensing to push out the neurotransmitters to the synapses.
Even further, I felt like I could voluntarily tense this muscle/area on my brain and trigger the release on command!! I know, you're about to click the back button, but listen!! The serotonin rush feeling I keep mentioning above, I would feel a very intense tingle and washing over feeling every time I would tense this spot up in my head. I couldn't imagine how I could possibly explain how to tense it, but then again, can you explain to someone in words how to make a fist? Anyway, I felt like I could voluntarily do this and it would consistently keep rushing my brain with tingles that felt absolutely fantastic.
Intrigued by this experience, I occasionally try to do the same thing when I'm sober. Call me crazy, but it still works. Obviously not as intense as if I'm on MDMA, but still, I feel like if I concentrate enough, I can tense this spot in my head up, and then a few seconds later, I feel that warmth and tingle wash over my brain. If I do this when I lay down in bed, it triggers nearly a full on rolling feeling that I actually can enjoy!
I also did the same thing after taking MDMA again twice after NYE, and still the exact result.
I promise I'm not high right now, I'm not crazy nor am I looking for attention. This is simply something I observe about myself, and can't think of anyone else better to discuss it with.
If no one can take this seriously, I suppose I understand.![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
When I lay down in bed, close my eyes, and concentrate, within a few minutes I start to feel sensations very reminiscent of the onset of MDMA. It's a serotonin rushing feeling, like my brain is being flooded with 'something', and while it's not crazy euphoric, it's definitely enjoyable if you pay attention to it. I try to imagine myself feeling this way if I was standing up and bopping to some music, and I agree with myself
p) that this would most certainly feel like a full on roll. Unfortunately if I leave bed, the feeling goes away.For comparison, back in December, I took a ~75mg insufflated hit of mephedrone and immediately layed down on my couch to watch a movie with friends. When the meph hit, my entire brain felt tingly, euphoric, warmed up, almost like someone was gently pouring luke-warm water over the top of my head. It's nearly the same exact feeling....
Anyone else get this? Is serotonin actually being released into a person's brain when they begin to enter the sleep cycle? I'm sure it has something to do with my body and mind getting comfy and settled in, but oh man if I could have this feeling without laying down......well....maybe I can!! Here's where the thread gets really weird:
On New Year's Eve, I dropped 110mg MDA/MDMA mixture, didn't roll very hard but still felt pretty nice. When I went to bed, as usual I was still feeling it, but very faintly. However, after a few minutes of settling into bed, the same serotonin flood feeling stated above started to come over me, but with MDMA in my system, it felt A LOT more pronounced, and I started to feel AMAZING, involuntarily moaining in euphoria. While in a hyper-sensative state like this, with absolutely no external stimulation, light, sound or anything, I felt like I could literally feel the chemicals being released from the top of my brain, and literally felt like I could feel a certain spot in my brain tensing to push out the neurotransmitters to the synapses.
Even further, I felt like I could voluntarily tense this muscle/area on my brain and trigger the release on command!! I know, you're about to click the back button, but listen!! The serotonin rush feeling I keep mentioning above, I would feel a very intense tingle and washing over feeling every time I would tense this spot up in my head. I couldn't imagine how I could possibly explain how to tense it, but then again, can you explain to someone in words how to make a fist? Anyway, I felt like I could voluntarily do this and it would consistently keep rushing my brain with tingles that felt absolutely fantastic.
Intrigued by this experience, I occasionally try to do the same thing when I'm sober. Call me crazy, but it still works. Obviously not as intense as if I'm on MDMA, but still, I feel like if I concentrate enough, I can tense this spot in my head up, and then a few seconds later, I feel that warmth and tingle wash over my brain. If I do this when I lay down in bed, it triggers nearly a full on rolling feeling that I actually can enjoy!
I also did the same thing after taking MDMA again twice after NYE, and still the exact result.
I promise I'm not high right now, I'm not crazy nor am I looking for attention. This is simply something I observe about myself, and can't think of anyone else better to discuss it with.
If no one can take this seriously, I suppose I understand.
Now, I can only wonder what this would do if I was on a psychedelic like mushrooms......it could potentially be spiritual!!!
It's really hard for me to tell when I'm depressed or anxious as a result from a drug because I generally seem to be an emotional roller coaster to begin with.
