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Roger&Me said:
What really scared me about adderall, was how its the only drug I've ever taken that literally changed my whole personality while I was on it and made me into a different person with totally different values. A staunchly reductionist, productivity-oriented jackass basically.

I'm actually way more productive now without the adderall anyways. When I think about things, I can ponder and meander around the concepts-- not power through them like a bulldozer. On adderall, all the subtlety of life is missed. You have no time for it, you're too spun-- you hyper-focus on the surface level. I would sit down and truck through problems for 8 hours without a break, and at the end of the day I would have a whole bunch of scribblings on paper to show for it but no deep comprehension of the material.

I've learned that nothing will ever make academic work easy, its just hard. And you have to REALLY suck it up and work hard, and it just feels unpleasant a lot of the time. But there's no short-cut that takes you to the same destination as just plain hard work with a clear, sober mind.
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Excellently put.

I hate my day right now but I'm trying to keep a smile on... I got surprised with having to work. So I didn't arrange a ride with my parents. So I have to take the city bus, which wouldn't be so bad- but it's freezing and raining out and the nearest bus stop is like a mile away.
 
Man, I'm getting a surprisingly little to no body load right now on 30mg of dextroamphetamine. Not sure I really saw much of an increased effect with the piracetam. Maybe 1.5 grams wasn't enough? Though that seems rather odd considering that will completely change how quickly I get drunk, and particularly black out.

Totally should have basified my stomach a bit, but didn't. I'd wager my stomach was a bit to acidic (I just woken up and basically had just water in my stomach - I drank 32 oz a few hours before i woke up for the start of day). Next time I'll try the piracetam and sodium bicarbonate combo before I dose. Anyone know the ideal waiting period between these supplements and the amphetamine?

edit: I got a gift card for my birthday for amazon and I just bought myself part A of Carey and Sundbergs Advanced Organic Chemistry. I'm retaking organic II because I wasn't satisfied with how I did in the class and this book should be able to help me out a lot. I mean, I've already read through the book for the class and have good understanding of the material, so I should be able to get a lot more in depth (I want to get an A, there is no reason not to, and organic chemistry is most interesting thing that I'll take with the exception of maybe biochem, not to mention I'd like my career to deal with organic chemistry above all else).
 
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^I don't ever get much body load with dex. I actually might eat myself a couple of 10mg tablets, feeling really sleepy. In fact; gobble gobble...:)

So yay- me and Miss Willow are going to see Shpongle live early next year. Fucking pumped.

And also; I get to see the mighty HAWKWIND!!!! Miss Willow bought some tickets; in exchange I have to go see James Blunt with her....

Hooray, and now off to work :)

Have a lovely day guys and gals <3
 
i may stay.
if certain people stay out of here.
certain people should choke on a dick and die.
 
Ugh, so jealous willow. Nothing like a solid shpongle performance, which means, you can't beat a live one :D. I was only able to see Simon DJ, though his DJ set would out of this world. They put on a great visual performance for the show (interpretative theater like dancing: DMT like entities interacting with each on the stage, creating little stories). Luckily that night was a full twisted event. Had OTT live, hallucinogen live (for some reason I still have problems spelling this word) in dub with Ott, Prometheus DJ, and of course Shpongle DJ set.

I wish Younger brother was there. I can't wait till I get the opportinuity to see them. If I'd know they were at moog fest (they werent announced for the longest time, and I actually didn't hear about they going till after moog fest), I'd bought a ticket back in August. Oh well... I really want to see them when the new album was released, though I am upset I never got to see them before the new album, just to get more of the dark psy experience that seems to contrast the new album.

Hope you have a wonderful rest of your day willow! Enjoy that little boost of energy with the dex.

I will admit when I was taking amphetamines regularly I was using the dextro/levo mixture (ER verison, not sure if it is racemic or lend to one end), and I know the levo can add some peripheral side effects. After my two years of daily use when ever I take stimulants I seem to have higher chance or getting body load, even when I have taken specifically the dextro enantiomer.

Man, let me tell you, if you guys like downtempo, check out Jon Hopkins. Right now I'm listening to the the album Contact Note, which is more ambient than some of his other works I have. The album insides has a boarder spectrum of styles (not that it is indicative of the quality) such as IDM, breaks, and neo-classical.

I probably should stop getting stuck in amphetamine forum posting mode, and get out to the library pretty soon. Or fuck, I could rock some homework here since I'm not as easily broken away from concentration at this point. Do most people have the ability to concentrate like this regularly? I've always wondered that... I can't concentrate to save my life (been a problem since as long as I've gone to school, teachers could never figure out how to work with me), and if this is how it feels (of course with out the stimulation and the euphoria) to concentrate like a normal person, I'm extremely jealous. Yeah amps give you a bit of a motivational boost, but I can actually sit down and read a book with out stopping every few sentences to get my head back on straight. Gonna talk to my doctor over winter break to see if I can get my old script back. Hopefully IRs though, I don't want to ERs because i don't want to be jacked up on the stuff for the whole day if I don't have to. Extend period use brings out all the negatives of amps. It is the reason why I stopped taking it back in high school. The negative effects just caught up with me. A bodyload started to appear, the euphoria went away, dry mouth, it exacerbated my SAD just a bit (I can talk to people I know all day long like a fiend on the stuff, but not to random people), and I just wasn't acting like the *insert my name* that I normal am.
 
LMA, I understand your frustrations. I was about to post not the most appropriate response last night to a couple of peoples attitudes, and they way they were projecting themselves within posts. However, some times you just gotta let it go. You can't please everyone, and you'll always have someone jumping down your back because of who you are. Take what they say with a grain of salt. You know yourself better than anyone, not to mention the internet isn't completely indicative of someones personality in real life. If anyone chilled with me from bluelight, I promise I'd end up not being who they completely expect me to be. There are certain things that for some reason I just like to share in this thread, and other aspects of my life, I don't mention at all.

Take the high road. There will always be someone who appreciates what you post. I personally love reading about peoples current drug adventures. There aren't many places in life where that is appropriate. I love to get feedback, or even to have people just tell me to have a good time (sharing experiences with someone is fun! We can live slightly vicariously through others and appreciate what they experiencing). One thing I will not stop is telling people that I'm enjoying a drug experience, even if at the time the words being projected are slightly hedonistic (come on hedonism runs straight to our core essence if you ask me, avoidance of pain and seeking of pleasure [even those who devote their whole lives to others are still exhibiting these traits]).

I'm running on tangents, but basically, I'd say LMA that there are plenty of people who enjoy your posts in here and understand/appreciate your position, so ignore those who who don't, and be the bigger man. No need for name calling.
 
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LSDMDMA&9043444 said:
i may stay.
if certain people stay out of here.
certain people should choke on a dick and die.
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Like those who are hostile enough to suggest the death of other people?

If you were in any way listening to me, you would've noticed that I wasn't making personal attacks, or being angry or spiteful until you felt the need to be such to me. I apologized for an assumption, may I say an assumption that was phrased in a questioning and caring context. I've made very little criticism of your drug habits, and I would say they were phrased constructively. In fact, I would put them in the category of advice, not criticism.

I'm more upset by the way you feel you have the right to speak to others on this board. The way you have spoken to me and others is completely unacceptable. Yes, we haven't been 100% supportive, but we aren't just responding to you with "fuck off" and other phrases worded much more rudely than necessary. Do you actually speak to people this way in person?

You've convinced me to stay out of here. Quite honestly, if everyone is going to go to the defense of someone who is unnecessarily mean to other people, I don't want to be around. I've met enough people who yell and are hurtful with swear words and insults whenever mildly irritated in real life. I don't want to know these people.

Never Knows Best said:
I am not saying that LMA's harsher responses should be condoned, however taking into account the above and his youth, his reaction is understandable.
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Then why is no one but me pointing it out, and instead showing support, and condoning it? Look at the quote at the top of this post. Seriously. And quite honestly, if that statement is insinuating that we can relax standards of conduct for younger people because "they don't know better", that concept is insulting to not only them, but to everyone else as well.

Negativity is not always just something to drop. Problems are best solved, not ignored. Everyone is just saying "why aren't we being positive, just stop talking." How logical of an approach does that seem?


And on that note, I'm out. Love and luck to you all.
 
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Man all this negativity is getting pretty ridiculous. Can we just drop it and get along, like we always have?

I mean its like, just the internets. Its for fun, why we gotta fight?

IMO, we should kill this thread and start a new happy one-- this is almost 4k posts anyways.
 
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Lma chill out. At this point you're the only One being negative. Take a few days off BL and cool off. You're taking some silly Internet bullshit to heart. It's not a big deal bro, they were trying to give u good advice, you don't have to take it, you do need quit with the insults tho. Id have probably already given you an infraction, the other mods are nicer than I was I guess.
But anyway just chill, you're harshing my mellow.
 
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It's just teh monday blues guys, happens to everyone when they roll... Just be thankful you're not anywhere on the bi-polar spectrum and serotonin imbalance is your daily cross to bear.

Now, for some lighthearted derping of teh herps:

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awww the vibe in here is disappointing. lma don't worry about the bullshit anyone says about you or a drug you like or whatever else; ignore them like they ignored you. take a break if you have to--we're not going anywhere.

literally whatever was said doesn't matter. you know what you know, you don't know what you don't know. live, learn. rinse repeat. this isn't a dicksizing contest. even if you 'won' the fight last night it wouldn't change anything. you have a tendency to get defensive even when most would deem it unnecessary (i.e. misread jokes) so just notice your reactions and how they steer the convo.

in other news i got a new avvy :)
 
Flarestar89 said:
Then why is no one but me pointing it out, and instead showing support, and condoning it? Look at the quote at the top of this post. Seriously. And quite honestly, if that statement is insinuating that we can relax standards of conduct for younger people because "they don't know better", that concept is insulting to not only them, but to everyone else as well.

Negativity is not always just something to drop. Problems are best solved, not ignored. Everyone is just saying "why aren't we being positive, just stop talking." How logical of an approach does that seem?


And on that note, I'm out. Love and luck to you all.
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Please don't leave us, Flarestar. :( In my eyes you're a highly valuable contribution to PD Social.

But, to answer the first question -- the only reason I've been fairly laid back about LMA's posts was the fact that multiple people, including myself, tried to give him advice, but he simply refused to listen. No sense in saying something twice, really.
 
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