IndustrialStrength
Bluelighter
@ Need Some Help.
Glad to see you also benefit from this thread.
I personally am not to concerned atm about jumping on & off.
I get my sub's on the street so it's not like I'm in any real maintenance program.
I mostly regret jumping off because of the up's & down's.
I have less problems with mood swings & other issues if I just stick to the sub's daily.
But as I stated in my NSFW & such with my friend & a few other things it's just to much to deal with without full agonists.
As I said I experience bad physical effects from stress & as such decided full agonist's where a lesser evil than the stress effects.
I'm sorry to hear that you also experience the muscle aches.
I find that after a few days on sub they go away but every time I switch off & back on they come back for a few days.
Which like I said is odd for me as muscle aches are not normally a large component of my w/d's.
I hope you do change your thought pattern if your serious about getting off full agonist's your better off not doing them even on occasion.
As I'm not quite set on that route I have more leeway I guess.
With some chronic pain issues & such I haven't made a mental decision to go off entirely.
Thus the sub & the jumping back & forth.
The sub's seem to do a halfway decent job with the pain, well not great but bearable.
The only way I might regret my choices is if I decide to bang anything I might acquire.
I really don't feel comfortable doing so without a micron & I've explained my logic on them in prior posts.
Though at this point I'm pretty sure I'll just end up getting them regardless.
If it wasn't for the cost factor I wouldn't even be considering IV usage until I get them.
It's hard not to though considering the terrible hygiene my friends have & there lack of problems from it.
I figure with my more sterile practices it can't be that bad...
But then my good ole anxiety kicks in & goes over the million & 1 risks involved.
Can't seem to win on this one.
Either way don't be jealous as to be honest I'd rather just stay on the sub & not have to deal with being half sick for a day or 2 to switch back on.
I'd rather just stay stable on the sub but it just doesn't seem feasible atm.
With dealing with my sad friend & friends coming by & shooting up in front of me constantly it's hard to do.
Maybe if I had some M-Amp to mix with some benzo's on top of my sub's I could pull it off but I'm out of amps.
For me the closest to full agonist's or feeling right I can get is by throwing M-Amp & benzo's on top of my sub's.
I'm sure it also doesn't help that even when I'm on sub's I'm still helping friends out with hook's & such.
Probably "triggering" myself as they say but as I stated above I end up feeling bad if I don't help people out.
Regardless I just wanted to respond as the last thing I want to do is make anyone jealous or question there maintenance.
Our situations are likely quite different & what works for me might not work for you.
I hope that maintenance works for you & that you continue to do well with it.
Don't ever let anyone else's experiences make you question your convictions.
As you can probably tell I'm much better at helping others than helping myself but I think I already mentioned that. 8)
Anyways once again I'm out but I had to reply & wish you the best of luck with your maintenance.
Just curious though why the huge dose increase?
Also what was the increase to & from?
I've never really tried high doses as I've never really heard anything to beneficial regarding going higher.
Hell I think the most I've done at a time is 1mg maybe 1.5mg.
I've always been very conservative with sub's.
Seeing as this is answering some other poster's & such I won't NSFW it this time.
At least I try to spread out my wall's of text into readable sections.
Glad to see you also benefit from this thread.
I personally am not to concerned atm about jumping on & off.
I get my sub's on the street so it's not like I'm in any real maintenance program.
I mostly regret jumping off because of the up's & down's.
I have less problems with mood swings & other issues if I just stick to the sub's daily.
But as I stated in my NSFW & such with my friend & a few other things it's just to much to deal with without full agonists.
As I said I experience bad physical effects from stress & as such decided full agonist's where a lesser evil than the stress effects.
I'm sorry to hear that you also experience the muscle aches.
I find that after a few days on sub they go away but every time I switch off & back on they come back for a few days.
Which like I said is odd for me as muscle aches are not normally a large component of my w/d's.
I hope you do change your thought pattern if your serious about getting off full agonist's your better off not doing them even on occasion.
As I'm not quite set on that route I have more leeway I guess.
With some chronic pain issues & such I haven't made a mental decision to go off entirely.
Thus the sub & the jumping back & forth.
The sub's seem to do a halfway decent job with the pain, well not great but bearable.
The only way I might regret my choices is if I decide to bang anything I might acquire.
I really don't feel comfortable doing so without a micron & I've explained my logic on them in prior posts.
Though at this point I'm pretty sure I'll just end up getting them regardless.
If it wasn't for the cost factor I wouldn't even be considering IV usage until I get them.
It's hard not to though considering the terrible hygiene my friends have & there lack of problems from it.
I figure with my more sterile practices it can't be that bad...
But then my good ole anxiety kicks in & goes over the million & 1 risks involved.
Can't seem to win on this one.

Either way don't be jealous as to be honest I'd rather just stay on the sub & not have to deal with being half sick for a day or 2 to switch back on.

I'd rather just stay stable on the sub but it just doesn't seem feasible atm.
With dealing with my sad friend & friends coming by & shooting up in front of me constantly it's hard to do.
Maybe if I had some M-Amp to mix with some benzo's on top of my sub's I could pull it off but I'm out of amps.
For me the closest to full agonist's or feeling right I can get is by throwing M-Amp & benzo's on top of my sub's.
I'm sure it also doesn't help that even when I'm on sub's I'm still helping friends out with hook's & such.
Probably "triggering" myself as they say but as I stated above I end up feeling bad if I don't help people out.
Regardless I just wanted to respond as the last thing I want to do is make anyone jealous or question there maintenance.
Our situations are likely quite different & what works for me might not work for you.
I hope that maintenance works for you & that you continue to do well with it.
Don't ever let anyone else's experiences make you question your convictions.
As you can probably tell I'm much better at helping others than helping myself but I think I already mentioned that. 8)
Anyways once again I'm out but I had to reply & wish you the best of luck with your maintenance.
Just curious though why the huge dose increase?
Also what was the increase to & from?
I've never really tried high doses as I've never really heard anything to beneficial regarding going higher.
Hell I think the most I've done at a time is 1mg maybe 1.5mg.
I've always been very conservative with sub's.
Seeing as this is answering some other poster's & such I won't NSFW it this time.
At least I try to spread out my wall's of text into readable sections.
