Ok, I FINALLY got the real deal MXE from another official. In short, this MXE to me is EVERY little bit like K but 1000 times better is EVERY aspect. As long as I have MXE I will never touch K again, and I love K! I am an IM needle person as the ROA. My goals are simple. To take the chemical, enter in a world of the most intense, pleasurable closed eye visuals that are guided entirely by my vocal trance playing in my headphones. I call it the ultimate 3 dimensional movie playing in my mind. To be in “rooms” that are filled in by geometric shapes and textures that have a fluid like appearance. To fly over Las Vegas and New York City at night and look down and see all the lights and buildings as the Google Earth satellite sees them. To be able to zoom down to street level view in my mind and see these city’s in 3 dimensions all in pretty greens and yellows. This is like a plateau of the trip that I most enjoy. It is a plateau before the “hole” experience. The “hole” experience for me is all about life, pro-creation with my beautiful wife, even though we don’t have kids, existence as one with the universe, coming out of my body and being behind myself, kind of like a lot of other peoples “hole” experience. This MXE gave me both all the geometric shapes and brilliant textured rooms and cityscapes as K, but lasted SO MUCH longer!! The problem early on in the trip was that I was still in the mindset of K as far as dosing and re-dosing. Big mistake.
I started off last Thursday night at 7pm with a 25mg nasal dose to see if this MXE was even real because I have had bunk junk before and hadn’t tripped on it yet, so I didn’t know what it was really like. Like I said, I have specific goals for my trip and I am definitely a needle IM person. After 45 minutes from the first 25mg nasal dose, I just felt a little buzzed, no big deal, no nothing, but I knew it was real and it was going to take me somewhere once I loaded it up in the needle. You all who take small nasal doses can enjoy yourself but the magic happens at the IM level.
I then shot 80mg and was right in the SAME EXACT places K takes me as far as just before the “hole”. It was magic and I was so happy that it was EXACTLY like K for me, but it lasted for 3 to 4 solid hours. WOW, what a bang for your buck!! Only on 80mg. Then, I was in the mindset of K and I immeditaly re-dosed with 100mg, as that’s what I would have used with K to put me back where I wanted to be. Not a good idea!! This put me so far into the “hole” that I thought I was never coming out and I thought I kept re-dosing in an endless loop, but that really wasn’t the case. The “hole” was so intense and pleasurable but I was tearing myself up physically. My wife videotaped me in my “hole” experience, and it wasn’t pretty. I had gotten off the couch, ripped my headphones off, tried to walk through the glass coffee table, fell, cut up my forehead, my nose and then was laying on the floor with both feet up on my 50” plasma TV trying to knock it over. Lucky my plasma is 8 yrs old and weighs 110lbs and I wouldn’t budge. I do not remember doing any of this but I do remember where I was in the “hole” as it related to the screams I was letting out and my finger movements. When I was screaming and thrashing about on the floor, that was the part in the “hole” that I was one with the universe pro-creating with my wife, as if I was giving birth, I guess it was the ultimate orgasm. Watching this video being sober gave me the understanding that this cannot be dosed like K and now that is burned in my mind so when I trip again on MXE, I will dose MXE style, NOT K style. I had to watch the video to come to this realization.
So it was like 7am now, 12 hours later and I had shot a total of 180mg over this 12 hours. I wanted to goto bed but couldn’t. I was still seeing beautifull visuals and was wide awake. I took 2 estrazolam, a sleeping pill (a mild xanax) and went to bed. Got up at 3pm that afternoon, not fully rested, and that’s when I watched my video of myself and learned. Then I loaded up only 60mg in the needle and shot, and it took me RIGHT BACK to where I was, on my favorite plateau with the visuals and movies in my head. One of these shots lasts a good 2 hours, intense visual wise for me, so I redosed with 50mg IM after that and went right back to where I was. So PERFECT!!! I could have kept going on like this all night again but I stopped.
The comedown. The comedown is beautiful too. This MXE is one super anti-depressant. My wife had done 25mg nasally the before with me and I could tell she was just being super-nice to everyone the next day. Everything was perfect, but I just didn’t feel all “there” yet. This was Saturday now. I did get those tension headaches in the back of the neck that a lot of people take about, but Tylenol fixes that. They did come back again though. Strange.
About the “opiate” relation. I was addicted to pain pills for 10 yrs (clean for 5 .5 now), so I know my opiates very well as far as their effect on my body. I know all about constipation too from opiates. I have taken some pain pills here and there since being addicted and I immediately would get constipated, immediately. If I took two 5mg percocets now, I would be constipated.This MXE did not constipate me at all. My personal belief is that this MXE is in no way an opiate.
I wouldn't go anywhere near 100mg inter-nasally, let alone 180mg IV. Sweeeeeet Jesus
